i talked to my mom. she commented on “how well i’m doing” which was kind of frustrating because i low key feel like she only thinks that b/c i’m not drinking. which, yes, is progress, but she doesn’t know (or ask) how my meal plan is going or my ED symptoms. which, tbh, i’m doing only slightly better than before i left for treatment. sure, i’m eating more calorically, and b/p less, but still not eating enough, still sticking to the same safe foods and arbitrary rules and my weight hasn’t budged.
and that might just have to be enough. this is as good/as recovered as i’m gonna get.