#always alone Tumblr posts

  • classyskeletonhumanoidalmond
    28.01.2022 - 5 minutes ago

    Has become an earworm for me and I don’t know why?

    #lost hope#empty inside #alone with my thoughts #lost lovers #all i really wanted was you #always unwanted #i feel so unloveable #how to move on #invisible illness#Spotify
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  • crybutchcry
    28.01.2022 - 56 minutes ago

    the tragic thing is you have this perception that you're empathetic when you've only ever treated me like the right side.

    You've always taken more than you give emotionally, you've always required support and then not known how to even offer it when the other person needs it. your romantic relationships are centered on you, your feelings, your wants and needs. when I needed support about things that had nothing to do with you, or if I was doing something without you for for myself, you always found a way to make yourself the focus - see: what happened when I found out Ben released those songs about me, me going on that hot springs trip.

    no empathy for how I'm feeling in conflicts, no forethought or consideration for trying to be sensitive to my trauma despite knowing about it in great detail - you need to experience something firsthand to even begin to understand why it was upsetting but even then, the focus is usually more about you being upset that someone did to you what you did to them. no concern for how used you made me feel, in fact you got angry at me for feeling that way. you discarded and devalued me and then punished me for being upset, and eventually for taking you seriously and ending it.

    you act like I'm the sidekick to your main character and assume I'm as obsessed with you as you are me. you acted like you were supposed to be the most important thing in my life, even more important than my own fucking autonomy.

    sense of entitlement to violate my boundaries, to access my time, my body, my emotional labor. entitlement to trampling my agency and trying to control me and mold me into someone you wanted me to be. entitlement so severe you threw week long fits over the mere idea of me doing things you didn't want me to.

    you think you're good... but you don't change your behavior to actually be good. you just hide how you treat me behind closed doors and present this sweet, people-pleasing image to people who don't know how you really are when someone gets close.

    I'll never make that mistake again, don't worry.

    #meanwhile I was always having to explain why I was hurt by shit you did and you still never got it #always sacrificing my needs and feelings for yours putting myself on the back burner to care for you #I was made to feel guilty for having needs or feelings at all #I changed my whole life to try to appease you to the extent that I became borderline agoraphobia #but ahhh yes I'm the asshole preventing you from having peace #when I've literally just been leaving you alone outside of wanting those things back #and even then I've been nice about it and you've just dragged it out like you always do
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  • dread-and-despair-dyke
    28.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    enspired by @nails-teeth-neck s escapades i have. decided to drink baileys 2nite instead of wine. dairy things usually make me sick so we’ll see how this goes

    #yes ive never had it b4 leave me alone #ive considered it many a time while out at a pub #but i always go for some kind of fruit cocktail instead by theyre rlly good
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  • kazuphoria
    28.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    no cause why are my profs sending stuff at four in the morning

    #bruh go to bed #and leave me alone #the urge to dropout is strong #i always say that #but then cry and do my work #stfu raven <3
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  • sugercoated-mess
    28.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    i just want to be someone’s favorite person

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  • yxvz
    28.01.2022 - 2 hours ago

    for a folklore punisher bury me at makeout creek evermore pure heroine girl i surely sing electra heart with a little too much enthusiasm

    #i'm a mirrorball not a primadonna i'm so sorry marina #'boys they like a little danger😩😩' i scream. alone. in my room. where i always am. #pathetic if you ask me #marina and the diamonds #electra heart
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  • kxllinmyself
    28.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

    *rant abt how lonely i am 🤧*

    i wish i would stop sabotaging chances of actually having friends. like there’s about 3 people that have tried to talk to me all week and to every one of them i can’t really talk back, one guy came up to me (a friend of a friend) and asked me smash or pass and i said pass and just walked away. ofc it didn’t MEAN to be cold and i didn’t WANT the convo to end like that but i didn’t know what else to say, i didn’t even say bye. the other day another guy (kinda friends with my older sister) asked me how my life has been since last time we talked and i just said “okay, u?” and then he replied “good” and we didn’t talk after that. another time a girl came up to me and said “hey i really like your hair” and i just said thanks and said “i like urs too” and kept walking. those could’ve all been easy convo starters handed right to me but NO i HAVEE to basically just walk away from anyone that tries to talk to me and then i wonder why i have no friends. to be fair they came up to me out of nowhere but still i regret not stopping and saying more or even starting my own conversations with ppl. even ONLINE friends i just can’t hold conversation for the life of me.

    #made of styrofoam #always alone#dying inside #help me omfg #i have no life #be my friend #🤬
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  • quacquiapulia
    28.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

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    #yesterday i finally started to talk about my father ('i doesn't happen often that you open up like this!' said my therapist after 9 fucking #months do you realize what i mess i am) #anyway i came back home still crying bc it's not the only thing we talked about and i thought 'i can't figure out if he's a stranger in my #house or I'm the stranger in his house' #and now I'm- #i don't want to stay here anymore djdekoe #nothing happened i just feel like this stopped being my home and it was always my refuge and my safe place I didn't want to leave before #and now? I'm not sure i should be here #god i want to live alone and be independent and do what i want with my money and not feel lie a burden for having mental illness :) #sorry I'm oversharing i just 🕳️🚶🏽‍♀️
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  • frecklydork
    28.01.2022 - 4 hours ago

    today is my last day to find someone who can take even just TWO hours of my shift tomorrow. I refuse to work 12 hours. Three times. Especially after today, a very long midnight shift, I’m gonna have to get up at 5am tomorrow?? I don’t even care because nobody has responded to me in the chat I’m just gonna go up to them and be like HEY DO YOU WORK TOMORROW

    #there are two girls who almost always pick up shifts for ppl #I AM GOING TO PRAY THAT THEY ARE HERE TODAY #AND THAT THEY HAVE ANY SYMPATHY FOR ME #I get that we all hate it here but pls I can barely work at this place for a 7 hour shift let alone 12 😭😭 #woof
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  • myluna4u
    28.01.2022 - 9 hours ago

    January 27, 2022

    A few nights ago I had a bad dream and I feel like it's a good representation of my life. I dreamt of being with my family, my aunt, my uncle, plus my little niece were there. We all were at a park. Next to the park, there was a street and the park was at a bottom of a hill. Then out of nowhere, a truck came with metal sticks wrapped in the back of the truck. But when the truck stopped all the metal sticks fall over and were rolling toward us. Everyone's first instinct was to run but I saw my niece in front of me and she was standing there, scared for her life. So I grab her and ran with everyone else. Then my aunt yelled for my niece thinking she got hit but I had her. My aunt ran to her but didn't thank me. Everyone was happy. Then, my dream transitioned into my mom and I being in a big house. It was like we were rich but for some reason, I had a face mask on. My mom was telling me how disappointed in me she was and she kept saying that my life was a failure. I tried so bad not to cry because I wanted to be strong. But then my mom told me to go away. So I did, I walked into the hallway and there was a mirror on the wall and I saw myself with the mask on. I broke out crying and I took off my mask and I had scratches all over my low face. It had looked like a cat had scratched me but the scratches were so thin. I still continued to cry in the mirror. The scratches were recent because some of them were still bleeding. Then, I woke up.

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  • womboing
    28.01.2022 - 10 hours ago

    Having an attachment to someone that doesn’t match your energy is painful, once you figure it out it’s like walking in the cold rain without a coat . You try to detach by not checking your phone , and even if you reach out to them you’re still alone .

    #alone with my thoughts #i love you #love words #words of mine #poetry #poets on tumblr #always #forever and always #i am alone #my thoughts#unrequited love#short poem#just thinking #i love him #i love her #i love them #mr krabs#spongeward#sponegbob squarepants#alone
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  • yeahwellfuckit
    28.01.2022 - 11 hours ago

    That feeling of being left alone by someone so close to your heart really sucks..it ruins your mental health even though everything is fine but the things aren't like before it's like all faded out and forgotten by the other one and the only one who still remembers everything is you.

    That feeling guys.... can't even describe it

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  • aetherknit
    28.01.2022 - 11 hours ago
    #better to be destroyed together than alone #THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP #tbh if this was buildup to villain cgnf i would be down i always thought it was just a leeeeeetle ooc but now i buy in #ask#liveblog
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  • freesomebodybyluna
    27.01.2022 - 16 hours ago

    My light bill is gonna be higher this month bc my best friend has been leaving on this floor lamp she bought during the day for her big monstera & she's also been turning on the heat in the living or having me do it bc she doesn't want her plants to get too cold like...ily but this is not the way I want to live

    #its not even the right kind of lamp for plants.......and i dont wanna let her down but letting her know #but i always have the living/dining room heater off bc im always home alone & stuff like that #which is why our bill has remained in like the $40 range #and she was here earlier evidently & bc its sunny i opened the window when i got home...and barely noticed like 40 min later that #she had the floor lamp ummmm #bestie just take your plants to your bfs in that case we cant live like this.... #who knows how long its been on as well #like its ok at night but questionable at 3 pm on the first sunny day of the week #dl #lmaooo she came home relieved that i had turned it off bc she saw that the sun came out #she thought i was gonna get mad....like i did but lol
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  • flamefatalis
    27.01.2022 - 21 hours ago

    Officially done with tea/ching the additional physics class. So now I have my free period back and I can put that extra cash towards my condo/townhouse.

    #I’m pretty much supporting myself so… #gotta make enough to pay for it #now I just have to wait until the market crashes #I always wanted something nicer than an apartment #but it’s tough when you’re… alone #I’m getting there #I just want to get out of my parents’ hair #yes I may have a successful and happy career #but am I really happy? #probably not #I’m honestly just surviving #flamey's personal crap
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  • bee-ships
    27.01.2022 - 23 hours ago

    Everyday I see Alma Madrigal hate against my will :|

    #its always white people how surprising ! #your problematic fave has done worse than the traumatized señora leave her ALONE
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  • bonelesspotter
    27.01.2022 - 1 day ago

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    #how can i succinctly explain to people that im in shambles bc #who i consider my best friend - the og one anyway - considers the only person i really hate his best friend #while also explaining that that kills me inside because the mere mention of him gave me a panic attack #cause that guy caused the worst year and a half of my life #i don’t even remember that time. i was on autopilot #he made me feel more isolated hated and alone than anyone should have to #and now… #i shouldn’t hope that bad things happen to him #i shouldn’t #but i can’t help but be angry about all the time ive lost to the bullshit he put me through #apparently he’s going to a fancy college soon. traveling on a whim #part of me wonders how he deserves it #and part of me wonders if ive always been on the wrong side of history #i would like to take a step out of reality for a bit #just to get some time ya know
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  • madiej
    27.01.2022 - 1 day ago

    A Little Message For The Day …

    A Little Message For The Day …

    “Caring” Good Day Friends Courage and Caring, Helping others give us purpose in life, I do know that sometimes we go through tough times as well, sometimes alone with no help whatsoever. Sometimes we feel like being up against a wall, tired of trying, not wanting to get up and face yet another day. We have been equipt with a a very strong courage and internal strength resource, you need to…

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  • nostomannia
    27.01.2022 - 1 day ago

    soft....

    #iconing adventures #lmao theres a lot more than Anjou's usual BS in this chapter and i love it #Sol being all smiley and shit all the time came much before Anjou was her FC but #personality-wise Anjou is the best fit to Sol just because she's almost always got a grin of some kind on her face #also this chapter is making me think abt how Solita REALLY does her best to cover everything with a smile #and how hard it is to get a gauge on how she feels by her face alone #Seeing genuine negative feelings from Sol is an absolute rarity
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