#bed Tumblr posts

I still need to lose 44 pounds until I reach my ugw. Why is it so fucking hard. It’s taking so long. I know that by this time next year I’ll be there but I don’t want to wait. I want it now. I just want to be thin. It sucks because I can go so long without eating but the second I do I don’t stop shoving my mouth. I’m disgusting. And I’m still heavy enough where people don’t even question my eating habits or “diets.” Which I’m thankful for for now.. I need tips on how to lose as much weight as quickly as possible. Please.

Levi Conely

Eye contact during sex

Clara, noviembre de 2019.

+kai+

Ana/ED things no one talks about:

1. Blue nails

2. How, no matter how thin your legs are, you might never get a thigh gap because of your bone structure

3. Becoming really agressive because you’re hungry

4. Being sick easily (like a cold)

5. Visible veins

6. dry ass skin

7. More hair on your skin to keep you warm

8. physically feeling the fat growing on your body as you eat

9. you absorb about 10% of the calories when you chew and spit food

10. random bruises everywhere

Please add more if u want

Are you allowed to stand in bed??

credit: Taliah Lowry 

Sometimes I wish I could tell someone how I feel… psychologists basically tell me to fix myself and are no helpful. My friends will just tell my parents and now I’m stuck… eating and throwing up. Binging and then starving. And all I want to be is happy.

So I’ve been on a bit of a mini binge while it’s been half term. (Eating around 1000/1200 calories everyday cus I eat fuck all and still gained weight so why not gain weight and eat more) and I just had some chocolate. I can’t remember the last time I ate chocolate, like an actual bar of it. And OMG. It should be illegal for something to taste that good. I could eat the entire bar. Right here right now. But it’s my dads. He will know I eat it if it disappears anymore than I’ve already had. But I was in heaven for a couple of seconds there. I’m low key hoping that this will boot my metabolism again so I can start loosing weight when I go back to school. #prayforme every aspect of my life is suffer due to my lack of being able to lose weight. Like I can’t focus cus all im thinking about it how the fuck am I gaining and how the fuck do I start loosing again.

Faubourg St Martin (Jean-Claude Guiguet, 1986)

Springfield Township, Michigan

Feburary 18, 2020