Strawberry Banana Smoothie + Crushed Grapes and Milk
notes: cold food for dinner?
A strawberry banana smoothie was at the top of my omad list so here it is! It’s soo good and I honestly want to make it again tomorrow. But I think I’m going to eat something else I had planned. I’m so cold while eating this smoothie and my fan is making me even colder! I hope my body is burning fat to keep me warm or something. But I’m under the covers so maybe not. That’s it for today! Bye!
•I‘m so SICK. Of everything rn. FUCK. I‘m TIRED of being this BIG. I feel huge, i feel DISGUSTING, i just want to scream my fucking Lungs out rn. Everything SUCKS. I suck. I suck. I suck.. I never felt this Big in my entire life. I‘m gonna starve myself. I‘m not gonna eat one single bit anymore. NO. NO. NO. GOD DAMN IT. I hate it here. I hate myself. I hate everything and everyone. Everyone is skinny. Born skinny. Tall. Beautiful. I‘m so so tired to be the fat, small ugly piece of shit i am. I‘m so tired of existing. I wish i could just cut my throat. H*ng myself. I want my whole damn body covered in big ugly scars just to be more useless. I hate it here. I just wanna leave. I wanna leave. I wanna leave. I wanna leave. I wanna leave. God. God. GOD. You know what? Fuck it. Fuck everything. Everyone. Shit. Shit.. i will throw my whole disgusting food away. Every single one of it. I‘m only gonna eat spinch and maybe some eggs. Thats it. Yep. Fuck your food. I‘m going to be an addict. Yeah, just taking lines the whole fucking disgusting day until i‘m pretty. I‘m such a liar. Wow. I really am a shitty Person. I eat until i‘m full. I enjoy it. Just to break down, wanting to end it all, wow. I should get help. Should i? For what? Nothing is ever going to change that i‘m sick. One day i‘ll be covered in scars. My whole body. My whole self. And then? What comes next? Nothing, right? Because every single Human is so god damn selfish. I just hate everyone. I just.. i‘m just so done.
so recently i've been st@rving myself most of the day and purging my dinner. sometimes i crack and end up eating during the day and it's hard to purge. any suggestions on foods that are easy to thr0w up or drinks that help with it ???
These 3 are my favorites but there are a lot of other flavors & they’re actually rly good. The lightly salted Quaker ones are 35 cals for one rice cake. The tomato basil are 50 cals for one rice cake. And the thin stackers are 100 cals for four rice cakes. The thin stackers are smaller though. I love to put tuna, hummus, pizza sauce, almond butter, or fruit on them!
Sugar free jello- 10 calories usually
I love these. They’re low cal & good for when you’re craving sweets. They aren’t filling at all though lmao. But they’re tasty
Almond milk- 30 cals per 1 cup
I usually put almond milk in coffee, smoothies, etc. Its a healthier option compared to using actual milk & it works the same.
Zevia- 0 cals
Zevia is a good replacement for soda. It tastes like soda but it’s sugar free & no cals.
Coffee is literally my fav thing ever. I make it with almond milk & monkfruit sweetener.
Monkfruit sweetener- 0 cals
This is my favorite sugar replacement. I put it in my coffee & I use it to make recipes healthy and lower cal.
Miso soup- 35 cals (depends)
You can get lower calorie miso soups but this is the one I use. It comes in lil packets and you just add hot water. It’s super yummy & filling!