major tw for csa in the tags
#noooooooooooo noooooooooooooooooooo fuck this #good fucking god i shouldve listened to the warnings #i shouldnt have touched that game #grr all i can think about is like when my previous therapist said #’’finally / i knew something happened.. and there it is’’(not verbatim) after #i had opened up about chrissy and what she did #and im thinking now about my dad #and how id play really weirdly when i was a kid #id act out very inappropriate things #and im thinking about the photo album and the pictures of james #and my mom asking me if he *** *** ***** ****** ** ** #and my dad being arrested and my mom refusing to tell me why #and my therapist telling me that hes sure ive been physically abused by my dad but i cant remember it #but i just remembered the photo album and how that made me feel unsafe #i know it was probably normal to take pictures of your children derobed when theyre like . idk. a year old #but i remember feeling intensely about it and i feel like something happened because i took and hid the pictures #i also remember my mom ******** ** ********** when i was a toddler #last year on my birthday she wanted to tell an embarrassing story about me #i was on the phone with trevor. i thought she was going to mention that #i hung up immediately #i think thats why she asked the questions about james #i also dont know why certain things happened and i feel like itd be easy to say #it was something awful. but i dk t remember it so i can’t say for sure what occurred #i know the stuff with chrissy. but what about everyone else #i know i shouldnt force it out but i feel like when i started this blog i wasnt really traumatized #but i know thats not true. it was just erased from my mind #i still remember opening the mental chest #and i remember i went on chattoapotato immediately afterwards #i wonder if i can find the exact dsy that was.. i hope i posted about it on here
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