How are you doing during the pandemic?
(I actually would love to hear from you!) I am struggling— hard. Relapsing, not practicing my DBT skills as I should, and, well, struggling.
I did advocate for myself for the first time ever however! I can’t believe it still, I advocated for myself. I told my boss, with no plan in my mind, that my mental health was really bad and now I am the first person in my department to be issued a laptop to work from home. I was spiraling and they told me this and the spiral just
And then what did I do with the should-be relaxing feeling of a drop? Spiraled because certainly for something that wonderful to happen meant something terrible would happen. I also am now working over-time from home because I feel guilty about working from home! And I am pushing, the few people this pandemic allows, away because I am waiting for that bad thing. Logically, I know that a bad thing will happen simply because life is a series of good and bad things. I think I do this for control, act as if I know the future, as if I know that bad thing.
Basically I need to practice my DBT skills more.