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  • agothorn
    21.07.2021 - 2 days ago

    i miss the bus and now im worried imma be late to my doctor’s appointment again

    #text #im tryin to reach out to my uncle for a ride but he isnt awake yet #im full of anxiety and tiredness today #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents
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  • agothorn
    16.07.2021 - 1 week ago

    I have group therapy today and I have a feeling like I already fucked it up

    #BC BC i had it scheduled yesterday on my phone calendar #but the email says TODAY so i waited till TODAY #sure i could have called in and ASKED but also anxiety spiked and i didnt #now my anxiety says i fucked up somehow #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents
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  • agothorn
    05.07.2021 - 2 weeks ago

    I just realized that I have group therapy now and meeting my doctor this month and I hope I can make to both appointments

    #i missed my first doctor's app bc i been dissociating in my room and forgot i am a living PERSON #I BEEN A LIVING PERSON THIS WHOLE TIME AND I FORGOT #aside from that i know imma show up in dirty ass clothes bc we have no money for laundry until karla gets paid #coming back to reality is a fucking TRIP MAN #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents
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  • agothorn
    24.06.2021 - 1 mont ago

    My uncle, the one with cancer, is visiting rn and we're all drinking like everything is okay

    He and my dad are watching basketball and playing video games together

    #agothorn speaks#alchohol mention#cancer mention #my uncle is my dad's brother btw #he bought beer and wine for everyone and wanna forget all things bad #and so for the night we'll do that #agothorn vents
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  • agothorn
    14.06.2021 - 1 mont ago

    tmi under the cut, related to my second covid shot and period

    I got my period just shortly after my second covid shot, and I got the "covid arm" thing going on at the same time, so my right arm has a red spot and kinda swollen and a bit itchy. and I feel drained from my period cramps

    So I'm not having a fun time rn; esp knowing that the covid shots can possibly make my period heavier and I'm not vibing with that

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #despite it all im glad i got the shots #imma take some tylenol later but rn imma lay down and see if a some sleep can help
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  • agothorn
    10.06.2021 - 1 mont ago

    We got some food and cleaning supplies today and we'll pay for our bills tomorrow

    After that we'll be back to being broke ✌

    #i nearly had a break down in walmart today! #i was super stressed about not having enough for the shit we needed #also dad is planning on calling around to get help with furnishing bc we literally have nothing #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents
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  • agothorn
    09.06.2021 - 1 mont ago

    Between, me, my dad, and karla; we all have 35.25 dollars

    And idk how much karla and I nana checks will be and I'm stressed the fuck out

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #i feel like it wont be enough for everything we need #and it doesnt help that karla and i are cant find a job #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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  • agothorn
    29.05.2021 - 1 mont ago

    Pearl left for the village and her sewing friend took material to help finish stuff and the only things I can do is maybe sew together 2 kids sets but I have no idea how to do that, I only know how to sew trim onto the pockets, cuffs, and hoods; and sew the pockets onto the front body

    So I either do just that and wait for pearl to call me back with instructions??? Idk

    #agothorn speaks #im worried i may screw up on them #agothorn vents
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  • agothorn
    28.05.2021 - 1 mont ago

    We just learned that my aanaa has cancer, and my dad is sad now and idk how to feel about the news

    #agothorn speaks #i dont know how to handle bad news and grief #agothorn vents #so im just focusing on the sewing stuff and cooking dinner rn #also i learned that lung cancer runs in the family #bc my uncle also has cancer rn
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  • agothorn
    21.05.2021 - 2 monts ago

    I'm applying for jobs again and I see Wendy's is hiring again and am I desperate enough to reapply there?

    #its the only wendys in town #and i hated it there but money #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #i am going back to therapy and meds so maybe maybe i wont have a panic attack daily like last time
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  • agothorn
    27.04.2021 - 2 monts ago

    i was told i needed to call and make an appointment with my doctor and my anxiety brain said “how about we put that off as long as possible” and now im 3150 support in ovw

    #text#agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #i havent seen nor spoke with my doctor in a year--and i need to talk to her about updating medical plans and the like
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  • agothorn
    26.04.2021 - 2 monts ago

    My auntie susie said she'll talk with her husband to see if karla and I can move in with them and their house allows dogs so zoey could come with, if we're allowed

    And dad will pay for our fares with his tax return but he'll stay here bc they dont have much room for him

    I dont know how to feel about all this other than anxiety and shame

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #auntie susie is my mom's sister and if we do move in with her she probably most likely wanna talk about her #and i really really do not want to have that convo
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  • agothorn
    24.04.2021 - 2 monts ago

    Aanaa is back home with one of our uncles, he is moving in for a while I guess? And dad is calling other family members if we could move in with them

    Idk if nor where we can move to and its stressing me out

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #aanaa and our cousins really doesnt want us anymore
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  • agothorn
    21.04.2021 - 3 monts ago

    helen is angry again, swearing and slamming doors again idk what got her mad but both karla and i are full of anxiety again

    #text#agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #i wish mollena was here or aanaa i feel safer with either of them here
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  • agothorn
    15.04.2021 - 3 monts ago

    It's scary knowing that my aanaa wont believe how violent and scary helen and kevin are sometimes

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #things were safe when mollena was here but she had to go home last night #and helen started yelling again today and mollena told aanaa and aanaa doesnt believe a word of it #so now karla and i are back to locking ourselves in our room again #and theres a part of me that believes being homeless in a pandemic would be safer than living with helen and kevin
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  • agothorn
    09.04.2021 - 3 monts ago

    Had tylenol and I'm feeling a bit better; altho my lungs are still not ok, and I think I was confusing stomach aches for hunger pain?

    #i had a bit of peanut butter and water and i dont feel dizzy anymore but i dont know if its more comfortable sitting or laying down to #like breathe better? and maybe eating tums daily on an empty stomach wasnt a good idea #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents
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  • agothorn
    09.04.2021 - 3 monts ago

    I been having shortness of breath for the pass week or so and now my stomach aches and I'm starting to feel warmer

    Idk what is wrong with me but I can still taste and smell

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #idk at what point of pain should i go to the doctors
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  • agothorn
    07.04.2021 - 3 monts ago

    My other cousin is visiting for the day soon; I think its bc she has a package arriving today and she doesnt want helen and kevin to steal it

    She wants me and karla to stay with her in the living room bc she also doesnt feel safe around them

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #im worried that something might happen today and its making both me and karla anxious as fuck
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  • agothorn
    07.04.2021 - 3 monts ago

    Karla and I are talking about just one of us moving in with our older sister, and we're both like "I want you to move bc I know you would be safer" at each other

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #we all cant move in bc our older sister cant have dogs in her place
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  • agothorn
    07.04.2021 - 3 monts ago

    I did 2 things today, make chicken soup and cried

    #agothorn speaks#agothorn vents #the two arent connect but i am tired now
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