birthday | park seonghwa
pairing: seonghwa × female reader
genre: slight angst, fluff
word count: 3.4k
a/n: one of my personal favourites, i didn't proofread it but i hope this is good! it was fun writing this, a tad bit of personal feelings involved hshsh hope you'll like it. please do reblog !! thank u <3
The second you turned the television off, the living room that was once filled with loud noise and a bright light was now silent and inevitably dark. Your mind went blank for a second before you sighed unconsciously and walked up to the fridge, opening the door to grab a can of beer for yourself.
You went outside to your balcony and leaned against the railing, staring into the night sky where the streetlights & the busy traffic illuminated the city on the night of your last 20th. Opening the can which gave off a loud pop sound, you brought the can to your lips and took a sip of the cold beverage which stung your throat initially but you didn’t mind the effect because your mind was too busy worrying about other things.
It felt different.
It felt a little too different to celebrate your birthday without Seonghwa by your side and you had to fight back the urge to text him or call him at every chance you had. It had been months since you both had broken up, but you had also spent every birthday with him ever since you were 18. So, you really didn’t know what to do considering he would always have something planned up his sleeve for you and vice versa.
Truth to be told, you couldn’t even think of how you spent your days normally without him in your life. It was funny to think you survived 4 months without someone crucial in your life, you were a mess, of course, but your will to live pulled you out of the mess that you had created for yourself.
You weren’t you without Seonghwa and he wasn’t Seonghwa without you.
You resisted the urge to cry as you thought of him, taking bigger sips of your beer that you were now halfway done with, trying to mask the pain away by being drunk. The traffic started to slow down which was a sign for you that midnight was inching closer since the road would be clear by then. Once again, you started to zone out and think about what you could do.
“Go out for lunch?” You asked yourself. Then you shook your head. Your friends were busy. They had informed you a week earlier and you didn’t want to have a mental breakdown in public as you ate by yourself on your 21st.
Buy yourself a birthday cake? You shook your head again. You hated cake and there was no one to finish it, your neighbours were out of town so you wouldn’t be able to give it to them too. If Seonghwa was around, he would finish it up for you.
Order takeout and sleep in the entire day? You sighed, bringing the can to your lips as you finished your beer. You were already doing that every single day. But then again, it wouldn’t hurt to repeat another day like that. You could just cook for yourself at home and start a new DIY project. Only for it to sleep for the rest of the year considering you never finish anything that you start by yourself, Seonghwa was always there to complete it for you.
“You’re so pathetic.” You told yourself, letting out an airy chuckle before your chest and throat tightened up, your eyes welling up with tears. The cold breeze slapped your skin, which made you realise you were dressed up in just a t-shirt and your loose shorts. But that only made your heart swell more at the thought of your ex boyfriend that you were still undeniably in love with.
Seonghwa was indeed much more different from your previous 2 other exes and he was the only one you couldn’t seem to move on from. Maybe it was because he didn’t screw up, didn’t break your trust and made sure you felt safe with him. Maybe it was because he was careful with his words and was patient with everything you did.
Maybe, it was solely because he was Park Seonghwa.
He knew how much you hated birthdays. But, he never failed to make them better for you ever since you both first met. He was the polar opposite of you, he was taken aback when he found out you hated birthdays. You could still remember his exact words when you had dropped the alleged grenade on him.
“How can someone hate birthdays? And cake, may I add. Is your life that sad, Y/N?” He whisper-yelled, trying not to grab others’ attention while you both were in a cafe for a breakfast date.
“I just don’t find them amusing. I would be excited for 11 months only to be disappointed on my birthday itself, so I don’t see why I should bother about it anymore.” You told him in a calm manner, cutting your pancake and feeding him a fork which he gladly accepted without any second thought.
“Now, let’s not speak of it. There’s still like months to go.”
Eventually, your 18th birthday arrived. Per expected, nothing happened. You did feel disappointed but you weren’t surprised, which made the pain feel easier to bear and forget. You spent your morning with your family and had seaweed soup per tradition, it was also your first birthday with Seonghwa so he insisted on bringing you out in the evening. You didn’t think anything of it so you agreed to it and followed suit.
To your surprise, it was more than just “I forgot to wrap your present.”
“Seonghwa, what is this?” You asked in shock, not being able to react to what he had gifted you with. "You said you forgot to wrap my present?"
"Yeah…." He trailed off, rubbing his neck anxiously, "I did forget to wrap it, but do you like it?" He said, a grin plastered onto his face.
You were simply too shocked to reply, which made Seonghwa think you were mad or you were unhappy with what he's given you. "Or you don't like it…"
"No!" You shrieked, making him jump in surprise before he looked at you. You looked up at him, gulping down your saliva unsure of how to react to the customised fireworks he had prepared for your birthday, which had spelt your name out before a bunch of heart fireworks burst next to them.
You were guilty for letting him spend a hefty amount of money on your 'gift', let alone booking an empty park just for you to see the fireworks. You began crying on the spot, which made Seonghwa's heart drop at the sight of it, as his hands made their way to your back to rub them.
"Y/N, what's wrong? Did I do something?" He asked, worried you were afraid of fireworks. You shook your head before you looked up at him and sobbed, "Why did you spend so much for me?"
"It's your birthday, baby, of course I'm going to go all out for you. If it wasn't for today 18 years ago, I don't think I would have met the love of my life." He told you, his hands cupping your cheeks as you leaned into the warmth of his hands.
Your words got stuck in your throat, you didn't know what to say to him. He wouldn't have gone this far if you didn't mean a lot to him, right? So, why was it hard for you to feel the same way? Before you started crying again, you threw yourself into his arms and gave him a tight hug.
Seonghwa smiled to himself at the gesture since it was rare for you to hug him voluntarily, he was fazed with you in his arms & before he could stroke your head, you pulled away to look at him with a smile on your face.
"Thank you, Hwa. I really love it. Definitely the best birthday I've ever had." You told him, which made him grin widely, his cheeks tinting red from both shyness and happiness.
"Now, let's cut the cake and sing a song for you!"
Time flew and you were practically inseparable from Seonghwa ever since your birthday. You tried to do the same for him on his 19th but he didn't allow you to spend a single cent and insisted that you stayed the night with him, which you didn't have problems agreeing with.
It also resulted in you having your first kiss with Seonghwa, which took your relationship to a whole new phase.
Your 19th came by as well and you reminded Seonghwa almost a million of times to never repeat what he did for your 18th every time he asked you for what you wanted. He did take note of it but he didn't exactly promise you he wouldn't do it.
So, it took you by surprise when he gifted you with a coffee machine that you've been eyeing for months now along with an ice maker that was in your shopping cart.
"No way! You actually got me this?"
He chuckled at your expression, "You spend way too much time and money at Starbucks so we're settling your coffee addiction with this machine."
Your mouth was still wide open as you looked at the pink machine in front of you. Your boyfriend was insane for getting you the limited edition version out of every single existing version out there.
Yet, you were beyond elated with the gift choice and you were glad he didn't go out of his way to do something extravagant. Both of you spent the rest of the night at his place where he cooked dinner for you & an endless amount of caffeine, thanks to your newfound love.
Then, the big twenties had arrived. Seonghwa wasn't with you for his 20th which made you feel upset but that didn't stop you from travelling to his college so that you could give him a surprise.
The boy was upset that he couldn't meet up with his girlfriend as he was stuck in his dorm on the weekend while his friends were out partying. He wasn't a huge fan of getting drunk among strangers so he kept it lowkey and preferred staying at home.
So, when there was a random knock on his dorm door at 9pm, he was confused. Was the party cancelled? His roommates had no other reason to come home early as well. He mindlessly opened the door to be met with your toothy grin in front of him.
As if he was falling in love for the first time, his heart took 10 million leaps every time he saw you and it was no different this time round. He had missed you so much, he didn't even care about the CCTVs guarding the corridor as he kissed you right in front of his door. Took him a quick second to realise before he pulled away and embraced you in a hug.
"I missed you so much, Y/N, I'm happy to see you tonight." He mumbled into your ear while your cheeks flushed, not knowing what to say as he was sudden with his actions.
"I missed you too, Hwa. Now, if you don't mind, why don't we head inside and unwrap the gift I got you?"
He could sense the excitement in your voice and you both went inside, plopping down on the couch to see what you've gotten him. “Wow, it’s heavy,” He chuckled, “Is it a vacuum cleaner?”
Your smile dropped as you stopped at his couch while he sat down, only to see that you were still standing. “What?” Realisation sunk in, “Y/N, are you serious?”
“This is the last birthday I’m getting you a gift, nothing is ever a surprise!” You whined, plopping down beside him while he excitedly unwrapped the box to see the Dyson vacuum he’s been wanting. You couldn’t even smile because he had easily guessed the gift, even though it was a joke.
He was so excited about it that he just examined the exterior without peeling off the protective plastic, he then wrapped it back and closed it before looking over to the other paper bag you held. He arched a brow at it before you handed it to him with a straight face, which he gladly took.
“Another gift?” He asked, hiding a smirk because he had a feeling he knew what you got him but he didn’t want you to frown the entire evening so he tried to act like he didn’t know. You simply hummed in reply while he tried to guess what the item was by feeling the box.
“Well, baby, I don’t know about you but this is probably a bag of potatoes.” He said, frowning as he slowly unboxed the package. You smacked his back out of anger, “If I were going to get you potatoes, I might as well buy you a damn farm!”
He chuckled, looking at you. “No one grows potatoes on a farm, though.”
“Park Seonghwa, I’m gonna leave if you keep this up.” You threatened him, not having a reply to his smart comeback. He didn't wipe off the smile on his face, instead he kept quiet and opened the gift and to his surprise, he actually didn’t expect this one.
You had expected him to give you a cocky reply but he was silent, smiling at the air purifier that came in as a plus one when you bought the vacuum cleaner. “Is it pretty?” You asked in the smallest voice ever, moving forward a little to see his face.
He turned to look at you and gave you a smile, his eyes lighting up with love as he looked at you. “Very. I love the gifts, baby. Thank you so much.” He thanked you, making you grin. “These probably costed you a fortune though, wh-”
“The price doesn’t matter, your birthday comes once in a year. Plus, we can use this at our place when you think about it for the future.” You cut him off, not wanting him to bother about how much you spent on it. You did save up money and worked extra time at your part-time job whenever you could, you wanted some extra pocket money and you had more than enough for his gift so you just bought him his dream vacuum cleaner.
“Let me rephrase that - you bought this as a gift, with the thought of us living together someday?” He asked, a smirk on his face. You tried to hide the blush on your face as you tried to think of reasons to not say yes to him but you did. You looked away and observed his dorm for the first time, “Your place is cool.”
He laughed, causing you to copy his action before he leaned in and gave you an unexpected peck on the lips. You looked into his eyes, wondering if he felt the same as you did, but you didn’t need a verbal answer because when he leaned in to kiss you again, you knew he loved you more than you could ever imagine him to.
Months went by and it was your 20th birthday, but it was the same as his 20th. You were stuck in your dorm, studying for the exams you had the following week. You told Seonghwa that he didn’t have to come over because you were busy studying anyway and you wouldn’t be able to do anything with him.
But, when he was standing in front of your dorm at 2 in the morning, you could only respond with a gasp. “Park Seonghwa, are you crazy?”
“Happy birthday, my love.” He wished you, giving you a kiss on the forehead before he handed you a medium sized boxed that was tied together with a satin ribbon. “Wanted to mail you but I would rather see you face to face when you open this up.”
You both went inside your room and sat on your bed, as you opened his gift for you. It was unusually different from his usual expensive gifts that flaunted his rich status which he always denied and claimed that it was his parents’, not his. The box contained polaroids of you two, some of your favourite chocolate bars, a matching ring set along with handwritten letters for you.
It was a small gesture from his side as your boyfriend but it felt like you had received one of the biggest forms of gratitude, love and attention packed in the form of a boy. You smiled at the cute things he did and you squealed out loud, extremely happy with what you had. You threw yourself into his arms and hugged him tightly, giggles leaving your lips for a good 5 minutes while his huge hand rested on your back.
“Why are you the best boyfriend in this world? You surprise me every year without fail.” You mumbled into his shirt, holding back the tears that threatened to pour out when you got a little emotional.
“Are you going to cry now?” He teasingly asked you, making you pull away to look at him.
You looked at him for a good minute, taking in his beautiful features and your heart swelling at the thought of you always feeling the happiest whenever you were with him. You knew he had to be the one, he knew you like the back of his hand and accepted your flaws without any questioning.
“Seonghwa?” You called out in a soft tone, making his eyes grow wide, surprised that you had used his full name instead of the endearing nickname you gave him.
“Yeah? What’s up?” He questioned you, hands still around your waist while you both stared into each other’s eyes.
“I love you.”
Seonghwa would swear to God he would never ever forget this moment, it took you so much of time to cozy up and accept him into your life, he thought he would never see this day happen in life. A day where you would say those 3 words to him, that he’s been aching to tell you but he was so scared you didn’t feel the same way yet.
“I love you too, Y/N.” He replied back without any hesitation, smiling back at you before he leaned in and kissed you, which never failed to give you butterflies every single time.
So, what went wrong in your perfect relationship that everyone envied?
You crushed the beer can in your hand and walked to the kitchen to throw it in the trash bin. You didn’t eat dinner and the beer was already making you tipsy despite it being your first can. You didn’t want to stay up anymore because you knew very well you were gonna dwell over your past birthdays and Seonghwa in general.
Checking your phone, it showed 12.01 and not even a single notification popped up. You closed it in an instance and shrugged it off, it wasn’t something new - people were often busy with their day so wishing a person was the last thing on their mind.
You turned off every light in your house and were about to walk to your room until you heard 3 knocks on your door. You weren’t gonna lie, it did give you the creeps because whoever it was could have simply rung the doorbell but then again, it was midnight. You never acknowledged the loud noises whenever you were sound asleep.
Anxiety filled your veins as you went to open the door, thanking God for letting you live this long and if it was a serial killer in front of you, you were fine with dying. But very much to your surprise, an all-too familiar face stood there, your favourite coat covered his tall frame well while his eyes were wide from surprise, not expecting you to open the door late at night.
You could swear your heart skipped more than a beat at the sight of Seonghwa in front of you, you were at a loss for words. His eyebags spoke more than enough words and he took his time scanning your face that had its turn crying as well.
He handed you a bouquet of crimson red carnations, with a soft smile lingering on his pink lips that you missed kissing. You took it without hesitation and never let your eyes leave his. He definitely remembered, there was no way he was going to let you live another day in pain, even after he had promised to not leave you, even after you were the one to leave him first and even after not talking for months.
“Happy birthday, Y/N.”