What do I do when the person I’ve always looked up to, the person who was my childhood hero, the person who was the strongest human being a child could ever imagine….
Breaks down? Is the weak one? What do I do when I get the call “Yeah he broke down in his apartment… Yeah it’s a burnout…. And he’s also been heavily drinking the past couple of weeks… Months… Years”
WHAT DO I DO?
He’s the strong one not me.
He’s the safe Harbour not me.
He’s everything I’ve always wanted to be.
What do I do?
Why are my only thoughts/solutions to
“I’m fuckin stressed nothing works and I don’t know what to do anymore”:
Let’s drink coffee even tho my anxiety doesn’t like it
I wanna bake stuff
I wann dye/bleach my hair
And everything now and at the same time….
i’ve realized that because of depression, anxiety and eating disorders i’ve lost the best years of my teenage life and there’s no way i can get them back
Fucking hate my brain pls stop overthinking so goddamn much.
My birthday is tomorrow and I’m so overwhelmed and scared. Hate my birthday it just reminds me of the person I wanna be but am not and I feel like a complete failure ugh.
So now I’m sitting in bed after crying on the bathroom floor for a bit and sing along with songs of my moody playlist (it’s currently 0:45 here)
i hate when your anxiety is so bad everytime you try to eat you are dry heaving your food down
Am I the only one who can’t picture a future for myself? I mean no job, no family, no nothing.
Being suicidal while also being a mom is hard. I really just want to die but I cant…
day 38 without you:
I guess you truly want it to be over. Can’t say I’m suprised. Not everyone can handle loving someone with a mental illness.
Me (types a heavy ass vent post/text coz my mental health issues are worse than ever before) : oof thats heavy
Me (adds lol at the end) : perfect