“There’s no question of heroism in all this. It’s a matter of common decency. That’s an idea which may make some people smile, but the only means of fighting a plague is — common decency.”
Albert Camus - The Plague
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so i have decided that during quarantine i will be positing all the random shit i do to keep myself sane/entertained and ill be calling it quarantine activities.
today… i braided my entire head. please enjoy. more to come.
0I feel bad asking people if they have any plans for the weekend cause wth could their plans be? Walk to the fridge for the 28000th time???
0Me, deciding to wear something sexy to sleep rather than my usual hibernation getup:
This will surely fix my deteriorating mental health and improve my standing in the crisis of capitalism we are all living through :)
0It looks like they put homeless students in this MUNI parking lot. Can we do that for the rest of the city’s homeless now please?
0I just had my first online class.
My socials teacher got distracted showing off all his pop figures to the class.
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This is my sweet, precious special needs baby. His name is Monkey. He is the biggest love. He purrs loud enough to hear him from another room, and he snores as loud as any person. If you talk to him, he will meow back and have a conversation with you. He also likes to sit on his bottom and put his paw on the arm rest of the couch like a human. Today he got bit by presumably a snake. One of his paws is huge and swollen and he’s just been laying on a blanket by an air vent. I really hope he turns out okay and there’s already a couple of signs he’s not doing too bad. He’s purring loudly to get attention like he usually does. I don’t know what I’d do without this guy in my life. Send good vibes my way, guys. I don’t want to lose my baby after losing my uncle today.
2Donghae & Hyukjae releasing a separate Photobook in a middle of a pandemic like bruuuuhhh why noooww? Like I would’ve bought one each in an instant but we’re in the middle of a pandemic crisis so I have to prioritize and spend my money on needs over my wants. WHY NOW?? 😭😭😭
0Fun game: Drink a bit then watch news clips about covid-19 and have a fuckin panic attack
0I know it’s okay to feel what I’m feeling right now. I know it’s valid. I just don’t like having to feel it, having to go through this. I know I have it considerably better than literally most of the world facing this crisis. I know that also doesn’t make my experience of it invalid. I know it’s okay to feel lost, hopeless, and depressed. To grieve for the loss of events, work, human interaction. To worry about what the world and my life will look like by the time this thing is done. It still sucks immensely to be going through it.
10Social Distancing Day 21:
Another fairly lazy day. I basically just bounced from room to room and cuddled the dogs. Took a nice depression nap in the middle of the day, watched some Psych with my roommate. My current stress is the very small number of days until I’m supposed to go back to work, and discrepancy with the larger number of days until the Safer at Home order ends. Hopefully I will hear from my work soon.
0House 1:
Cancer
Aries
GeminiHouse 2:
Scorpio
Aquarius
VirgoHouse 3:
Taurus
Sagittarius
LibraHouse 4:
Pisces
Leo
Capricorn9Shortly before the pandemic hit the US East coast, I got myself stuck at home with a Grade III that was “everything short of a ruptured tendon”. That alone made me feel very helpless, and the increasing stressors from COVID-19 (including food insecurity and inaccessibility) was just a recipe for disaster. I knew there was a chance for relapse, but I didn’t expect it would be so bad.
It’s now been about 4 weeks since I first started restricting, and it snowballed fast. 2 weeks ago, I began involuntarily vomiting and found I couldn’t stomach solid foods without some Zofran leftover from my last stomach bug. I had a difficult phone call with my general practitioner a few days ago that nearly had her in tears — she believes I may have gone straight into a starvation state and might already be experiencing refeeding syndrome. Under normal circumstances, she would insist on hospitalization because “this is a mental health emergency”, and insisted I increase the frequency of video conferences with my psychiatrist and therapist. My mental health care providers agreed with this, while she apologized that there wasn’t more she could do.
My Duloxetine is slowly being upped, which has been going alright so far. However, my psychiatrist is also starting me on a very low dose of mirtazapine/Remeron. My initial reaction (the one I am reminding myself is the logical, self-preservation one to listen to) is that this is a good thing, and means I will be able to eat! But I had a panic attack an hour after the appointment, and have had trouble reasoning with the anxiety that’s been creeping in. I’m afraid of gaining weight on it, I’m afraid that I won’t be able to stop eating, I’m afraid it will be like the Trazadone that set off serotonin syndrome for me last year, and I’m wondering if maybe it isn’t so bad that I haven’t been eating. I have been reminding myself that this is the EDNOS speaking and should NOT listen to it, but it’s still hard.
It’s been difficult speaking about these things, too. I don’t have anybody to share these experiences with, and I’ve always felt like an outsider in eating disorder support groups. The response I get from friends and loved ones is supportive, but lost. They don’t understand why the thoughts “I need to eat to survive” and “eating is worse than death” can sound like equally true things to me.
But. I am reminding myself than the Remeron is a trial. I can give it a week and see what happens. I took my first dose like ten minutes ago, and now I’m just trying to manage my anxiety while it kicks in.
I don’t want my life to be consumed by EDNOS again. I have too much to live for this time around.
0Let’s be honest, Corona is scary. But I believe we’ll get through this. We, the world, have seen worse and conquered through. So it’ll be okay. If you don’t believe me, follow these instructions. Close your eyes, take slow breaths in and out, say “I’m strong, I’m powerful, I’m brave, and we’ll get through this”. Stay save out there and stay calm!
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