So I haven’t been interacting with a lot of you due to online school/resources for ourselves to study ourselves, so I owe you deep apologies for that. It’s a lot of work without anyone to talk to and without any motivation to finish the thing (nothing is for a grade for the moment).
I really hate this self-learning platform. I really do. I hate it when I’m alone in my room trying to study, but then again, it’s not so productive when there is too many people talking about different topics. I hate feeling like I’m wasting all my time to do other things by doing school work that is not even required. It’s suggested for it to be done, but always, suggestion is a foreboding warning. I would get in really bad situations by not doing the said work.
Also, this quarantine is not helping at all! If I could meet up with friends to study in a good area, then my productivity level can rise dramatically. However, without any social contact, it’s hard to get people together. Sure, there is facetime, but people have their own lives outside socializing, which makes this a rare occurrence.
My favorite way of studying is being with some friend in a place that is quiet enough, but not too much that you think that you have to talk with the friend. I would love to just study in peace with the comfort of knowing that you are not alone in doing so. Also, I would love a study space that is open, clear, aesthetic, and nearly inspirational. Somewhere like an open room with fairy lights, a patio with sunlight and breezes of wind that cool the temperature. Something like that.
I also miss the whole classroom atmosphere. I miss the academic atmosphere and structure of school even though at times, it feels like you want to go back home immediately. The classroom atmosphere and having people to talk to about the topic and learning about the said topic helped me grow immensely as a student, and without that, I feel like I’m starting everything on scratch. It’s as if one is learning cooking in their room, clearly not a kitchen, without any recipes. There is a sack of flour, bags of sugar, tons of unlabeled spices, different cups of water, and even more materials that you have never seen in your entire life.
It’s quite an exaggeration, if you would ask me. However, the figurative journey of the past 30 days of quarantine makes me miss a lot of things that I have thought to be unchangeable.
Events happen, familiarity changes, but everything can and will be okay at the end. The only change I can make is to adapt to this new life.