#bc Pain Tumblr posts

  • mirainawen
    27.07.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Don’t call

    Don’t write

    Keep all this of you

    Out of sight

    Well, don’t do this

    Oh, don’t do that

    I think the life

    Just ran out of me

    I forgot again

    Got myself hurt again

    This time I’m closing the door again

    This time I’m putting my foot down again

    This time I’m not backing down again

    Too many bad words in your vocabulary

    For what you call your love

    Words like stress and inconvenient

    You used them just a bit too much

    More liberal than a good one

    Lazier than the real one

    Say nothing of my mentality

    You don’t even know me

    And don’t call me a martyr,

    This isn’t even a cause worth dying for,

    I would know

    So no more encores

    I’m not swimming for your distant shores

    You like to pull the high tide

    Right at the bouyline

    Tried to make this my fault again

    Tried to excuse yourself again

    Funny you don’t know the place you’re going

    Tried to catch my guard again

    Tried to sweep it under the rug again

    I just shifted gears

    I shifted gears so fast

    Cause my heart knows how to attach itself

    To the healing line

    I’m only anxious when I read it

    Read it like it is

    I recognize patterns with a keen instinct

    I didn’t do it

    Don’t you go trying

    To put a claim to it

    Cause I forgot again

    But I

    Already found my way again

    It was just a nice little bookend

    On a bad turn

    I didn’t deserve another

    Took myself out of the line of fire

    I don’t have to go there anymore

    And it’s not on me this time

    Oh, cause it was always

    Don’t call.

    Don’t write.

    Keep all this of you

    Out of sight.

    Oh well, and: don’t do this

    Oh, don’t do that

    It was just that the life

    Simply ran out tonight

    –farewell tour

    #came across this piece from almost a year ago while looking for something else. #it breaks my heart now to think about all the pain insecurity & worthlessness i allowed in my life bc i kept friends who treated me this way #such unnecessary damage! and yet. i didn't know any better. unreliable love seemed better than certain loss. #she did the best that she knew how. but thank God now i know better and i strive everyday to walk that out. #you are ALIVE. the God who made you has called you Loveworthy #they will try to tell you you aren't! they don't know any better! #you do not have to be told to ''keep all this (of you) out of sight'' and you can and should take up space. #poetry#my poetry #ok to rb #they say there's good grief #maybe it's the one that's in your past #that girl. man.
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  • asynjja
    27.07.2021 - 2 hours ago
    @pattyurs​ sent,  patty gives moa a kiss on the cheek 🥺 ――   support pattymoa or else 🔪

              𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐅𝐀𝐑 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐅𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏, 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐁𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐃 𝐔𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐁𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐊𝐍𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐋𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄𝐃 𝐔𝐏𝐎𝐍   and eyes squinting dangerously much against the blue light of a computer screen.   The mug placed next to her has long cooled down,   the strong coffee that it harbours inside entirely bitter and UNFIT for consumption ――   though she notices it only when the kiss pressed against her cheek wakes her up enough to reach out for it.   A grimace follows,   to no one’s surprise.   Doesn’t even want to know how late it is or if the sun’s back up again,   TAUNTING her for another hour of voluntary overtime.   She deserves it;   shushes Patty the moment she opens her mouth to say something wise and absolutely UNPLEASANT.   Like go to bed,   you look like absolute shit.   Just that Patty wouldn’t ever INSULT her like that,   even if it were the truth.     “ Don’t, all right?   I told Dan I’d take the weekend off to spend it with you guys ――   so I need to finish work. ”

    #pattyurs #prior to the separation or after they get back together bc we need 10000 soft things for every painful thing always #―  ʏᴏᴜ  ᴀʀᴇ  ɴᴏ  ɢᴏᴅ .  ʏᴏᴜ  ᴀʀᴇ  ᴀɴ  ᴀᴘᴏsᴛᴀᴛᴇ .     main .
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  • gaybybirth
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

    I’m gonna be totally honest with y’all, my mental and physical health hasn’t been the best lately and I haven’t been doing any writing. I’m sorry, genuinely I am. I’m going to try and see if I can get write some after my shift today, but idk how well that’s gonna go. It’s just real rough on my end right now. I’m sorry. I love y’all and thank you for dealing with the current lack of content.

    I’m sorry

    #my mental health has been shit #my physical health has been shit #it’s been at least a week of solid shoulder and neck pain #bc of that my headaches are back
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  • orcelito
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago
    #anonymous#ask#injury ment/ #i love telling these stories and absolutely have before here but it's been a bit so here u go !! #both times ended up being Very Lucky in how well it turned out #1st one i could see it Very Much and i was just like 'of fucking Course this would happen' #and i had to go wash the damn thermometer anyways and Then slap a bandaid on my hand #went to take orders bc i could do that with one hand and my hand was Burning in pain. couldnt do drink support like i was before #2nd i Immediately was laughing at myself. #took a bit for the pain to hit. and for it to start bleeding. thought it was just a lil knick until it started bleeding and hurting a LOT #only realized later it mustve hit down to the bone considering the momentum of the damn beast of a machete #the. time it took to heal. added to that perception. #and like the skin will heal but then the inside still HURTS. like if you press on it. #so surface healed in like a week or two both cases. but took over a Month for the insides to stop hurting too #sometimes... my finger still aches a bit. my palm it's been long enough it's totally healed #i got a lil backwards checkmark scar on my finger and an indent scar on my palm. the trophies for my stupidity ❤
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  • yakult-kettle
    27.07.2021 - 5 hours ago

    every early one piece fan remembers....


    #i was just reminded of them #one piece #i dont think any anime fan has ever been thru so much pain and agony tbh #ok maybe true bc im also remembering the american anime live actions films... #me speak
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  • youmustinteract
    27.07.2021 - 6 hours ago


    #my ocs #the doctors innnn #i felt physical pain drawing this one #mostly bc my artbreeder ref i made did NOT match my minds eye #LOL#my art #antagonist my beloved<3
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  • sweet-peach-sunshine
    27.07.2021 - 8 hours ago

    girl help i cannot sleep

    #I NEED TO STOP. FUCKIRNHRR NOT BRINGING EXTRA BLANKETS #THE HOTEL ROOM WAS REALLY WARM WHEN WE GOT HERE SO I WAS LIKE 'OK I DONT NEED ONE I WONT GET COLD' #PLOT TWIST. ITS 5 AM AND MY BODY DOESNY LIKE ME BC THE HOTEL BLANKET I S NT HE A VY ENOUGH #this bed just feels. very lonely #also i cant sleep cus im too excited HAHAHAAHSHD #5 more hours...omg... #nannie time :]]]] #GEGEBEBEHRBRR #sadly bede isnt helping either i literally get like. 40 minutes of light sleep then roll over for another 40 #true pain i think im gonna hav to sleep on the plane back home #ALSO i know i wanna take a shower before nan gets her and i was thinkin how wild would it be if i took one at like. 4am HBEHEHEHE #idk what im saying anymore DHDHHDDHDHD tired but no sleep :[ #post#not selfship
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  • vampfucker666
    27.07.2021 - 9 hours ago

    ACE ATTORNEY TOMORROW. my mom is gonna drive me over to gamestop in the morning vroom vroom and then ill show her the majesty of sholmes.

    #we FINALLY got her powerpoints done :DDDD #was a pain in the ass this time round bc the stupid fucking instructor wanted a panopto #after much logging into of accounts i finally got it figured out. and she got it turned in at 11:53 #(really it was 12:53 because the school is an hour ahead so. THATS NOT GOOD. she was telling me she hoped the teacher would take pity on her #i was telling her since it rolled into the next day anyway she should finish tomorrow but. you know) #and then we talked for like an hour and a half afterwards lol #i wouldnt say my mother is technologically incompetant shes just like #my sister in that she doesnt 'get' computers the same way i do?? #so she can be really like.... inefficient and get frustrated when trying to do this stuff #i mean after you show her its not a problem #but she also scrolls pages by clicking the scroll bar and dragging so. #i need to look at computers for her the one she has now is a real piece of trash #like does NOT work half the time despite my best efforts to figure out #what in gods name is slowing it down
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  • actual-garbage-gay
    27.07.2021 - 11 hours ago

    talking to myself about psychology and stimming abt it bc i REALLY enjoy psychology at 1 am is self care :)

    #tonight it’s operant conditioning #basically a reward/punishment enforces certain behavior #it’s different from classical conditioning (pavlov’s dogs) bc it doesn’t associate a stimulus with a reward #but rather an action with a reward #this is why the best ways for teachers to get kids to participate is thru candy rewards #these teachers are always liked because they are the ones who give out Rewards #when the brain is rewarded it releases dopamine which makes us feel very happy #this encourages us to get more rewards to release more dopamine. it’s like we’re addicted to our own brains #speaking of addiction this is why a lot of drugs are so dangerous- they often mimic the chemical structure of dopamine/prohibit reuptake #which makes our dopamine receptors fire over and over while we’re inebriated #and causes the body to crave More. #opiates are the first example of this i can think of. iirc they mimic dopamine’s structure #which is part of why they’re so dangerous and anyone taking them (even legally) is. often mistreated by the healthcare system #people like my father. who have chronic pain and are actually trying to take fewer opiates but always seem to have to wait an extra week for #their rx to be filled #whoops. that uh. got off topic. i don’t even know if my dad still has that problem #anyways!!! operant conditioning is really cool and neat and i like psychology so much :)))
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  • strandedcrow
    27.07.2021 - 13 hours ago
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  • badreputation
    27.07.2021 - 13 hours ago

    i forgot that reading the mdzs novel meant that i have to go thru the pain all over again.... im not prepared for this

    #i keeping putting this off bc i can't put myself thru that pain again #i did rewatch tu but its only the funny scenes bsfhsjddj
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  • cryptidso
    27.07.2021 - 13 hours ago

    i’m sorry

    #has anyone done this yet #bc i’m just trying to laugh through the pain dude #memes are my coping mechanism #bsd #bungou stray dogs #oda sakunosuke #i’ll tag spoilers just in case #bsd spoilers #bungou stray dogs spoilers
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  • viiolencia
    27.07.2021 - 14 hours ago


    #eeee be here within the next couple of days maybe #work was actual hell so my brain is fittingly f r i e d #+ my body is trying to unalive me bc PAIN #kinda a bummer bc i was ready 2 write but i did ot and just #yeaaah i'm sleepy #leave things for me to come back to if u so please #i'll probs reblog some stuff in the by the by #hope everyone is doing a lot better than me !! <3 #❛  𝗰𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗹𝘆 𝗮 𝗯𝗶𝘀𝗲𝘅𝘂𝗮𝗹 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗹 !  ❜   ;   𝗼𝗼𝗰. #tbd #oh also might be avail on disco but likely v spotty if u would like to say hi!
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  • dethqveen
    27.07.2021 - 15 hours ago

    Eerie would never play the deal of orichalcos card and proudly so, they have no interest in it because it's too powerful and provides no mental challenge in a duel.

    I mean Eerie has defeated Dartz and the orichalcos with a simple combo of marshmalon, marshmallon glasses, darklord nurse and gift card alone because Eerie is galaxy brained like that.

    #v; yugioh #i still remember that duel in the game lol it was beautiful bc i came up with that bullshit strategy and it worked // #and darts was a PAIN to beat //
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  • corvid-person
    27.07.2021 - 15 hours ago

    Breaking: local man in severe emotional pain :)

    #Its me I'm the man in severe emotional pain #Feel free to ask why bc it's not that deep
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  • theghostofashton
    27.07.2021 - 15 hours ago


    #guess this is what they mean when people say racism is traumatizing and triggering #i just saw one thing that wasn't even meant to be negative and prob had really good intentions #and i am so angry and choked up and just #tired #i'm so tired of having my experiences invalidated because they're not interesting enough or varied enough for white people #i'm tired of people acting like my experiences are a dumb stereotype we need to get rid of #as if the pain and agony i felt for years doesn't mean anything bc oh yeah white people are tired of seeing this same story #the issue has not been resolved but we need to stop writing about it because white people are done with it #it's just so #you don't know what you're talking about #i fucking promise you you do not know it better than an actual member of that group #so please let us have the floor in evaluating the representation #because i am just so tired of feeling invalidated and awful about the things ive been through #personal#delete later
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  • wendigosam
    27.07.2021 - 15 hours ago
    I was only falling in love

    was listening to this song earlier and i just wanted to edit this scene with it bc i crave pain apparently

    #wincest#gencest#my edit#fanvid #this is really short bc i just wanted this scene w this audio #I might make another one to the whole song #idk #im in pain #dont talk to me im crying #ilysmmbb
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  • orcelito
    27.07.2021 - 15 hours ago

    Chronic pain is a Bitch

    #speculation nation #anytime i strain my shoulder. Stabbing pain in the muscles. #only goes down with rest. no amount of massaging or pain medication soothes it #and it is quite literally Stabbing when it's truly aggravated. like right now 😊 #i was on drinks all night. 5 hours straight basically. bc i was the only one who knew them #and lifting my arms above my head and doing all the motions for that long k i l l s my shoulders #I Have A High Pain Tolerance but this. makes me. very unhappy. #ugghgjggh and i just remembered my cat shat on the welcome mat #i still have to bike home. rather would knife smth
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  • zhuhongs
    27.07.2021 - 17 hours ago

    besties i need a fucking beer and to go to sleep

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  • anammxlech
    27.07.2021 - 17 hours ago

    I finished a commission AND also got like roughly halfway done with the animatic God doesn't have shit on me .

    #;ooc #;delete very soon. #;tbt. #Goes feral over my own busst of energy for a day bc i know it's not gonna happen for like another 5 months and i'm also? in pain bc of it r #dndhahdbdhdd #what u need to know of me is that i'm a little dummy and I'll work on things until i will quite literally break my back into it :) #this will not chance anytime soon :) #i could be on my death bed and i'd just: '' i get up now i have work to do <:) '' iT IS WHAT IT IS.... #also me: This post was brouvht to u by my ungodly kaffeine intake .
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