One song and I’m back where I was,
Wishing I was lying in your arms.
NEVER take your loved ones and true friends for granted ❤️ You never know when a life can be taken 💔 and in an instant 💥, your whole world 🌎 is turned upside down. Remember that conversation could be your last ❤️🩹 until it’s your turn 🛗 for the angels 😇 to take you to be reunited with them again 💖
Honestly, I'm just not vibing with BPD at all. One moment I'm on top of the world and feel this buzzing excitement under my skin, and a few minutes, or hours, later I'm close to doing something to myself because I suddenly feel suffocated by anxiety, guilt, anger and sadness all at once. For no apparent reason, either.
Oh boy,I told him to listen to Pagan Poetry and some of the goth/post-punk/darkwave playlists I put together,wonder where this is going.
Having crushes that might not be actually crushes along with personality disorders is literally "fuck around and find out"
-sees jack's home from work- -marches out onto the front porch- -at full volume at 6 am, in the middle of a neighborhood- "I WOKE UP WITH ENDORPHINS!!"
Overspending, overeating, over doing whatever it is to fill the void inside, knowing that it’ll slip through and you’ll feel emptier than you did in the beginning.
tomorrow i’m gonna talk to my new psychologist about schizophrenia, bdp or bipolar and psychotic depression. because iv been experiencing delusional symptoms from them all.
at this point, i can’t tell if i’m really good at getting rid of the toxic people in my life, or just been having a year long bpd episode
either way, i’m so alone
It’s like I’m drowning and I’m screaming for help and everyone’s just watching
bojack horseman s3e7
Me: Will I EVER be HAPPY????!!!!!
My bpd brain without hesitation: never, so kill yourself bb <3
I already feel like nothing and no one. I have a brain that literally does that.
And then I don't see BPD mentioned during "mental health awareness week" or "suicide awareness week," even though we're the most common PD. We're the gateway. We're the people who stand up to suicidal thoughts over and over again and keep living anyway -- except the 1 in 10 of us who will die to BPD.
Therapists refuse to treat us. (Don't even get me started on the horrific stigma I've seen in literal psych lit). Movements that claim to support mental illnesses routinely exclude us from discussions about ADHD / CPTSD even though we share symptoms with them.
My mental illness literally makes me feel invisible. And then so does society.
Never realize how mentally ill you are until you talk to a coworker
Me * being too anxious and depressed to go to work * "I CAN'T"
Also me * being too anxious to tell my boss I can't go to work cause of my anxiety and depression...and instead goes to work * ".... It's just 8 hours... 7 if you finish fast and your boss is having a good day"
.......all I want is to sleep the entire day please
It be like that 😜💯🔥🌹
i feel like i’m losing my mind actually. my new psych took my off lexapro and replaced it with wellbutrin on top of everything else i’m on. i’m not bothered, it sounds like a good med. especially if it’s going to give you energy and maybe even drop a few pounds..but idk if it’s the withdrawal of the acclimation but my brain feels like there’s someone compressing it. these last couple of days felt like a dream.