Warning!!!! This is a product of sensitive matter! I was having a bad night last night and decided to write a small excerpt as a way to get it out. Nothing too sensitive is relayed in this excerpt but I still want to put a warning for those of you who are highly sensitive to these kinds of things. Enjoy!!💕💕
“Where’d she go?”
She breaks, spinning on her heels, tumbling to her knees as she shakes the child’s shoulders, screaming.
“SHE GONE DON’T YOU GET IT?!? ZIP ZOOM BAM POOF GONE!! SHE LEFT US!!! SHE LEFT US TO ROT GODDAMMIT WHAT DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND ABOUT THAT?!?”
The small one can only stare, watching as the grown’s shoulders fall, tears trailing with them.
“She left…okay? And-and you’re not gonna know where she went for the longest time…”
She sits. The snow crumbling beneath her as she turns her back on the child, folding in on herself. Hugging her knees she mutters.
“For so long…everything you’re gonna know is just a lie…and when you find out everything you’re…I just…I wish I could remember more.”
The child rests beside her, nestled in her coat as she crosses her legs. She gazes to the eldest.
“I wish I could remember what happened before…if everything was happy and glad when I woke up…what we talked about at breakfast…but all I remember is the stupid plato and the-the fucking GLOWSTICK!”
She slams her hands in the snow, cheeks reddened from the brisk but also anger. Her bottom lip quivers and she stares into the cold blanket beneath her. Watching her breath fade into nothing.
“What do I feel…when I’m older?”
She’s taken aback. What does she feel?
“That’s a lot.”
A simple laugh, running her hands through her hair, she gazes to the younger.
“It is…isn’t it?”