Sooo……I skipped on posting yesterday…. when I specifically said I would post daily. DO FORGIVE THIS STUPID LAZY SOUL. I am not even sure who that is for since as expected my post didn’t receive any attention, except for the one like so thank you for that :). I feel like that definitely motivated me to continue this today and pick right where we left it. I just feel like yesterday I was very very lost and I just wanted to hide away in my room and do nothing. But of course, you cannot do that because SoCiEtY so BAH ON THEM I SAY!
But I mean, to be fair to you all (whoever reads this whenever they cross paths with it that is) this sort of lazy, unproductive, unmotivated, will miss posting for maybe even days is something to expect or look out for at least. I got diagnosed with depression in December 2019 and on the 22nd of this month (literally day before yesterday) my doctor refereed me to another doctor and he correctly diagnosed me with BPD (bipolar….I don’t know her-im sorry I had to and so basically my depression was a symptom of this and it was a lot to take in so yeah. MAN I really do need a plan for these posts don’t I lol, I shall think and work on this a lot more I promise you all. it shall be like working on myself alongside. so here! enjoy two pics of me in the months leading up to my first diagnosing.
Marilyn Monroe posing on a couch in the Ambassador Hotel in New York on February 22, 1956.
Photos by Cecil Beaton.