Dear - ,
I am a romantic person, I am a sensual person.
I want us to hold hands during our walks discovering our town (local shops, flower shops, libraries, museums, bookshops, cafes etc.) as well as nature medows, forests, animals, flowers) and I would smile because for the first time in forever somebody would not be embarrassed to be seen with me. I want us to wake up early just see sunrise because I think the sunsets are overrated. To watch the new start of hope and endless possibilities. Although I would watch sunset with you because I know how you like them.
I want us to sit on a sofa in your/mine flat and read. From time to time you or I would read aloud a passage that we find the most interesting and then we would talk about them while drinking a cup of hot tea or chocolate and eat cake of muffin. We would talk about everything and anything, we would be telling each other jokes - you would laugh and I would be looking at you utterly clueless because I hardly ever get the jokes. I want to cuddle on the same sofa while watching an interesting movie or TV show. I would probably fall asleep because I am not a night owl and you would carry me to bed (even though I am not light).
I want us to slow dance to a nice music, smiling at one another at night, light coming from candles. Or we could be crazy dancing. Because god knows I stop being scared about your opinion. Or we could play cards, or scrabble. The small touches - reassurence of love - every time, any time.
I want us to cook or bake together because I think that that’s the best way to show love and affection to people. I want to wash the dirtiness from your face and smile at you. And I want you to do the same. But at some point I want us to food fight.
Speaking of fights - I want to argue over songs, movies - never of cheating, or jealousy or politics.
I want us to travel the world (when it’s not in the middle of the pandemic). I want to get to know those cultures with you because there’s nobody in the world who I would want that with more than you. The photos of the places we have been and what we have seen, the short funny stories - let’s be honest, mostly mine.
You would always have my back and I yours because I am the most loyal person you’ve ever met.
I want to look at my life and see the neverending laugh, happiness, peace - not only mine but also yours.
However, it doesn’t matter what I want. Because you can’t see past the fact that I am not a sexual person. You decided that all I’ve written above isn’t really worth it without sex. You focus on the only thing I can’t give you even though I would k*ll for being able to do just that.