i fasted for 51 hrs :D
pb&j - 210
i fasted for 51 hrs :D
pb&j - 210
hey you know what sucks
like it really fucking sucks
Trying not to purge rn is using the last of my energy
I’m sorry I’m always bitching about how fucking fat I am these days and what I used to look like. But my god I want to have those legs again, ugh. I cannot wait until I’m done school so I have more time to workout and lose weight! Then I’ll only have work, where I’m on my feet all day getting exercise. I can’t wait until I find the perfect workout/diet to balance together to give me what I want. But so far everything’s just been a bust. I’m maintaining my weight but I’m not going under 100. Such bullshit
Thanks for listening to me rant all the time guys. I hope you all are reaching your goal weights and looking hot as fuck
It’s 12:16 pl and i’m still in bed debating whether or not i should weight myself today… I already decided it was too stressful for me but i can’t help but wonder what my weight is, and now i’m stuck😳
On God Ed Twitter is hella mean and toxic
Anyways follow me @prayyingg on Twitter, I’m new and we can be mutuals! Lmao
Y ahí va, otra pelea mamá porque “no como” porque “me estoy matando sin comer tantas horas” lo que no sabes es que necesito mucho ayuda psicológica, pero para ti el dinero no te da, pero siempre sales y compras de todo, porque como es para mi, ahí si no hay, lo que no sabes es que sin esa ayuda no lograré salir de la puta bulimia, porque ¡ah si, no sabias! SI, terminé por desarrollar un puto trastorno alimenticio, ahora si crees que el psicólogo es necesario? no ya no, ahora crees que necesito un psiquiatra, una clínica y unos meses de rehabilitación, ahora si, pero que fácil es hacerme daño y decirme todas las mierdas, seguro si, si tengo anemia, seguro si, si me llega el virus, probablemente mi cuerpo no tenga como defenderse, pero no hay bronca, es mejor esto a escucharte decirme diario que estaba como un chancho y no dejaba de comer.
I binged and couldnt purge so until further notice I won’t be talking to myself
Today my younger brother told me that my cheeks looked puffy and you all know why… 🙃 🤮🤮🤮🤮
Now i’m empty, hungry, sweaty(i was working out), my teeth hurt, ANNNND I’M HAPPY 😁 🤡🤡
Just came to the beach and every girl in my age is skinny.
Now im feeling like shit for eating a cucumber slice. ☺️
here’s my dilemma, i don’t know if to:
Isn’t my ED a personality trait? Can’t I put that on a job application? Would that be weird?
I can’t even be good at this. I can’t even be good at helping myself become beautiful and thin and exceptional. I struggle constantly to restrict even though I know it is what I need. I am in a perpetual state of fasting and breaking and it is exhausting. Why can’t I just commit to one 15+ day fast and be done with 15 more pounds? People who do that are exceptional. I want to be exceptional. People are distracting and exhausting, but it is all my fault. I have FOMO so I never want to skip out on hangouts, opportunities to see people and go out, but then I am usually surrounded by food or temptations. I can’t help it and I am so exhausted by my own damn self. I need to distance myself from people, but I can’t. It seems there is always a birthday party, a hangout, a beach day, a date night… I can’t run from everything and I am so bad at balancing it all. Please someone help me.
hey i need a distraction so send me questions or just talk to me in my inbox and i’ll try to answer as best as i can :))
going to college w an eating disorder :/ what do I do gah. I ended up having my weight back binging so much, and my mom keeps asking why do I have a gut and all this shit.
I’ve been binging wayyy too fucking much fml….. can’t even purge bcs my family would hear me…. ahhhgfgggfggdfgvgffg
completed a 24h fast yesterday! woke up and lost 1.1kg (around 2 lbs) hopefully that stays off! finally hit 57kg
my mom is finally able to go back to work tomorrow so today will be my last day of having to eat so goddamn much!!
i’m really hoping to only have to eat 2 meals a day from now on because i’ll just eat oatmeal for breakfast (because it really fills you up and its slow released energy so it keeps you full all day) and then eat a small portion of dinner
i’ve been snacking so much lately so i really need to stop doing that and get back on track before school starts again because this time i want to actually be skinny
I am 5'2.
Sometimes I really wish I was taller because I like the idea of having a tall, slim figure. I also have a slight desire to model, but most agencies don’t take anyone under 5'7 or something.
Other times I really like it cause I can fit into small spaces and hopefully I will be able to look like those really small, petite girls.
calorie log :)
1 pupusa - 325
watermelon - 46