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Prompt- He thinks he found someone better than her, but is that the case really?
Pairing- IdolYoongi x Reader
Genre- Angst (So much of it), fluff
Type of AU- DivorceAU, MarriageAU, InfidelityAU
Word Count- 1.4K Words
A/N- hello!! after a loooong-ass break im back with this heavy-ass chapter! i hope you guys are still interested in my story hehe so sorry for making ya’ll wait so long, i had a lot going on but anyway, ENJOY!!
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You don't know how long you've been sitting here. Your tears have dried long ago and your breathing has returned to normal. All the pain is now gone and all that is left is numbness. You knew the divorce was coming but what you didn't know was how deeply it would affect you. No matter how hard you try, it feels impossible to move on from him. You hate how hard you've fallen for him over the years. Sometimes, you even question if you should've fought for your marriage but then what is the point?
When you think about it, you can't recall the exact moment you fell in love with Yoongi. In real life, it's not like they depict it in movies and dramas. You don't just look into someone's eyes and fall for them. Even if you do, it wasn't the case with you and Yoongi. You both were always a part of each other's lives in one way or another. At first, you went to the same school but you weren't classmates and didn't know each other till grade 9. As soon as the both of you were put together as a pair for an assignment for Literature, you clicked instantly. It was when you became friends you learned that he wasn't a fan of expressing how he feels and instead, likes to write his thoughts and feelings down. While doing the assignment you just knew that Yoongi would achieve great things in life because of how talented he was. Even as a 14-year-old, the way he spoke and dealt with things, in general, conveyed a lot of wisdom and maturity. Those were the traits that made you fall for him.
It wasn't until the final year of high school when Yoongi finally mustered up enough courage to ask you out. After that, it was all pretty much an extremely blissful experience up until now. You both hardly ever fought with each other as you and him both always believed in communicating like adults instead of conflicts. Maybe having no problems at all, all those years, was the reason why you are having such a hard time accepting what he's done to you. It came to you as a shock that anyone, no matter how strong-headed they are, can't get over it easily.
You are so lost in your thoughts that you don't even hear the door opening. It isn't until Soojin places a hand on your shoulder that you become aware of her existence. You look up at her to witness her small smile transforming into a mixture of a deep frown of concern and shock. No words are uttered as you jump up from your seat and hug her tightly, the only sound echoing in the room is the sound of your heart-wrenching sob. Soojin wraps her arms around you and rubs your back gently. She doesn't ask you anything. She just lets you cry your heart out in her arms. She knows you need it.
After what feels like hours, you finally start to calm down slowly. Your heavy breathing slows down and your sobs turn into sniffs. But the pain is still the same, why doesn't the sharp pain in your chest and the pounding headache you have, lessen like your cries? Why has it been constantly growing? Why can't you just not feel anything? Lord knows how much you don't want to feel anything. You despise yourself for emotionally depending on a person so much that it has almost brought you to your own demise. As much as you'd like to get over him, there is still a small part of you that wants him to realize what he's doing and run back to you so that you can be in his arms again. And you really hate that part of yours.
But little do you know, your small wish has started its journey of becoming real. While you spend the entire night on the couch with Soojin by your side, half-asleep because of exhaustion but half-awake because of heartbreak, Yoongi spends his at Mirae's place. But not in the way his recent-past-self would've liked. He spends it having another dreadful "talk" that he's had to have in the past couple of months. This one is slightly less gut-wrenching but nonetheless, quite difficult.
After the phone call, Yoongi had immediately rushed to Mirae's house, dying to pour his heart out and desperately wanting to get it over with. Mirae opened the door with a nervous smile, which indicated that she knew what is coming. Yoongi tried to give an apologetic smile back but it resembled more to a deep frown. Tears fell from his eyes as his eyebrows furrowed into an expression filled with pain and sorrow. An "I'm so sorry, Mirae." instantly left his mouth as he launched into a rant with a wavering voice that went something like,
"I do care about you a lot. Trust me, I really do. And I love you too, but I am not in love with you I'm sorry. I really thought I was. I thought this is what I needed. You really felt like a breath of fresh air. I thought I was ready to leave everything that I've worked for, everything that has always meant so much to me. But I can't. I'm so sorry but I really can't. You are such a great woman and you deserve everything you want in life but I can't give that to you. I need to go back. I know I don't deserve it. I am such a huge dickhead for playing with your feelings and my wife's. I don't deserve either of you. But I just-" He took a deep breath before continuing, "I need her. I need her so bad. I know you don't want to hear this, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I never wanted to hurt you. And I don't want to repeat what I did to Y/N, with you. I was so cold to her. I told her I didn't want her anymore and I made her feel like shit. I watched her wail in front of my eyes and I didn't do anything and I regret it so much. And so, I need to end this. For your good. And I need to fix everything with Y/N. Once again, I am really, truly sorry, Mirae."
And that brings us to now. Both Mirae and Yoongi are sitting on the couch in Mirae's lounge with at least an arm's length distance between them, clearly very uncomfortable after Yoongi's apology from 10 minutes ago. Mirae hasn't said a word acknowledging the said apology. Just a small "come inside, please." It's making Yoongi nervous, to say the least. He opens his mouth to ask her what's on her mind but she beats him to it, finally speaking in a very small voice, "It's okay, Yoongi."
This reaction stuns Yoongi greatly because he was expecting screams and sobs, not this. Anything but this. He looks up to find a pained smile on her face. She continues in a tone that indicates that she's holding herself back from crying, "I knew it from the beginning. We were not supposed to last long. I'm surprised we even came this far. I always knew this was wrong. It felt wrong. You always claimed that you were over Y/N, but you weren't. Even though you kept your tone cold and emotionless whenever you mentioned her, I could see the love you have for her in your eyes. I knew you love her more than you could ever love me. I could see it but I chose to be selfish. I chose to be selfish because I'm so in love with you and I hate myself for becoming the person I became because of it. I never wanted to be a home-wrecker. I am truly not that person. You're right about everything, I do deserve better. I will forever be guilty of what I did to Y/N but I don't deserve this either. No woman does. I know you're trying to become a better person too. Both of us need to. And so, I am letting you go. I wish you all the best with Y/N. We hurt her a lot and I hope she finds it in her heart to forgive you because you're right," Mirae takes a pause. Her words hit Yoongi so hard, it feels like he's having yet another revelation. More tears fall from both his and Mirae's eyes when she completes her sentence,
"You really do need her."
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PERMISSION TO DANCE ON STAGE Posters
Who’s going to the concert...... either online or in person?
like or reoblog
in the soop ep 1 rec0rdings
In the SOOP BTS ver. Season 2 Official Clip - Ep.2
Can’t wait until episode 2💜
seokjin: i guess i was just believing what i wanted to. hoseok: i've been there dude. for me it was leprechauns. seokjin: are you seriously comparing what i'm going through to the time you found out leprechauns weren't real? hoseok: leprechauns aren't real!?
That one time when BTS cosplayed as David Rose
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taehyung: hey kook what's your ideal type?
jungkook: a guy who's 6 feet tall, maybe a bit older, big fan of nature, super buff, a bit of a rapper-
taehyung: next time just say joon hyung
Everyone out there theorising that JK has a nipple piercing. Meanwhile, I looked at it and my brain went “his nipple is right there. It’s literally visible, right next to whatever that thing is. Surely that’s an odd spot for a nipple piercing? Unless his nipple is the size of a pepperoni.”
Conclusion: what is wrong with me
Namjoon : Jin kissed me! Hobi: Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Namjoon : It was unbelievable! Hobi: Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Yoongi: Okay, we wanna hear everything. Hobi, get the wine and unplug the phone. Namjoon, does this end well or do we need tissues? Namjoon : Oh, it ended very well. Hobi: Do not start without me! Do not start without me! Yoongi: Okay, alright, let’s hear about the kiss. Was it a soft brush against your lips or was it like a, you know, “I gotta have you now” kind of thing? Namjoon : Well, at first it was really intense, you know? And then, oh God, and then we just sort of sunk into it. Yoongi: Ohh... So, okay, was he holding you? Or were his hands on your back? Namjoon : First they started out on my waist and then they slid up and then they were in my hair. Hobi and Yoongi: Ohhh. *meanwhile* Jin eating pizza in his house: And, uh, and then I kissed him. Jimin: Tongue? Jin: Yeah. Jungkook: Cool.
BTS x In the Soop Season 2 Official Clip
BTS X COWAY GOOD NIGHT
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