if you also can’t focus on just one things when studying and is like “oh i’ll listen to music while i study” and then you cant focus on the studying because the music is really great so you go “well i’ll listen to nothing while i study” and get bored there is this app called tide that plays neutral sounds while you focus. so you know, you’re not under-stimulated but you also dont quit studying and start dancing around in your room.
it helps me a lot, so yeah
The plus side of having to use my backup 27mg Concerta has been that my heart has been that my heart rate has come down from like 140 bpm at the beginning of the day.
On the downside, I cannot do the same thing for longer than 15 minutes or even sit still, I have been rolling around on my bed and on my floor mat and the foam roller, then trying to do the same thing for like 40 minutes or maybe an hour or something, it’s weird because I can’t actually remember when I first remembered that I put my speaker somewhere funny, also I think I’ve been listening to the same song on loop for a while, god I still have so much to do like a WEBSITE also I think I need to get groceries, not to mention all the cleaning that still needs to be done so I can get this stupid office functional, I still haven’t looked at my room divider and I’m really excited about it bc I’ve wanted something like it for so long, god imagine if I got some fairylights for it or something, but there was also the moon lamp that I was thinking about and I’m still not sure if that would actually be a useful light source or it would just be a frivolous purchase in the end, but I definitely need to consider getting that Body-kun and Body-chan set so I can do more pose studies, plus my friend said they would try to find their old tablet for me so I can start doing even MORE art and that’ll be cool, oh my god why does my wrist hurt so much, oh my god, oh my god, I want my brain to be quiet for ONE minute
And that’s the tea on that
i need some answers about a school project about plushies and being disabled/neurodivergent. i’ll put the link in a reblog so tumblr doesn’t destroy my post but please go answer it if you like, it’s not very long
One of the hardest things in psychological evaluation for me is remembering how long the symptom existed.
“Did you struggle with recalling memories before you were 12yo?”
I don’t?? Remember??? That’s the problem???
Like, I wouldn’t be surprised if the first juggler was some neurodivergent person sitting there and tossing a stick repeatedly until they noticed it looked kinda neat
ya know its just great when both you and your friend assume the person hates you when they dont respond to your messages, me because adhd and my friend because anxiety
especially when you message eachother through instagram and your phone is blocked and hers is so cracked she has tape keeping the screen together
Life is fun
So cleaning my room has always been a super difficult thing to do. I often had my sister help, because finding the energy to get to it and stay focus on it was just… not there. Now that I think I have adhd and I know what executive dysfonction is, I guess it’s that.
Anwyay, I’ve found that focusing on one little thing at a time- putting that one thing in the bathroom, rearranging my shirts and coats in a good order- really helps.
Because it’s just a little task I need to do, and then I’m « done ». I also try to finish what I started rather than get distracted; if I’m cleaning my desk I’ll put aside what needs to be moved and worry about it when I’m done with my desk. Well, sometimes I do the thing right as I see it so I don’t procrastinate and end up not doing it because I forgot. It depends on the time :)
my adhd is weaponized against my depression and anxiety i feel a depressive spiral of bad thoughts coming on and i just blast that shit with some ONE BAD GLOOP THEN SHE DO WHAT I YOINKY or if im lying in bed and start to remember dumb shit i did six years ago whoops nope ka-blammo, blow that all away with some HYPERFIXATION DAYDREAMING i am fucking untouchable and my attention span is in the negatives
how did no one catch my adhd in 21 yes lile my Ritalin kicked in and made me pass tf out for 3 hrs bc I didn’t have any caffeine w it
the thing is i’m constantly on a scale where at one end its crippling anxiety and worrying that everyone secretly hates me so i misinterpret even the smallest things leading me to not trust anyone
on the other its i seriously do not know what is a joke so half the time i’m just laughing when other people do bc everyone else is so i should too
so its like am i not getting the joke is this even a joke or do i just have bad trust and anxiety issues
tune in next week for more of chloe’s confusing antics
Apparently if neurotypicals ask “what are you reading?” they’re not… asking to be shown the book… they… they are wanting to know about your interests?
It’s been like… an hour now… and this still does not make sense?
Me at 1am scrolling through tumblr: I forgot to eat dinner didn’t I
I was too busy playing video games
*sighs* *puts on orange horn headband* well… guess who’s hyperfixated on homestuck again…
