I hate it when you’re like “i feel kinda thinner than usual” so u go on the scale and the number is either the same or bigger :/
goodmorning everyone in gonna try to fast all day wish me luck<3
509 calls today I feel disappointed
Plus a 200 cal burning workout
This image haunts me
Also I got this from edtwt and it triggered me so badd
“whatcha up to”
oh nothing i just ate a lot at lunch so now i gotta go spend about an hour in the bathroom trying to throw it all up and get rid of as much as possible so i can then weigh myself after for the 3rd time today hbu :)
i got my first vaccine today ! :) i also binged but NOT THE POINT
so embarrassing my mom caught me using the scales to weigh my food and she asked my why was I using it and my first reflex -in total panic mode- was to say “I’m not using it” and she stared at me like “…ok then why did you put your plate on it…?” 😶 I hate being caught it’s so cringing :// I sighed and told her I was indeed using it to track my macros bc I was exercising a lot and needed enough protein 🤷🏻♀️ I think she bought it but she’s not that dumb so she definitely knows I’m controlling my intake but thankfully didn’t say anything further…
LMAOSKDJD HÉ RESPONDED AFTER I UNSENT MY MESSAGES BUT IT WAS AXTUALLY A GOOD CONVERSATION :). He wasn’t as mean
Eating grapes and watch supersize vs super skinny to motivate me not to eat so much today
36 hour fast but I really just want to see how far I can go
Anyone else calculates their UGW based on a BMI? Like I used to think oh I want to lose 10lbs or 20 lbs etc. Now I’m like ok your lowest weight was a BMI of 17.3 now time to hit the 16s 💀 I just don’t want to hit the 15s cause that’s when you get hospitalized and that’s when your bones show the most (which I crave) but I really really don’t want my parents worried more than they are and my therapist will notice so… nope no way. I guess that’s also why I have OSFED and purge a lot cause at least nobody notices the fact that I’m sick. I’m eating so it doesn’t worry them and they don’t know when I make myself throw up. And they think I’m fit bc of how much I work out lmaoo; epitome of health that’s me ✨✨✨
I’m so happy my thighs are 22 cm now and my hipbones and sticking out when I stand
I legit dropped over 2 lbs overnight I’m so excited
the ~600 between 600 and 650 too
i’m doing this for the little girl who held her hands over her stomach all day. for the girl who stood there as her friends shopped for size small clothes whilst she couldn’t even fit into the biggest size. i’m doing this for the girl that wasn’t strong enough to do it. im gonna be skinny for young me, make her happy<3
Bruh I wanna be mia again I miss doing it idk why
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE BE MY ANA COACH???
I can’t stop thinking about him. I’m literally mental and I know that man doesn’t like me..he’s gonna do what he did last night and ignore me. Or not ready my text and leave me on read and thats that. That’s the end of it. I don’t want it to be. But I want HIM to want me you know..is that crazy..I don’t know probably. The thought of someone wanting me is great..even if it’s in a bad way.. I would literally let this man punch me square and my face and I’d still like him. I’m sorry for posting about him a lot I just can’t help it.
i have a water heater, soup powder, tea bags, water bottles, stevia etc. in my room, mostly i’m way too lazy to go down and make me some tea etc. PLUS there could be the temptation of food, so it’s a double plus bc i can easier avoid the confrontation of food, also i add more salt in my bowl of soup, more water and less soup powder, so i can have more soup of my kcal intake, save my money at the same time, also helps me to keep me hydrated.