I feel like I am constantly stuck at a crossroad. Sometimes there’s two paths, sometimes four, and sometimes way more. I am continuously at war in my head. “Yes, no, maybe” “what if…” “If only…” “I should but…” “I can’t”. There are so many outcomes to everything in life and it’s like my mind won’t rest until it thinks of every single one. Then, all the repercussions to each individual possibility.
Perhaps that’s what has turned me into what I am today. Perhaps my negativity is a result of a restless mind. Sometimes, it’s like I don’t even want to be better. I mean if you look at what I do on the daily, there’s not a bit of me that puts forth effort anymore.
1. Wake up 2. Depression takes over 3. Work 4. Anxiety throughout the whole morning and will continue through the day. 5. Obsess 6. Break down 7. Go home and start a fight
Sometimes I feel good though. There are days where I feel great, worthy, and don’t care about what others think. I’m sure you can imagine though, it doesn’t last long. An hour, maybe two or three at most. Then I start to think, why? Am I happy because of a prescription, am I in a decent mood due to the music. Maybe my mind is simply at peace for a while.
I don’t know the point of this. Sometimes I just feel like I need to write it down. There are times it helps, but then I get to the end and I feel embarrassed. I second guess everything.
so? I’ve been? watching? anime lately- i never thought this day would come but akjssk nice i guess,,,, its fun 😍
That smile and happiness is all I lived for! Learning how to prioritise and complete all the tasks and the feeling of great accomplishment and joy that you get at the end of the day.
But remember to cal down! Not to be overwhelmed and anxious. Give yourself the time, give yourself time to heal and grow.
Learnt a lottt this week!!! I am happy to carry on with a complete different mindset and joyous schedule!
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I played that video game like a motherfucker tonite, I’ll tell u what boy
I got some teriyaki flavored seaweed chips and they were really good
but apparently I’m allergic to something in the seasoning
so now I look like I have plastic surgery
“Doom Eternal” is so fucking good so far. It’s almost like Zelda or Soul Reaver or something. Every second of it feels so clean it’s shocking
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I don’t know about you sweeties, but I’m going to bed 😴 I hope you had a lovely day and will have a beautiful night with only good dreams !! 💝