GET THIS TO 200 NOTES IN 7 DAYS FOR A REVEAL!
GET THIS TO 200 NOTES IN 7 DAYS FOR A REVEAL!
I physically feel different from my diet.
I haven’t been weighing myself but all of my pants are starting to feel loose. Shirts that would cling to me are feeling roomy. It’s all good things.
I feel like I am becoming a little mentally erratic.
I one second have direction and has quickly as it comes it’s gone.
The days I notice this it becomes harder to control my eating, so then I’ll opt for just starving myself instead of binging. I don’t know which one is healthier. Probably neither.
This is all a part of the healing process when you have mental illness, body issues and want to diet/lose weight.
It’s not all thigh gaps and collar bones and before and after photos.
It’s crying because you’re fed up with the way you’ve been, it’s loving yourself one day because you feel good about your control and feeling out of control the next.
If I could share something to myself and something to others:
Be patient with yourself. You’re learning to live with yourself after hating yourself for so long. You weren’t born hating yourself, it took years of others opinion adapting in your sub conscious to develop that opinion of yourself. Start small with thinking positively about yourself. Just like with a diet, you have to just start. There is no manual, no one way that self love will work for all. Find what works for you and don’t stop trying until you do.
I love Christmas it’s so full of love and light and happiness it just warms my heart 💖
Yall. Y’all. Seriously. Ask me for an update. Please. (fwb story time brewing)
🎶They fell in love one summer
🎶A little too wild for each other
🎶Shiny ‘til it wasn’t
🎶Feels good 'til it doesn’t
My favorite thing about crowley is that even tho he’s a noodle he still has a double chin sometimes bc that’s how bodies work
Ask me fun / playful / deep / thoughtful anons I’m bored! 👸🏻🥰🧚🏼♀️
And hell yeah im the motherfuckin’ princess.
So I’m in need of advice. Recently I’ve been struggling at work (you all know I struggle with mental health issues and whatever) but recently it’s been very bad. I went through a quiet patch on here and I’m about to tel you why. Bare with me I promise its worth it.
I felt really gross. Ugly, etcetera. The voices in my head were convincing me that nobody wanted to see me. Hence no photos were taken if I wasn’t completely made up with extensions for days looking like Ariana because that’s my safe place. It affected me so badly it affected my job. The voices told me that I was shit at my job and so I was convinced I couldn’t do it anymore and therefore became bad at my job. I relapsed and they told me to kill myself because I don’t deserve life when other people are dying who deserve it more.
Then I had a little light. I had an interview with a company that is the rival of my company. That same day my boss told me he found more hours for me to work inside the office like I’d asked. I decided to go through with the interview anyway and hear the second company out. Lovely interview great guy really chill. I told him I wanted to think because I had just been offered the other role and a pay rise that day. He said that’s fine take as long as I need.
I decided to keep my job and keep working on improvement as I was now earning twice my wage and they were being really supportive I didn’t want to just run away from my problems and actually tackle them head on.
Today I received a call just before I wrote this post from the second company offering me recruitment manager and venue team leader. What this means is I work 40 hours a week (twice as many as I worked last week and ten more than I did this week) on £10 p/h which is what my current boss has me on. I only work 15 hours out in the field fundraising for venues (that’s my job btw hey hi I raise money for charity currently walking between doors and cold-calling)
My question is I guess what do you guys think I should do..? Throw some advice and ideas in my ask box and let’s discuss bc this is a HUGE step and a GIANT decision for me.
You got the post to 150 so as promised here is the reveal of what I did last week!!!
Spy the before and after!
We officially have a short and naturally styled bob being rocked most days! 😱
Show some love and get this to 150 notes too! I know you guys can do it! 🥰😍
Y’all I did something spontaneous and I don’t think you’re ready
Get this post to 150 notes and I’ll reveal what it is I did🤪
You ain’t gotta worry, it’s an open invitation. I’ll be sittin’ right here, real patient. ♥️
🎶 Come and Get It - Selena Gomez
It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas 🎄♥️
Send anons ♥️
Send me asks/anons and I’ll sit for the next few hours talking to you guys about all sorts! ♥️
Update: yeah you were right I fell for him. I got jealous when he went out with another gir bc I knew they had slept together too and I didn’t want it to happen again. Yeah I know I’m stupid and we all saw it coming but like ugh damnit yeah. There we are with my mini update.