Amnesia makes you do things you wouldn't dare to.
Amnesia makes you do things you wouldn't dare to.
Gay people will find someone who finally understands them and be like "I'll have to be entirely honest with you. I hate you." And then throw their glove at said person they hate as a promise of combat and loyalship to enforce their bond without having to tell the other they're in love
A little time together of the two boys.
#i love them so much
“‘Bad bitch’? More like sad bitch. Also I will not be held liable if someone ends up in the hospital tonight, because it won’t be me.”
akechi sitting kinda shellshocked after akiren messed with his hair and put his glasses on him is so fucking funny you can basically hear the internal screaming. Like calm down hes literally just in love with you
“I should’ve been the one to fistfight Maruki. I would’ve knocked him out in one swing. Perhaps he would have even lost some teeth. It’s what he deserved after all.”
GORO AKECHI FROM PERSONA 5 ✦ 250x250 bi pride icons ✦ suggested by anonymous ✦ like/reblog if using + please credit
This post will be about Goro’s take on what suicide means to him, opinions on what happened to his mother (non-graphic descriptions), and his own personal death wish.
TW: Suicide, mentions of depression, PTSD
At the age of nine is when Goro lost his mother to suicide. He had been told to go to the bathhouse, his usual hangout when his mother was working. And when he came home is when he found her. He questions whether she actually had clients that day or sent him away to remove him from the space, but he knows that it’s an answer he’ll never get.
In the beginning, Goro felt lost. He wasn’t close to anyone, and even sometimes that relationship with his mother was a bit strained. But really, she was the only person he ever truly had. So naturally he was devastated by the loss. Regaining his bearings had been difficult and took him far too long to contact someone for help. And before he even knew what was happening, before he could even understand, the process of finding a place for him to go started.
First he had been passed into his grandparents hands. They made it apparent how much of a burden he was on them. How it was his fault his mother died by ruining her life. And after only a couple of weeks he was passed to another relative, and another until he finally wound up in the foster system. All he wanted was for his mother to walk in through one of those front doors while laughing and claiming it to be nothing more than a horrific prank. And after months of hopeless desperation it truly began to hit him. It made him angry.
He had already accepted that he was nothing but a parasite since the moment he was accidentally conceived. But that didn’t stop him from being angry with her. He hated that he couldn’t stop her. He hated that she left him behind in a world that wanted nothing to do with him. For awhile he resented his mother for her choices. And eventually it would lead to him hating himself even more. He saw himself as a curse ––– someone no one wanted around. His mother left him behind, his relatives wanted to pretend he didn’t exist, the man that was supposed to be his father was nowhere to be found, and foster homes even treated him poorly. So by the age of twelve he was broken, weak, and angry.
Many nights were spent wondering why his mother wanted to die. Why she chose to send him away and off herself. Why did she want to leave Goro behind? Would he bother her in the afterlife? Or was she burdened with similar feelings of his own? He heard what people said about her. He knew she was tossed away by Shido. She was an outcast. And despite his love for her, he was resentful of her choices. To him suicide was nothing but a fool’s choice. A quick out leaving behind a mess of problems and too many questions. An emotional disaster and a silent “fuck you” to a child.
So for Goro the thought of suicide brings about a sense of anger instead of sadness. For many years it’s what he believes, and he heavily debates on whether he thinks his mother is cowardly for it or not. It’s a mental battle he fights constantly with every reminder of her choice.
But eventually Goro realizes he doesn’t fear death. Perhaps his mother feared living more than death. Maybe it was the only way she could be happy. Not that Goro ever perceived death as being some peaceful place, not for him at least. Yet he fully expects to not make it passed the age of twenty, especially not after plotting his revenge against Shido.
He doesn’t expect life to continue forward after he brings Shido down. If he were to be honest he’s not sure what he’d even do should he live passed then. But he’s not sure if he’d care much if something should happen to him afterwards. All he wanted was his goal to make Shido suffer and anything beyond that was icing on the metaphorical cake to him. Should he die by miraculous circumstances he’d be fine with it. If he lived he can’t say he’d be thrilled, but he’d either figure it out or die trying.
Goro’s relationship with death and suicide is a mixed bag of emotions. One that’s far too complicated for even himself to comprehend at times. He won’t actively seek out death. He won’t be his mother. But he won’t sit idle either. He’ll give the world a reason to want him dead, but he won’t make it so easy for it to do so.
That being said, this leaves Goro as (undiagnosed) passive suicidal. Passive suicidal is when someone wishes for death but has no plans to act on it.
Akechi: I love being DM.
Akechi: It means I can ask the most innocuous questions like, “what is your bard’s swimming speed?” and get this reaction every time:
Inspired by LAVA’s last stream 👀 Robbie Daymond truly channeled his inner Goro Akechi
“Did you need something?” Goro asked quietly. Akira shoved his hands in his pockets to keep himself from fidgeting. If he betrayed his anxiety through ticks that Goro was bound to notice, it might just make Goro feel worse. His mission was to help Goro relax, so he wouldn’t be working himself up into a tight little ball of stress while the rest of them worked to rid him of his… affliction.
“Sort of,” Akira said. “Do you wanna come play some darts?”
“I…” Goro tensed a little. “I probably shouldn’t.”
“Are you sure?” Akira said. He felt compelled to rest a hand on Goro’s shoulder, but refrained. Ever since returning the model gun to him with trembling hands, Goro had looked terribly fragile. Maybe he’d be better left alone, but as far as Akira could gather, Goro was always alone. The least he could do was offer some support, even through just a distraction, regardless of whether Goro would choose to accept it or not.
“I don’t want to be invited out of obligation,” Goro said. “You should invite one of your friends.”
Crow: I just… don’t get it, whenever I feel like I should stab him, my insides hurt.
Violet: Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe… you like Joker-senpai?
Crow: DON’T YOU INSULT ME LIKE THAT AGAIN!
Even Zenkichi is concerned
🔪🌈 Be Gay. Do Crime. 🌈🔪
workin on new buttons for pride month, and hopefully they'll be done super soon😘👌💗
(also I have so many akechi ideas that I might just end up with extra akechi buttons lol💞💕)
my goal is to make a full set of all the phantom thieves, but if there are any other p5 characters you would want, pls add them in the notes or feel free to dm me🥰💕