Cute little stars.
Cute little stars.
Last summerrrr 💞
Slow down and remember that your body registers each time you go against your own nature
You will repeat patterns. It’s inevitable . Keep your eyes open and try not to internalize shame.
(Almost at 500 followers thank you guys love all my lil cokeheads let’s get it!)
Take me out to the back of the shed & shoot me in the back of the head. 😈
With the borders shut, cocaine is almost as hard to find as toilet paper & pasta. What’s the point in the government paying 80% of our wages if there’s no coke to buy. May as well just go out, lick a doorhandle and end it all.
This lockdown is ripping me apart!
My latest coke package, too bad it’s all gone 🤷🏼♀️
You’re skinny and weak but that’s okay.
Sometimes yes is all you can say…
Maybe you aren’t strong enough to say no?
Cokeeee daaaay 🙃🙃
Discovering you love me suddenly makes it possible.
Possible for me to return to myself.
Feeling your love makes all the pain and suffering that comes with it worth the sobriety.
I’ve discovered what I love more then coke.
Be Here Now
By: Anjanae Freitas
five steps behind
can’t get out of bed
can’t get out of my head
ten steps ahead
some weeks it’s panic
then it leads to being manic
It’s not a circle, it’s more a cycle
a cycle I want to break
triggers of the abuse are hard to shake
these secrets have always made me sick
no white coated powder
living life off of thin white lines
food is survival, not a friend to lean on
not my voice, especially a mean one
a toxic relationship I seem to never mend
yet would it be so hard to end radical accept on the other end
8 months sober
no alcohol to avoid my shameful desire
how hypocritical to of almost become my mother
to say it runs in my blood
to follow the domino effect
of black and white chain of events
would it be so bad to live in the grey?
would it be so bad to not analyze everything I say?
to be here, now?
Because after all, maybe the best present is to BE present.
Did someone say mental breakdown?
With this fucking quarantine how am I supposed to buy coke now 😭 there are cops everywhere asking where are you going and why 😭
And there are 10 days left
But it will probably go up to a month
I’m honestly going to die