Heaviest I’ve been in a year. Want death. Help pls
They told me to eat.
Eat and rest to get better.
A vacation for most.
But i am so tired and so angry at my body.
a cure like that feels like a curse.
Every time I eat I regret it
finishing the week off with a total of 2,397 calories. i planned to eat more but i just didn’t have an appetite. lmao i feel like shit this better be worth it
Hi i'm nugget
I use to be apart of this side of Tumblr. Got two accounts t worded. It use to be pain-is-relevent.
I tried twitter for a bit and it's okay. I personally like Tumblr. No one IRL knows I'm on here like this. So I don't have to worry so much about anyone seeing.
I'm almost 24. Been struggling with my disorder for almost 5 years now. Tried to do self recovery and ended up relapsing. I haven't been diagnosed by a doctor. Although I was diagnosed with sever depression and sever anxiety. I restrict and not proud but use laxatives most of the time. When I can buy them without my boyfriend noticing.
Last time I was weighed was back in February. I was 143. I'm 5'9. I'm not weighing myself. Just trying to get my bones to pop out more.
there‘s nothing i want more that my knees hurting from lying on the side
(Sorry in advance for all the tags I put, I just really think it's time for this to be heard, give it a read please)
So my parents didn't want to treat my ADHD until now (for some reason) and that caused a lot of problems- from failing school every year to developing a dangerous hyperfixation on food. It's been pretty terrible constantly thinking about myself, body, mind, feelings, a physical form, I hate it.
Now for Neurotypical ED peeps you might be thinking "Well don't we all think about that stuff way too much?"
The answer is yes of course we all do but it's worse particularly in Neurodivergent AND trans people. (I'm very aware that most of my audience is ftm)
But untreated ADHD has been linked to eating disorders because a massive part of it is lack of control. Other ADHD-caused lack of control things are ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder), 100% Increased risk of Substance Abuse, and there is just a lot of other jumbled mental health symptoms that would never be diagnosed as something official.
I struggle with a lot of stuff and when I list off the things wrong with me I sound like an ass because of how "high functioning" I am.
There is a much greater risk for people with ADHD to develop Binge Eating Disorder or Bulimia. Binge/Restrict cycles are very common as well.
With poor impulse control, it's extremely diffucult to resist binging and with that thought in your head- that is all you will think about until it's done and over with.
ADHD causes what is basically "chronic boredom" and food can "solve the problem" by making someone feel less empty physically and emotionally.
Getting a Diagnosis is an all around extremely difficult task, and most people only get an ADHD diagnosis in very early childhood. I was diagnosed in 2010 only because it was so blatant.
Eating Disorder Diagnosis's are even worse to get because doctors are terrified of doing it. A doctor, therapist, or psyciatrist, will tell you that "It's too hard to tell, sorry Kiddo" and move on to the next question.
ADHD and Eating Disorders go hand in hand with so much and I would absolutely love to have it talked about.
I’m going to get my life together.
I’m done living like this.
I miss my lowest weight so much
HELP I have a bunch of blood spots in my eyes from purging
i don’t want to die, but i don’t want to be alive lol
I hate my body
Down to 100 lbs
holy shit im only 5 pounds away from my first goal weight
hit another new LW. love to see it
Recovery is fine until u get fat again
the feminin urge to fucking starve until i nearly die <3333