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  • poesieposen
    17.04.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Speaking of the devil

    I’m sober.

    I avoid addiction,

    I’m no more addicted to the fiction of

    you and me meeting in my kitchen.

    I’m sober.

    The distance means no obstacle

    to me no more.

    I’m sober.

    Cause you and me live close to each other.

    And brother it doesn’t bother me.

    I’m sober.

    I play another strategy.

    I spread the heat of human fusion.

    I no longer keep illusions in my head.

    I’m sober.

    I don’t break no rules instead.

    Every spark of this cancer is dead.

    I’m sober.

    I cancelled all the false emotions.

    No notion to you, no no notion of you.

    I’m sober.

    I could live in your house and I wouldn’t

    relapse. Perhaps I wouldn’t even notice

    Your death.

    I’m sober.

    I’m so glad it’s over.

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  • shroomikytten
    17.04.2021 - 3 hours ago

    I finally gathered up my senses and decided to go lay down in my bed. Sweat drips down my face and neck, and I can hear my heartbeat in my ears. 'What the fuck am I doing to myself? Why do I do this?' I ask myself quietly in my mind. I've been in this position way too many times. This is just what an addict does. I've smoked all my ice, and I've probably spent about five hours searching on the floors, bathrooms, bags and counters for any tiny little shard. The dumbest thing about that? I know that even if I did find a little piece (I'm not going to), it won't be enough to smoke, ever.

    Every single time fresh air hits a part of my body, chills overcome me. I'm cold, sweaty, shakey... and I am craving. I'm empty. What is wrong with my brain, why do I continue to look for this high? B, why the hell are you smoking this stuff? I want to cry, but no tears come out. I feel an intense sadness, but my mind does not want to go down that path. I've been hurting so much that my brain tries it's hardest to suppress anything that will trigger even the slightest bit of anxiety. It's so fun in the beginning... but when I want more, that's when I hurt. I'm breaking myself down more and more each time... will I be able to gather the will to change my ways? This isn't what I need to be happy, no. It's far from it. I can be healthy without that glass pipe.

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  • askthesobersponsor
    17.04.2021 - 4 hours ago

    Examine Life

    “The unexamined life is not worth living” - Socrates
    For Today -- When we retire at night, we constructively review our day. Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid? Do we owe an apology? Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once? Were we kind and loving toward all? What could we have done better? Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time? Or were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life? -- Alcoholics Anonymous, page 86 ************************************************************************** Self-observation brings man to the realization of the necessity of self-change. And in observing himself a man notices that self-observation itself brings about certain changes in his inner processes. He begins to understand that self-observation is an instrument of self-change, a means of awakening. -- G.I. Gurdjieff ************************************************************************** Every situation, properly perceived, becomes an opportunity to heal. -- A Course In Miracles
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  • calmandcomical
    17.04.2021 - 5 hours ago

    A Quick Look at My Own Addiction and What I Can Do About It.

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  • adamdyersays
    17.04.2021 - 7 hours ago

    Fear

    New Blog Post: "Fear" @revimonroe @davidhogg111 @AMarch4OurLives @uua @sfrederickgray @gregmepstein

    “Guns are not legal in the United States and its territories.” These are the only words from political leaders that will make a difference for the American addiction to guns. This country has incredible problems with addiction in general, but the most lethal addiction, which fuels not only our sick gun culture but the opioid crisis, the debt crisis, White nationalism, racism, xenophobia, sexism,…

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  • itersobriiestote
    17.04.2021 - 7 hours ago

    “Depression, anxiety and excitement were the only emotions I felt.”

    “I was given the gift of exhaustion, I couldn’t keep living this way.”

    Some quotes I’ve heard the past two days that hit me hard.

    I’m feeling very very restless the past few days. I’m itching for something. My emotions are hanging out and hovering. I don’t know what they mean. I don’t want to drink but I want to feel. I want to feel happy. I want my mind to stop racing.

    I’m about to clean my house so hopefully that will help me get rid of some of this nervous energy.

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  • lazmasaba
    17.04.2021 - 12 hours ago

    To a parent with a child who is struggling with drugs #addiction , Alcohol, Weed, or anything worse. . . . i hope you see this one day. I have never met one child who's dream was to be a crackhead. As in, I have never heard a single child say "daddy, i wd like to be a drug addict". They'll always say a Lawyer, doctor, Engineer, soldier..but not a drug addict. Something happens in life that makes people go in certain directions unwillingly , and if you can take them back to that point where they made that choice to pick that cigarette, that bottle, that powder, that injection and make it their companion....then you can or could help them find their healing. But if you are always judging them, always making them feel worse about themselves whenever they are around you, worse than they already felt, then trust me you are not only going to lose your child completely but also destroy them completely and them blame them. So if you want to help your child, stop being his/her court of law, and FIRST BE HIS/HER SAFE SPACE. . . then pray for her. It may not happen overnight, but one day he will chose you over that drug. . . . #Lazhere #Mentalhealth4All #ChangeIsPossible #fightingaddictiontogether #repost when you see this pliz. https://www.instagram.com/p/CNwkf92nr0R/?igshid=1k05b29m0h4r4

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  • living-dead-princesss
    17.04.2021 - 12 hours ago

    I smell like cigarettes and campfire right now

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  • fallingdeepin2thevoid
    17.04.2021 - 14 hours ago

    Keep On Dreamin....

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  • bulletinwave
    17.04.2021 - 15 hours ago

    A Kansas City couple's nonprofit helps people recover from addiction

    A Kansas City couple’s nonprofit helps people recover from addiction

    KANSAS CITY, Mo. – Rob and Anissa Elsey have created some of their best memories in a place they never thought of visiting: an Oxford House. The national organization provides a structure and a sober living environment for people recovering from drug or alcohol addiction. It has offices throughout the Kansas City, Missouri area. The Northland Kansas City couple found themselves in an Oxford House…

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  • delirious-trustations
    17.04.2021 - 17 hours ago

    Let me tell you about my moderation story.

    I chose to quit smoking cigarettes in December- shortly after my brother died and right at the beginning steps towards me owning a business and changing my life. I was already at a stressed sad time in my life where I needed help mentally, but somehow I was able to quit smoking and get through it.

    Then my stress got worse and I began talking about how I wanted a cigarette more and more. February rolled around and my alcoholic father was put in the ICU experiencing severe withdrawal. I cried and said "I wish they sold 2-packs of cigarettes just so I could get my fix. My husband bought me a regular pack and gave me one, saying he would hang on to the rest. It was 1 a day for 2 days, then I began wanting more. He would roll his eyes at me and say okay because he just wanted to help. He had them locked in our safe to prevent me from grabbing more, but he forgot that I knew where the spare key was. When he would leave for more than 30 minutes, I would sneak another. Eventually I said "I don't want this to be you in control of me. Let me finish it off and I won't ask for anymore. I'm done, I promise." But one stressful angry day at work lead me to break that promise and go buy myself another pack.

    I felt guilty and ashamed. I smoked 3 a day when I got home from work. Everyone at work at this point was aware that I quit. I had multiple people ask me how it was going. I put on this face that it was going great without mentioning the fact that I was still smoking at home. I didn't want to feel the shame and disappointment from others. My husband told me if I was going to keep smoking, he wasn't going to help by getting them for me. There were days off where I literally walked to the mini mart just to by them to prove I didn't need his help.

    Now, its April. 2 days ago when my weekend started, my husband bought me another pack (i had been going through them slower than when I was smoking, which I used to try an justify). Now its 4 days later and I'm halfway through the second pack I asked him to buy. Today is the first day that I experienced a headache from nicotine withdrawal. As soon as I came home and smoked, it was gone. The mini garbage can in the backyard is getting full with cigarette butts while 4 empty packs rest of the shelf by our back door.

    The realization came to me that this was no longer some innocent coping method that I had rationalized in my mind. I was addicted to cigarettes. It's said that smokers quit several times before actually quitting, and I realized this is one of those times for me.

    The lying, the rationalizing, the desperation, it was all part of my addiction to cigarettes.

    This is in no way physically comparative to true drug users, but this is just a very mild look at the mental side of addiction. Moderation did not work. I am addicted to cigarettes, and my brain tries to find any way to prove that its okay or beneficial, when it not. People cope with their life shit without smoking cigarettes. I'm not a rare case. I'm just like everyone else going through shit, but I deal with it in a unhealthy way.

    Its weird when you realize it, but still feel no will to change it because you feel its so helpful.

    Just venting. Thank you for reading if you did.

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  • aisforanxious
    17.04.2021 - 17 hours ago

    03:05

    Currently, I’m parked up at a McDonalds carpark, using their wifi because why? I’m your stereotypical, cheap ass Asian who loves to save/free shit LOL. I’m not sure if I’m disappointed in myself or if I’m just being a dickhead in general. Like, I thought this this would be a clean fucking slate, y’know? New age, new year kinda thing. Boredom just fucking slammed into me and what do I do? I end…

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  • benvivasart
    17.04.2021 - 18 hours ago

    “I hate that I bleed for you Uh, I long and I need for you But I love it when I taste you Nothing can replace you I wish I could erase you, you're everywhere I go But you're everywhere I long to be And all these other people that don't seem to understand I'm just a man they always ask what's wrong with me Man you're everything I crave You're the only thing I let in that would put me in the grave I'm a king, you're my Coretta But lately I been feeling like a slave for the nicotine.”

    Nikki - Logic

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  • nikki1baby
    17.04.2021 - 19 hours ago

    TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

    This is why don't shoot meth. This is a missed shot.

    #iv drug use #meth addict#missed#drug blog #drug addict problems #high on drugs #girls who like drugs #drugs cw#illegal drugs#drug addiction#drugs #dont do what i do #dont do drugs #problems #cant take it anymore #body#tattoed girls#need help#addiction#addicted #addicted to drugs
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  • lonelyangelonlyangel
    16.04.2021 - 19 hours ago

    never in my life did i think i would be defending and want to stick up for the girl this bitch is attacking of all people but lmao i’m sorry?? i thought a girl who got caught using the hard n word being racist as fuck, was caught on video at the height of covid at frat parties where bodies were stacked wall to wall, the three of us share an ex so she can’t even speak on drugs, is too young to drink but has forever and that’s not all she’s putting in her cup, etc etc etc. had sumn to say?? she can make her money how she wants idc but it’s immature and disgusting for her to firstly put down the other girl for being a server like that makes her any less of a person and secondly, all the put downs referring to her issues with addiction and the dui are nasty and honestly considering our mutual shared person a little fucking weird. this girl has self esteem issues and gets it through sex and prioritizing money i know, and i know enough about the girl she’s attacking that it really pisses me off even though this girl is one of the last girls on earth i would worry about typically

    #after me he really went for the fckn ghetto #so disgusting #idgi when this girl thinks every single thing is about money i know it’s her self esteem issues but damn go to therapy #maybe not everyone wants to pop their pussy on of and that’s ok either way #personal#drama#Twitter beef#mental illness#addicts#addiction#hypocrite
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  • vivid-pixels
    16.04.2021 - 19 hours ago

    Addicted to a losing game 🎶🎧

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  • depressed-1-right-here
    16.04.2021 - 20 hours ago

    to my dad ;

    you promised, you promised me that you wouldn’t get drunk anymore. not when i was here, and not when i was feeling bad. you were the only one left, the only person in my life that i had left that sure, had let me down in the past but had wholeheartedly promised not to do it again.

    i was already doing the worst i’ve been since my attempt

    i trusted you, you were the only one i had left. everyone else had let me down

    why’d you have to fuck it up

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  • depressed-1-right-here
    16.04.2021 - 21 hours ago

    i hate this i hate this

    i hate it when he drinks

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