All romantic relationships end in either
(1) breakup, (2) divorce, or (3) death.
All romantic relationships end in either
(1) breakup, (2) divorce, or (3) death.
Perhaps related to previous post.
While I was studying it did feel like I was ready to get back on the dating scene.
I felt like I was ready for giving my time to someone, and I would have more time now that exams were over for a while, so I joined back up to OLD.
I matched with some people, got overwhelmed, unmatched more people, then stuck with the ones I had.
Anyway, it got boring real quick. And because I’ve been craving like someone to touch me in a non-sexual but kind & caring way I just feel a bit like “5eva alone”.
Then my mind goes back to my most recent ex and thinking about how I feel about her now, how I felt about her then, wondering if she thinks of me, how she feels about me now. There’s a big part of me that still wants her to be my friend. It’s frustrating we can’t make amends. I am unsure how things will go when we inevitably bump into each other “in real life”.
I know I’m thinking about my exes more because I’m a bit in my feels about being single.
I think it’s just the amount of effort that a relationship needs vs how much I am willing to give. It’s like I want to skip to the part where I live with my partner and we mostly lead independent lives but then cuddle and make out after work.. like I will end up as a lesbian stereotype because of this one day.
But also, dating just isn’t exciting anymore. It’s a chore.
I think this is telling me I also don’t want to date and not really ready for it either. I want some physical affection and the romance but none of the rest of it..
I also got really stressed yesterday thinking about all these meet ups with friends i’m planning right now (due to Covid restrictions starting to lift) and how I already don’t feel like I have enough time.
I think I need to move first before trying to date properly. Eh.
I can see my whole life when I'm with you
66 days and I still speak your name , but this time without a weep
I’ve lit the fire and watch it all go into flames from your deception.
But thank god the ashes swayed and the smoke formed into what is now my redemption.
No struggle, no force, the message is clear without a sign or map.
You’ll never get to say your peace, apologize for the mistakes you made as I choose not to curse you with my wrath.
I grew out of the trauma, I’ve let the lingering questions go
You have may have your truth, but I know longer care to know.
I don’t your need apologies, there as good gold that turns to green.
You can keep your reasons to yourself, I’d rather stay lost then to pretend that I’ve ever be seen.
It’s getting better. Time is doing what it’s supposed to. Reality is setting in. I don’t miss you as much. I’m slowly remembering my life before you and I’m looking forward to life after you. It’s getting better. Time is doing what it’s supposed to.. How bittersweet 💔
My partner of 9 years broke up with me last Monday. Things were admittedly more strained than they had been for a while, but I was still completely blindsided. I asked him if that’s really what he wanted and he said he didn’t know. He’s been staying at his friend’s house. Was really wishy-washy with me the whole week until my graduation on Saturday. He told me he didn’t want to be broken up. That he loves me. That he’s overwhelmed at work and he took it out on me. I’m relieved! Then he tells me that he still wants some space for a while. That he’s gonna stay at his friends and he’s buying me a ticket to visit my friend at the beach for a month. I’ll have access to his bank card and can do whatever I want (as long as I don’t go overboard). Think of it as a graduation present, and hopefully by the time I come back we’ll both feel better. I leave in two weeks.
Last week I was laying in bed crying because I thought he didn’t love me anymore.
This week I’m crying in bed because…everything is different now. He called me by his pet name for me today for the first time in a long while…after telling me that he won’t spend the next week with me before I leave. He’ll come over tomorrow and maybe a few more times before I go but…he’s not “coming home.” Yet.
I’m just shattered. Two weeks ago we were talking about buying a house. I’d asked him if he wanted to try for kids again and he said yes. I keep thinking of Cardan’s letters. “Come home and shout at me. Come home and fight with me. Come home and break my heart, if you must. Just come home.” I know he’s fictional lol. But I wonder if he felt anywhere close to how I do. Because I *knew* he would never do this to me. But he did.
hahaha ive convinced my best friend to watch jigsaw w me!
dean/jackles fall out theory
i gave you my most vulnerable self
when the only thing keeping me awake
was the idea that you loved me.
i realize now
how wrong i was
Oh, but for a moment, I had forgot about you. I didn’t think about how I meant nothing to you every day, but I saw you after a year of freedom from the thought of you, of us, and it all came crashing down, the tears, the long nights wondering why I was never good enough, when will your memory finally fade away for good?
relationships make me feel so fucking triggered. With the exception of like one ride or die friend who I just know will be there (and vice versa).
yall ever have a friend get back with an ex and that ex knows you hate them for the shit they pulled on your friend so they suck up to you so sooo much? Like you could say the stupidest shit and they d back you up for cookie points
Thoughts on my mind
Some venting so yeah aslo about break ups I had lamo
I had two breakups each different first kinds i ever had in my whole life so far
One romantic relationship with ex partner only with for a year
It was rather painful but eventually got over it and moved on knowing wasn't end world even might feel like it took few months till summer finally ended
Second was a platonic relationship with people i been close with for years
Just like first it was painful but extra painful even after summer was i still hurting months afterwards year now? Idk pain was fresh pain felt like i lost everything I felt hurt i felt such sadness losing people I loved couldn't stop rembering and thinking of them I think this worst most painful breakup i ever had
I had so many dreams afterwards of them I hate them at first they always of something pleasant or sad idk just tough time
But eventually the hurt dulled down till it wasn't so bad anymore I felt like I'm over them but am I really? Old Photos of them them hurts to look at i guess not fully over them still miss them I still dream of them only few times now still think of them few now everything felt like in the back my head no longer on my mind as often as the first but still it hurts dull and small but still there im not quite fully over this breakup
Other one yes it hurted it felt sad and painful but I knew everything be fine cause they still there and I haven't lost them I had them so I was going be fine honestly first breakup wasn't so bad compared to second it was way worse while first was small and easier get over cause that romantic love just poof! Gone but second well... eh I don't love other two but other I still do there love for them that still there
I miss them I hope they doing well and happy
Yeah I guess not over them god
bittersweet memories of one's I love make me tear up thinking to much on them
I guess not official breakup i just disappeared one day like a ghost
Ha ghost cause I ghosted them-
Is this a vent? Freak..probably Ohhhh WELL im fine just idk bittersweet feeling and idk yo sad but happy? Feeling of sad fondness?? Yo idk emotions man heck
Anywho just thinking about my break ups and which was worse then other one and crap
Fuckin hell break upset sucks and yes I am referring my platonic relationship ending with my unofficial ex best friends as a break up cause OH BOY DID IT F E E L like one
Haha pain I'm bored (just im rarely ever bored)imma get back to my midnight readings yeet =3=
On the bright side I partly like myself and love my dumbass jokes I make and find funny so that's nice ^w^
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desperado - rihanna
Today I walked the path we had walked together
Trees looming above me
With my pup by my side
There was a bitterness but also comfort in that solitude
I pictured you walking in front of me like you had
Pushing your hair from your eyes
But the ache in my chest settled a bit
When I looked down
Watching him sniff the grass
I know that I will be okay
That there is nothing wrong with being alone
But deep down
A small part of me
Really wishes that you had stayed