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  • tuesdayshub
    08.05.2021 - 16 hours ago

    When something you thought you left behind in high school happens to you twice in a six month period

    #i apologize for venting on main #i'm tired of keeping this to myself #pro tip: just tell me if you dont like me! I'm begging you! #I'd rather be told to back off than constantly overthink and get myself anxious over something that could have been cleared up easily #you don't have to continue to associate with me if you don't want to #it's better for the both of us if you just told me directly #socializing is hard for me bc i am not cued in on all of the nuances people expect me to get #and my experience being The Annoying One has made me even more anxious about bothering other people in the future #if you don't consider me part of a group; just tell me! i know when i'm being treated differently #but i also don't want to assume the worst bc of bad experiences i had in the past
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  • professorpotato
    08.05.2021 - 16 hours ago
    #Anonymous#answered#personal#writing #It’s why I keep weighing doing an MFA program but they feel like a scam #plus a lot of poc have had bad experiences #I’ve already had a bad experience in a writing class that was also for my uni’s MFA program #lit class* not writing my bad #I wish I had a genuine mentor to help me bc I’m so lost in terms of writing stuff :( #I’ve done research on different mfa’s and ones for genre fiction but they’re White af too #can’t even write fics for fear of being awful #oof these expectations are a cage man #I did it to myself tho
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  • beggingwolf
    08.05.2021 - 20 hours ago

    long-term planning, my nemesis

    #I saw a good tweet today about how perfectionism kills problem-solving capabilities and I Took It Personally #(as in: I started self-analyzing and asking myself if that was in fact one of the problems I have when it comes to big projects) #and the jury is still out but preliminary reports are saying ''yeah that's not a bad guess'' #both of my fastest/least painful writing experiences were done with 1. little self-reflection and 2. high levels of Not Giving A Fuck #I'm not into writing with little self-reflection (because one of those writing experiences had an outcome I wasn't overly happy with) #but I think there's something to be said for how I have expectations for myself that end up hurting me more than helping me #and there MUST be a healthy way to do both: ''feeling free to work creatively'' and ''being able to execute a creative vision'' #I'm working on it!!! #I've been cowering in fear of doing an outline for the last few days because I always start on the road thinking to myself: #''oh man this has to be excellent this has to be amazing you have to be so proud of this you can't contain yourself'' #and then I get afraid? like I won't be proud of it? #which is just. bizarre. everything I've posted—even pieces I think have really glaring/bad flaws—I'm proud of on some level #and beyond that IS THERE A NEED TO A PROUD? IS THERE NOT JUST A NEED TO BE HEDONISTIC AND WRITE WHAT YOU WANT? #like I'm *deeply* a hedonist in every other facet of my life I have no idea why I feel like I have to control my writing with an iron fist #as if having too much fun with it is going to make it bad writing #1. that's not how it works and 2. okay??? and??? you are writing RPF SISTER YOU NEED TO TAKE A BREAK this is *fun* #you *can* have fun doing it. and you DO have fun doing it when you give yourself space! #check the perfectionism at the door! write what you want! evidently there is a small audience for it! #and EVEN IF THERE WASN'T—aren't you having fun? #okay thanks for coming to self-therapy hour folks #time to go glare at my outline #(no negative self talk @ self. fix that) #time to go contemplate next steps in my outline and start problem-solving (WHICH YOU ARE GOOD AT) to make a plot
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  • stardust-shenanigans
    08.05.2021 - 21 hours ago

    i know i haven't been too online recently and i've been super running my queue into the ground but my finals are ALMOST over and i've been yearning!!! I've been daydreaming about !!!!! love!!!!

    I've been thinking especially of holly, because although they are, like, an endgame character, and there isnt extensive amounts characterization know of them, just... what Is there completely charmed and made me feel so many things completely. It might just be me being hopeful and self-shippy but i genuinely think like dkfhfJFHDJ waaaa... romancing them, or being in a romantic relation would be so nice and so good too??

    i just feel like,, i really relate to them deeply, especially regarding like,, certain traumatic stuff? I can only imagine what it'd be like to supress oneself to That Extent, but I most certainly know what it is Like. To play the role of a certain person, or to have to have hold your own for all of your life, where asking for help wasn't an option, where ever Needing help wasn't an option, so when there were shortcomings, were failures, all we could do is either try and solve them immediately, or hide them, even if it was self-destructive.

    ✧・゚: ✧・゚:✧・゚:★,。・::・゚☆ ・゚✧・゚: *・:★ ✧・゚:✧・゚: ✧・゚:★,。・::・゚☆ ・゚✧・゚:

    Also just me being inherently queer but whenever i write for cerys and holly or holly and i, its just. always felt so nice because i guess the way ive written them, there *is* no expectation of a romantic relationship? I myself am a sucker for a well written, real and warm romance, but I've also very much found so much comfort in casual love, even if the stereotypical acts of 'romance' overlapped with that?

    Where this kindness and gentility and love we offer one another is not retracted if we aren't in romantic love, that it'll always be there, I'll always care and love them, but that it could be romantic?? damn ok...

    Dunno lmao, the reason why i consider them a romantic ship/crush is because I do have a leaning towards romantic relations (like!!! a big desire for romance), but having the freedom of writing an inherently nonhuman and queer uh,, godling bug of darkness is so SO nice!! Where for us, its a romance not of a strong romantic pull, but just because of a gradual profession of trust and love of any shape and form that we probably at some point would go "do you want to consider this romantic?" and the answer is yes or to at least try it and so :)

    If anything, I'd be the one who feels super strong romantic pining but also be super content as is. But i will, no matter what, have a deep love for relationships that are inherently... exploratory of eachothers character and needs and wants kind of thing. theyre an alien to me, wholeheartedly and fully, and in a cultural context there are things that I will miss out and not understand or be able to provide. But the fact that we, the two of us still going to pursue a romantic relationship?? JFJDKSJ WA... DAMN. OKAY.

    ✧・゚: ✧・゚:✧・゚:★,。・::・゚☆ ・゚✧・゚: *・:★ ✧・゚:✧・゚: ✧・゚:★,。・::・゚☆ ・゚✧・゚:

    And then when i imagine when shifting over to a romantic context, it does Change a little, in the kind of way where there's this slightly new, kinda giddy, 'ohh we can try and do loving stuff with romantic intentions!' kinda thing so its a little bumbly, maybe even shy and eager, where things dont really Change in how we treat one another, simply there's a new kind of intent along the care we already hold for eachother.

    But for the!! yearning part i just!! They're So so cute and so handsome and I want to hold their hand gently and kindly,, They're someone i find myself having less like, mushy gushy daydreams but just soft quiet moments with, where i imagine i wouldn't feel shy musing whimsically or waxing poetic as we sit and enjoy things together...

    (though there is mushy stuff too!! fluffy and goofy stuff i imagine, i just can't help but get all soft and slow bc thats just the way our relationship would develop i think dkfjdhHFHDJ!!)

    also i just. find them Very Aesthetically attractive and very cool and !!!! charming,, because they're such a proficient warrior, such an elegant knight, and yet i imagine them being so gentle and kind and worried of ever hurting others... and the part of me that just dies at the thought of anyone wanting to protect me just Weeps?? There's just something exceptionally captivating about someone showing skill like that ldkjfslDKJ,,?? i have no idea omg lskFJSDLKJ

    But also just... there's something so inherently gorgeous about them. Their design, their pretty mask and massive horns, their deep eyes. I love the way they look when they wore their armour, adorned in pale whites and silvers and blues... when your colour scheme is something somewhat monochromatic, being covered in soft blues is so pretty. Also because blue is one of my colours so we can match sdlkfSDKLJ!!

    #starry rambles #self ship stuff #i should probably make a tag for loving posts in specific #hmhmm.. #love letters from mari... something like that maybe klsDJFSDLKJ? #well! i'll get to it eventually i'll just look through my talk tag and change accordingly dskflJDSLKJ #mari's love letters?? #smth dkfhhdksjd!! #personal #? i got kinda real there and its not Venty but it does imply Some sort of hm. bad past experiences JFHDJD #Hollow tag TBA #ANYWAYS... i just really like self shipping #feelings of deep alienation for the both of us from our childhood and personal self #alongside being so alien to each other but still loving each other regardless? fSDJKLFLSKDJ stars... oh fuck ok
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  • rubberbandballqueen
    08.05.2021 - 21 hours ago

    “why are you like this” *points to extremely specific formative moment in my life*

    #'i can go into excruciating detail explaining how that butterfly effect'd its way through my life #and affected other formative decisions through my life bc of how my experiences change my philosophy #but you're not actually interested in sitting down for twelve hours and understanding me that well are you?' #those tags are a hypothetical response to a hypothetical person asking in bad faith lol #i just find it interesting how as you go through life you develop a philosophy and methodology of navigating the world #and how if you look back and you have the words you can kind of realize 'oh! it's been there all along before i had words' #or how certain events made you start realizing things that become foundational to your worldview later #human beings are naturally pattern-seekers so i think a part of that also comes from reapplying a familiar lens #the worm speaks
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  • autistic-lalli
    07.05.2021 - 21 hours ago
    #this whole fic will come directly from my own very american college experiences #which is why we skip freshman year #freshman year was ahem #very bad #stand still stay silent #sssscomic#emilalli#fic
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  • screamingay
    07.05.2021 - 23 hours ago

    consistently devastated by reminders that i never got to grow up or live in a walkable town/city

    #watching videos abt ppls experiences growing up in or moving to walkable places makes me want to move SOOOO so bad.. #it's probably the source of like. a LOT of my current problems #aka v limited socialization and lack of basic life experience
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  • sasukes-spouse
    07.05.2021 - 1 day ago
    #i already rambled a lot but i could ramble a lot more lol #im gonna stop myself tho!! #thanks mim!! #also if i come off as mean to people who ship sasuke and naruto i dont mean to!! #ive had bad experiences with people who ship them but thats not everyone! #i get hurt thinking about what those people dod but thats not you! #so i support you and your right to ship them 😌💕 #ren speaks#sasuren #long post tw
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  • model-a
    07.05.2021 - 1 day ago

    With the ZXA enemy mega men (Atlas, Aeolus, Thetis, Siarnaq), the general theme I’m going for wrt their character arcs is that they have the same negative aspects as their respective guardians (Fefnir’s single-minded focus on battle; Harpuia’s pride; Leviathan’s destructive obsessiveness; Phantom’s blind loyalty), and, over the course of the story, these traits get tempered and dealt with as the mega men gradually mature and step away from Model W’s control.

    Part of this is to parallel the Zero series (obviously) and show some of the development that we didn’t get to see with the original guardians, but the other part involves the guardians as biometals; the four mega men start off as excellent biomatches because they share the most negative traits as their biometals, but as they grow, they become better biomatches because they’re maturing in the same way the original guardians did and resembling the biometals’ characters more.

    #txt #part of this is also tht i dont want to fully take away the ability for the mega men to merge. the idea of biomatches im going for is that #its based more on the compatibility of the hosts's and the biometal's personalities. and so even tho the 4 mega men are already similar to #their biometals their character development makes them even more similar. but i also want their character development to be fueled by their #personal desires and experiences so i dont want to be like ''oh the mega men have become so toxic that they no longer are biomatches'' and #then they go thru their characters arcs and regain that power. i personally dislike when characters get rewarded by the narrative for #becoming a better person bc 1 its unrealistic and 2 its kind of cheap. i want the mega men to be rewarded w/ having a stronger sense of self #and better relationships as a result of maturing rather than with ''u earned back the power you lost bc u were bad'' as a narrative device #i hope this makes sense im v tired #my au#zx series#zxa
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  • warmthpdf
    06.05.2021 - 1 day ago

    one day im gonna have a sleepover and all the people who took my uquiz and are sick of me talking about it are all gonna sigh in relief like finally she’s gonna shut up now omg <3 and then i wont because ill be thinking about it all the time

    #mine #I FEEL SO BAD I DIDNT KNOW I LIKE. DUMPED SO MUCH OF MY OWN SADNESS INTO THE QUIZ #ive just felt very starved of experiences and that lead to me thinking i didnt deserve the love that came with having shared experiences #bc doing those things.. like having a sleepover implies having relationships and ppl who love you enough to want to do those things #and it be a MUTUAL want to do it . and i never ever had that and i fear about whether i do have that now or not :') #i know my friends love me so much but i still get so scared of being too much by wanting to share all these moments with them
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  • pathofcomets
    06.05.2021 - 2 days ago
    IKEVAMP MOODBOARDS: ARTHUR
    #ikemen vampire#ikevamp arthur#ikevamp #ikevamp arthur conan doyle #otome game moodboard #ikemood #i did these MONTHS ago for fun but i'm in a manic episode so i'll be posting them #i have one for each suitor but yeah #i'm a very bad creator and the pics are literally from pinterest and unsourced but *clown noises* #are moodboards even relevant anymore to fandom experiences? i don't know and honestly i don't care bc these were fun to make
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  • iceflowers
    06.05.2021 - 2 days ago

    PLEASE GIVE IT TO ME THAT WOULD BE SUCH A GOOD BONDING EXPERIENCE!!!!

    #defyances #Irelia seeing the ex-Noxian citizens of Yun's town happily helping others #Yun calmly explaining to her that it wasn't their choice #letting her talk to them about their experiences in the empire #and how it's good and bad #PLEASE IM CRYING
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  • chuckhansen
    06.05.2021 - 2 days ago

    the way i should be sleeping but my brain won’t stop until i’ve created rian’s (second) ex “girlfriend”

    #idk if she can even be considered a true .... girlfriend since they just fooled around #well ... kinda .... he was vulnerable and trying to forget abt mari since he was SURE he was never gonna see her again + he was convinced #she hated him ... #and teagan was attracted to him but i think she just wanted to BE with someone #and since they travelled ALL the way to jackson together (and no doubt had their own near death experiences along the way) #SHE kinda felt like there were the beginnings of something there??? #every single time things started to get physical tho rian couldn’t bring himself to go further than kissing bc ... head full of miss mari 😞 #anyway .... i’ll give her a job ... leaning more towards a mechanic for her #she’s like a grounds keeper in jackson now and makes sure all repairs are being done and up to date #leads patrols SPECIFICALLY for finding materials that can be used for such #she’s not really important but i was thinking abt rian today for some reason #and realized i had never like .... gave her a face/name #she won’t get fleshed out bc she’s not involved with him anymore #aside from the two running into each other here and there #no bad blood between them either
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  • sincerely-fooule
    06.05.2021 - 2 days ago
    #sometimes i forget #so i have to ask my friend #it’s kinda funny #i have lots of bad experiences #with birthdays so #sorry i didn’t see this ask btw
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  • brioljerico
    06.05.2021 - 2 days ago

    DISTANCE LEARNING EXPERIENCE: The Good and Bad

    The topic of this blog is all about my good and bad own experiences as an Online Distance Learning (ODL) Student.

    I have a lot of experiences this school year (2020-2021) as an ODL student. There are a good one but of course, there are still a bad experiences this school year. First, my good experiences that I am thankful for is that I am familiar on some of my teachers because they are also my teachers last year. One of the good experiences also this school year is that some of my teachers are passionate and considerate. On the other hand, the bad experiences this school year is that I cannot fully get along with my new classmates because we are only communicating through our social media accounts. And another bad experience this year is that I felt that I literally did not enjoy my senior high school journey because of the covid-19. 

    I can say that these experiences are fulfilling but at the same time, it is sad. Nevertheless, I still enjoyed this journey of mine as an ODL student even this is not the kind of journey that I imagined before. 

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  • delicourse
    05.05.2021 - 3 days ago
    #notmyart#long post #sorry for being long i shortened it as much as possible #hope the whole ‘building connections’ thing doesnt sound ghoulish lmao. making a good friend literally counts as building connections!! #ALSO: twitter is absolutely the new hub for discourse and drama #it never affected me because im built different and got thru 2015 tumblr without a hitch #despite literally having ‘course’ in my url making me look like a discourse blog apparently and actually posting v*ltr*n art LMAO #its all about what circles you engage in and what following you cultivate #another difference is follower engagement. tumblr followers rarely unfollow #they just stop interacting with ur posts. so u will eventually end up with a huge chunk of inactive followers #but twt followers? one pic that isnt an exact copy of the last artwork u posted and 10 followers are gone immediately. expect and accept it #dont take unfollows personally ever. people curate their online experiences to fit their own specific taste and thats okay! #also no clue why but i noticed ppl on twitter are mad thirstier. extremely so. it can be good or bad depending on what u want tbh! #instagram is also an art post site u can use. i just despise it since its a repost haven and people seem kinda rude #portfolio sites tend to be for those who are actually trying to make it in a real industry so i cant relate bc im not a gamer #deviantart exists too but its probably an incredibly niche site by now. i remember posting there when i was 14. it was mlp fanart 💕 #i got like 800 followers and felt so so so cool
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  • did-not-listen-to-edna-mode
    05.05.2021 - 3 days ago

    you know what. im gonna say it. i love men. i think theyre very cool. i think boys are very handsome and nice and i want to kiss one rn

    #'ooh you like men get well soon 😊' shut the fuck up. #dont fucking derail this post with anything. obviously ppls bad experiences with men are horrible but you knkw what. sometimes boys deserve #love too. #im tired of the 'im bi that means i love women and... ew im attracted to men but i hate them' #not even gonna say 'some men' i refuse. to let that drag down my positivty posts. let me be mlm in peave
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  • cyanide-latte
    05.05.2021 - 3 days ago

    "I didn't raise you to be a high-maintenance spoiled brat!"

    Hm no, but you DID raise me with the full awareness I was autistic and didn't accommodate my needs or differences accordingly on the basis that it was "selfish" of me, so who's the REAL high-maintenance one here? Hmmm?

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  • deithe
    04.05.2021 - 4 days ago

    this is a real, honest to god article by the irish times. yes in the middle of a housing and economic crisis, staggering amounts of people now homeless or in emergency shelter with a struggling mental health system, a lackluster jobs market, a barely there public health system, and rising prices of rent for students and young people during a GLOBAL PANDEMIC. YOUNG PEOPLE'S BIGGEST THREAT IS HASH. this is a real article by a real journo. jesus fuckin almighty lads

    #lads#laaaddssss #i can tell ye now. the biggest problem we have isn't weed or squidgies. #im not saying ppl can't develop a dependency because they can! weed is like any other substances you can get addicted #but saying its the biggest threat......jesus wept lads #like. legalization needs to happen. it needs to be a public thing! instead of it being run by gangs and it having unknown potency #like. my own experiences have been. mixed cause you just have to trust your dealers supplier? and sometimes they give you bad fucking weed #and! MERJ have said that its immigrants (especially illegal immigrants or those who were trafficted) that suffer the most from this system #where they're forced to work in growhouses for these gangs #i think it was MERJ. WAIT no it was another group fuck. the immigrants council of ireland i think? #anyways. daft fucking article the criminalization of weed is dumb and it needs to be legalized and anyone whos gone in for possession needs #to be realesed #donnacha.txt #eire#drugs tw#drugs #ask to tag #id in alt text
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