This week, I’m humbly reminded that people will disappoint me again and again. Maybe I’m just too deep in my thoughts. Maybe I never go outside to see all the (remaining) goodness left in the world, though realistically there’s a lot of hate and danger out there too. I’m bottled up in my room with my thoughts and discouragement.
This pandemic has opened up my eyes to how isolated and alone I really am.
Don't let your rp become a highschool lunch table.
#let everyone sit with you at least once is all I'm saying #I tend to wait for interaction with Vlad because of my shit experience on here #its entirely because people refuse to communicate #even if they dont want to talk to you or interact ic they will refuse to say anything then blame you #theres cliques #:) Rping isnt fun #but im going to keep trying with my friends until it is again #and dont @ me with that well you should read social cues shit #over half of us are autistic and CAN NOT #I didnt even realize what was going on until I was bullied out of an entire discord server
i feel like, having been in the fandom for like a decade now, the hetalia fandom went from like. a giant all-encompassing fandom where everyone posted about all the characters to at some point, at least on tumblr, splintering off into more specific groups, and you’d have some overlap sometimes like you’d have a subgroup w like the allies and a different subgroup focused on like face, but it became v splintered and nowadays i feel like it’s become broader again
#I did spend a lot of time mostly in rp circles so that may be influencing my impressions somewhat lol #anyway i do miss seeing a lot of my particular fave characters bc they’re mostly not the popular ones #but i do also like how it’s like a cohesive fandom again instead of a bunch of isolated cliques #ok 2 rb if u want
This is just how I feel that cis men in general look. At least 90% of them, with some having it worse than others, like a syndrome or a disease where some have heavier symptoms than others. lmfao god.
How did I not piece together that I was lesbian sooner lmfao. Also goes for not wanting the full effects of higher-dose T, because after some years it gives your body some unavoidable aspects of this, though if not all of the rougher, inborn ones.
And this especially goes for the tallest, most muscular, hairiest ones with the most Cro-Magnon looking faces. Half of whom work out to increase it on purpose, and are somehow seen as handsome by the kind of straight girls who read that 50 Shades crap. (mediocrity attracted to mediocrity in both directions...i’m surrounded by these ppl living in this middle of nowhere place. it’s like being in hell lmao)
I'm supposed to be attracted to this? Feels almost intersp*cies sometimes.
Like...that's a caveman. That's a giant, and I'm an elf. Intersp*cies Relations Are Wrong. Just say no to giant/elf coupling, kids.
Is this actually the reason why said women like really excessively physically masc men? Is it like a k*nk for them or something? Like how some people like to f*ck horses? Or others read werewolf erotica? I wanna know. Lmfao
#bitchy opinions #neurotic gay weirdness #i starred things out that the creeps will like to search for.........just no. ew. #things that i could not have posted several years ago because it wouldve gotten me canceled #was already canceled for dipping one toe in the free speech pool and now i just say what i want and its freeing #i never bothered to join those other alternate br*inwashing cliques on here after leaving the first one bc thats a scam too #🤷♂️ #posting random things i had saved on my phone #i keep this one to remind me of my base in life every time my minuscule bi side comes out #‘dont marry one of these bc he will wake up looking like a combo of this and his father one day’
look, rpc. unfollowing is fine, valid, and understandable. but softblock, softblock for goodness sake.
and if you don't and are RUDE about being asked if it's intentional?? well you're a dick, because so many people want to goddammed double check because they're interested in your plots with them :)
#ooc — 🔪 menace #delete later #bitchy xan is bitchy #didn't happen to me and is NOT a vague to a mutual I ever really had #god anyways I hate cliques #turns people into JERKS #this space on here is getting unwelcoming smh #but hey if y'all wanna label yourselves as rude jerks?? BLATANTLY?? #shit fine by me #itll be a hard block every time I hear about it :) #have some human decency
okay one last thing and then i’m done i swear. there is no one right way to write a female character. they can be badass and physically strong and cool and beat people up. they can be warm and serve their community and grow a billion plants and make their home a refuge. they can be quiet and shy and physically weak but dress funky and know a million facts about sea crits. but they don’t have to be perfect at whatever it is they do. they don’t have to beat up everyone, they don’t have to like everyone, they don’t have to know facts about everything. one female character is not a stand in for the entirety of the gender. their existing is not a test that they have to pass.
#✘; I HAVE SEVENTY TWO EXAMS AND I HAVE NOT STUDIED FOR ONE ( ooc ) #no tags i'm done typing but come yell at me in ims / discord if u want to #// vent #i lied i have more to say #the cool lady that beats people up can ALSO like sea crits because women have more than one interest i know its crazy #women don't have to fit into a genre to be valid. that's for high school cliques cut that shit out
#i feel like high school just isn't the same clique wise bc there's too many students for there to be cliques? or that was my experience #but if kids were on like a sports team they were considered popular #sunmivevo#ask
#okay okay quick vent #people who are like stop showcasing high schoolers having sex and doing drugs #And like yeah yeah okay I get it #But on the other hand what high school did you guys go to??? #because the only way my high school deviates from the drugs sex alcohol high school depictions #Is we don't have cliques #Thats it that's literally it #i have so many stories about drugs and sex and alcohol and fights and toxic relationships #What type of fucking high school did you guys go to?? #notpjo#sex cw#sex tw#drugs cw#drug tw
playing tf made me realise, i know NOTHING about american college system.
#what the hell is a sorority? #how the hell do you 'rush' it????? #do people even study in college???? #why are there do many cliques at a college ???? #why do thede cliques get a separate apartment at the college??? #do their parents know the desn or something???
#text #accidentally got invested in a video about the history of everything warriorcats including fandom and internet drama #and it's very interesting bc it's just. ;w; it's just kids. yknow? #and it's sweet and funny to hear about. #as an autistic kid living in PR in the early 2000s incapable of connecting with any community #partly because community and cliques just like...never fully formed here? if that makes any sense? #theatre kids anime kids emo kids that just wasn't a thing. and if it was it was like. extremely diluted? #I wonder if I would have liked warrior cats. I mean. reading was fun but also hard because brain #I'm just thinking. It could be very fun for my inner 12 year old who was so hungry for angst but nowhere to get it from. like no media or a #all I had was the hope that I could watch more anime on TV which wouldn't always happen #I didn't have internet access till I was a teen and even then it was like. #It was difficult to get used to bc anything new was difficult to get used to #Can I even read now? I don't really know ; w;'