did the fire ruin you or save you?
were you burnt
or were you forged?
Just because they texted you, doesn’t mean you have to answer. Just because they liked your picture doesn’t mean you have to message them. Learn to let go. Stop having hope in people you weren’t on your level. Don’t sleep thinking about them. They ain’t worried about you.
The light inside me starts to dem
My pain turns into fear
Hate flutters away and brings me weakness
if we got back together things would be different
I know we could get past these obstacles that hold us apart
I wouldn’t make the same mistakes
We could lead separate lives but still be close
I can be better
I’ve learned more about myself since you’ve been gone
I feel like I can be a better partner
A better girlfriend
What if we got to know each other again
Would you still love me?
Do you even want me back
What if we start our love story again
I’m not ready to give up the idea of being with you
Our love is too strong for me to move on
I know you love me. I could see it in your eyes
I texted you because my grandmother is back in the hospital, I’m overwhelmed, my mom is probably going to start drinking which means my aunt will be calling me to fix everything in a few hours, I’m too far to help, i miss you and I wanted you to be thinking of me too.
I wanted you to check in on me too.
I kept it light and “Hey! just checking in, seein how you’re doin”… friendly
you kept it light as well “hey! I’m doing good, busy with work but the usual and you?”
a little small talk and you ended with a cold, professional, polite “Thank you, I appreciate you reaching out and I’m glad you’re doing well too”
Thats it. Thats all you had to say to me. Like you were signing out of a work email. Like that coworker you acknowledge is checking in on a work project and you’re saying goodbye.
It made me feel like bursting into tears, and while I do want to cry, I am also grateful for this small conversation because I now know where I stand to you.
You don’t check in, you watch my instagram stories but don’t like my posts, you post selfies on your story and instagram and conversation clippings that allude to you ‘talking to someone’… for my attention? I’m not sure. but it fucking hurts regardless.
The last thing we said to each other was ‘I love you’. You said it first, you told me this is a temporary situation because the borders are closed and I haven’t physically seen you in almost a full year.
While I agree things would be easier if we could see each other, how do you expect to get back together if you don’t even check in?
I love you. I care about what happens to you. I want to know you’re okay. I don’t think you feel the same.
Today I wish I could lay on your chest and count the freckles on the bridge of your nose. I’d like to fall asleep with you as the little spoon (yes, I’m sharing that because guys definitely love being the little spoon too). I wish I could smell your mixture of fabric softener and cologne. I wish I could get as close to you as possible and breathe in safety. I need you right now and I can’t have you. I know this situation is for the best but it’s so hard to get through.
I will continue to tell myself that I need to focus on me and not let intruding thoughts of you take over when things get difficult. I will say these things until I believe them. I will become who I am supposed to be. What happens if I am not the me you fell in love with and we never gat back together? What if you’re not the love of my life? What if I meet someone else and the borders open and the possibility of you becomes real again?
So many things go through my mind but I hope by getting these thoughts out I can release you.
Life-size Cutout of Ana de Armas Ends Up in Ben Affleck’s Trash After Breakup
Ben Affleck has thrown away his life-size cutout of ex-girlfriend Ana de Armas. It was reported earlier this week that the celebrity couple have decided to call it quits. Affleck and de Armas started dating back in March of 2020 and parted ways amicably, according to sources close to the two actors. “Both of them have completely full lives in a good way,” a source said. “There will always be that…
I think it’s funny how something can break you down physically, mentally and emotionally. And then one day you wake up and the pain is no longer relevant.
Grieving a living soul is a heartbreak where the only funeral you attend is in the pits of your own soul.
You want a bad boy that you can fix
So every boy you fall for is always a mess
9 Years and you throw us away and rip my heart out like it is nothing.
How do I reconcile with the fact that even though he’s not the right one, I miss him terribly? How do I stop seeing him in my dreams? How do I stop lying awake all night thinking of him? How do I stop these tears from streaming down my cheeks? How do I stop loving him?
Ladies don’t settle.
Break ups are the best !
I often think of that weekend we got away
how your eyes sparkled with the reflection of the city lights
laughing with you as we walked aimlessly through the streets
of all the people that occupied the crowds, not one mattered
It felt as though it was only you and I there
you told me you loved me that night, in the midst of our passion
I have never felt such a high in my life
I was convinced I had everything I could ever need
maybe it was foolish to believe I had found my movie-perfect story
I often think of that weekend with fondness in my eternally broken heart