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  • aroacedavestrider
    22.09.2021 - 8 minutes ago

    ✨dont reblog✨

    can someone explain to me how telling my doctor who has never spoken to my dad save one phone call to call me by the right name and pronouns is like. disrespectful to him somehow

    like bro called me over and was like “why is the doctor on the phone calling you kyle” and im like Cause I Told Her To . ? and he got all piss pant about it like thats a part of my life hes even involved in. and like i pointed that out i said its none of his business anyway

    and he goes “well yes it is because ive asked you to stop. iTs DiSreSpEcTFuL tO Me. wE SpeNt A LoT oF TiMe PickInG oUt yOuR nAmE” ok whenever i ask what my deadname even means the only thing you tell me is that you first heard it from a fucking soap opera. lots of time, huh? like goddamn god forbid i dislike my name even if i was cis. ok

    meanwhile ive been asking him for 5 years now to meet me at the fucking 20% mark by calling me at least an initial and calling me his “oldest” or his “child” or his “kid” but without fail every time he calls me down the stairs. deadname. every time he introduces me to anyone. “this is my daughter”. and like. i told him to think of it as a nickname and he goes “but i always call you special k!!” i dont give a fuck. youve called me that since i was like 5. you dont even call me that enough to make up for anything lmao

    like im so sorry the physical distress i feel about being afab is like. upsetting to you. ill remember to tone it down next time my voice gives me away or i have to wear a binder or i have to fill out a form with legal information. you could help me out and all by taking your pride and shoving it up your ass but bro i get it. i know. it must be hard. i cant imagine how hard it is going through having a trans child. oh what a fucking nightmare

    idk shit yourself in your sleep old man im not gonna stop telling the doctor im trans lmao

    #delete later #bro not only that but he also says being trans is a mental illness #like not just the dysphoria part i mean the whole shebang #and hes sat me down and gone ‘this.. is a disorder that you need to get help for’ #ok so if you think this is a disorder why are you actively fighting me in making it worse then #? i sit down. i pull out my notebook and pen #please tell me im dying to know #its ok he took me to a christian counselor when i first told him when i was like 15 #and then the christian counselor was pro-lgbt+ #i still go to her lmao. shoutout to jeni youre a real one maam #whatever when i move out and change my name im gonna show up to every family event anyway #cause surprise hes the only family member of mine who has a problem with this #even my grandparents could figure it out on their own and call me their grandchild jesus christ #if bob from the 40s can do it so can you kev. you can do this. i believe in you #idk im just pissed off about this again #transphobia#long
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  • tiferet
    22.09.2021 - 19 minutes ago

    hmmm idk i kinda wanna fight nightmare king grimm but also want to help brumm break free from this cycle. should i grant him the power to revolutionize his world or...........

    #i feel like it only ends things for him though #breaking the lantern only banishes the troupe from hallownest. that other lanterns exist elsewhere #and grimm will still continue being born to die for entertainment. with the boss fights serving as his final act #and brumm just wants no part in this particular cycle anymore... #nothing to indicate that brumm wanting to break free ISNT also part of the cycle though i mean look at quirrel #well!! game is big on one's purpose being defined before one is even born #as well as moving on once purpose is served. whatever that means...
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  • dekunuttums
    22.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    No kink tonight i just want head rubs and someone to cuddle into tbh

    #normally i dont like cuddles but im feeling especially touch starved for the first time since moving #granted today was also kinda tough #and don't particularly feel good about myself rn #so i just want someone thats okay with me holding them and who can give me some kind of affection
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  • pando
    22.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    two! two nights in a row where I have a brain! this is truly miraculous

    #k.post #in fact i have so much brain i managed to read THIRTY PAGES which is not a lot to me and yet it is #in all fairness. i have so much brain i keep getting distracted otherwise that number would be tripled #BUT I AM DOING MY LAUNDRY! AND CLEANING MY DESK! AND SORT OF ORGANIZING THINGS #and also being upset about the fact that I dropped so many classes and that my life feels directionless #BUT IT ISN'T. it's not. bc if i think that it is i am going to supernova #honestly. i'm just upset that my life turned out this way and that it was out of my control n all i can do is move forward with it #i was gonna do and be so much. and i'm young. but it's just not fair that 6 years of my life were spent fighting battles i shldn't have had #n i can still do all of that and be all of that. just later than i want and feeling like i was robbed of most of my life #by someone who wont even admit what she did wrong to me #:/ #anyway. time to think about astrophysics and fold clothes #hashtag girl
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  • underratedpurplepanda
    22.09.2021 - 2 hours ago

    These two are the epitome of "awww *blocks*"

    #i love them but they make me feel lonely af #i wish them happiness but fuck them #i kid....sorta #but fr we stan #also never had a male lead impressed me this much with his smooth ass moves #ok mizukawa senpai i see u #you got me senpai #you got me sempai #shoujo#shoujo manga#manga#romance manga
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  • angelfishofthelord
    22.09.2021 - 2 hours ago

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    #anxiety rant #this week my anxiety o meter is spiking a lot like #normally it's episodic for me but since monday it's been a steady low thrum #also i need to get my med dosage upped and i have to go to a different hospital tmr because the other one moved #so that means a new doctor too #which isnt like objectively catastrophic #but my mind is like let's just worry about that non stop for the next 24 hrs okay #i know that once i get the right dosage for my meds they will help #but like why is the path to relief so long and tiring #the only thing distracting me rn is my whumptober fics #if you read them and wonder why they're so intense well those are my emotional support fics
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  • judeeduartes
    22.09.2021 - 2 hours ago

    what if i changed my url to gfwooyoung.....thoughts are being thunk......i mean he IS my gf after all......

    #i've been judeeduartes for so long tho....who am i if not her......... #also do i want to switch my book url for a kpop one is that the move i wanna make 😶 #like it's not that serious but yes it is what do i dooooo #kara can talk
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  • spacejammie-eimmajecaps
    22.09.2021 - 3 hours ago

    I'm starting to think I won't write anything new for the rest of this year

    #or maybe ever #because im fucking tired of reading back through my fics #and finding typos #then feeling a whole rsd spiral over it #even though i know typos and random punctuation errors are a normal part of writing fanfiction #currently reading back through ITO #which i worked SO fucking hard on #and yet#there's typos #and a weird mix of curly quote marks and straight quote marks because i forgot to fix that when moving from writing on my phone to a laptop #and like #i didn't use enough commas #no one probably cares #but i do #and im having the worst fucking time over it haha #like i have adhd so im gonna space stuff sometimes #but also my standards for myself are so unreasonable #and now im crying??? #over some fucking story that doesn't even matter ???? #like ??? #why?? #delete later
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  • priyarchives
    22.09.2021 - 3 hours ago

    in gov today we were conferencing about our essays we did over the summer and coach came up to me and was like going over it w me and got to one of the parts and was like “idk why i took this point off but i’ll give it back to u” and wrote my name on her hand ?? also she’s like. kinda hot ??

    #she also told me she moved in w her bf so #her bf was my lang teacher last yr 💀💀 who’s also kinda hot
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  • perhapsapremiseart
    22.09.2021 - 3 hours ago

    me: man I haven’t drawn asoiaf art in forever ... what should I draw first?

    my brain: Lannister siblings in novelty wine t-shirts

    #tyrion lannister#Jaime Lannister#cersei lannister #A Song of Ice and Fire #asoiaf#fanart#mine #this has probably been done before but it made me laugh the whole time I was working on it #I can't believe this is the first time I've drawn Tyrion whoa #also don't have my tablet or my alcohol markers be I'm in the precess of moving #so have a pen sketch + crayons markers
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  • bobakkulbeolrp
    22.09.2021 - 3 hours ago

    quick blog update: test muses are gone

    #🐝 // Mimi speaks #🐝 // tbd #tbh I've been dragging it out and I've completely lost the motivation to write them #my heart hasn't fully been in it for a while and they deserve better so I figured it best to let them go #and I won't be adding any new ones in the future #I've taken out the test muse page and the section in my rules #I just can't imagine picking up new muses with my heart really in it when it's so hard to get anything going with the few I already have #additionally: I... /might/ move blogs/muses around..? #remake certain ones and move certain muses #idk. consider this a last ditch effort to do... something? anything? #I'll update with details #this blog itself also sucks btw and it's like on my to do list to spruce the place up a bit #eventually. it's sort of last on the list of my rp priorities rn
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  • clockvvorker
    22.09.2021 - 3 hours ago
    I’m going to do what’s called a pro gamer move and move my entire ass muse list to gsheets so I never have to futz with tumblr coding ever again see y’all in, like, a month lmao
    #ooc. kiril clockworker #probably also move my rules there just so it's all in one spot but keep a mobile page up just in case
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  • spocksjuul
    22.09.2021 - 4 hours ago

    you guys are going to LOVE my halloween costume

    #I want to say what it is but I also want it to be a surprise #there r gonna be a lot of moving parts since I’ll be traveling so I hope it works out
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  • ranvwoop
    22.09.2021 - 4 hours ago

    I played a lil bit of deltarune today :D i wanted to finish it before ranboo's stream but alas i am sleepy all of the time

    #vwoop.noises #i also spent like an hour trying to move my save from my old computer only to accidentslly overwrite the file. #am smort
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  • sam-giddings
    22.09.2021 - 4 hours ago

    Im so excited but also wow I’m gonna be moving across the country on my own to a city I’ve never been to I- 🥲

    #med mumbles #friends and fans #when I moved across the city before starting jr high I hated everything bc I didn’t know anybody in the north side of the city #and now I’m just fine moving across the country bc I know I’ll make friends and everything will be okay #lil med u have come a long way 💛 #but also I’m going to miss my friends here so much. :((
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  • wumbsie
    22.09.2021 - 4 hours ago

    the lack of maya-in-her-new-pretty-dress content makes me SICK

    #she :) #also im back again #all moved into uni and ready to rumble #expect content (hopefully) #maya fey#ace attorney#aa#arty smarty
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  • nerdierholler
    22.09.2021 - 4 hours ago

    For the first time in over a decade, my computer isn’t hooked up to the TV and I’m using a desk and real monitor for games. We’ll see what my shoulder thinks about this.

    #life at nerdy holler #also maybe I can finally play MELE #I got as far as going to get Liara before we moved #and I ran out of brain to play games and my shoulder revolted
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  • btggf-ale
    22.09.2021 - 4 hours ago

    Y’all work has me so stressed… I had two people quit yesterday and I’m down to a four person staff… I’m having to work open to close 4 days out of my scheduled 6 days… I want to cry but at the same time I know that paycheck is gonna be SWEET

    #also sucks I only get to see my boyfriend one day now because of this shit #it wouldn’t be as bad if he didn’t live two hours away ugh #but he’s moving up here before the end of the year so I can’t even be that upset about it
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  • staycatcher
    22.09.2021 - 5 hours ago

    it’s always the anti vaxxers that get covid…… funny how that works🤔🤔🤡🤡

    #rant tw#covid19 tw #i wOnDeR wHy!1!1 #anyways. #lil life update from brewgieville- I’m gonna have to get tested tomorrow n might move in with my dad for a bit #anyways let this be a reminder people are still catching it people are still dying and masks are so sexie #I’m fully vaccinated so I’m not too worried but you can still get it even still so yeah #everyone pls keep being careful n respectful in doing your part<3 #brewgie talks#personal#brewgie rants#negativity tw#-> #(if you must know…. My Mom caught it……. n she was unvaxxed n was never planning to n never wore masks unless it was demanded of her….. #im trying not to be livid cuz she literally got it by doing everything you’re not supposed to do…….. anyways. fuck that. [i love her n am #worried of course but it’s mild and also like…. fuckin duh? honestly only a matter of time unfortunately])
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  • captaingutterboots-fandoms
    22.09.2021 - 5 hours ago

    Would sure love to understand characterization.

    #trend #Like logically I know #People do things and have traits and shit #I know academically personalities and stuff #even in my mind I know people have different ways of expressing themselves and talking and moving #but I cannot for the life of me actually characterize people #I cant put my friends into little boxes for fun little every little friend group #I cant describe anyone or anything. I learned more words than most people my age but then I'm stuck using the same 3 words to compliment #And when I take characters from their source and use them in my little fanfic. I know I change them. but I dont know how much #I cant tell you what changed #And all of them become the same stupid guy but also they arent because there is arcs and stories from one you can possibly put on another #I know I cant write good without characterization #and I know that if I mess up the personalities of tge characters I love and focus soley on theres no way I can have good side characters. #I can barely write the guy I watch all the time. you think I can undersfand someone I see glimpes of like once a week? #writing sucks #this has just turned into a writinf vent but yeah
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