you really fucked me up, i hope you know that
you really fucked me up, i hope you know that
IF YOU KNEW YOU DIDN’T WANT ME YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME ALONE
Yesterday in drivers ed m was feeling playful I guess and he was poking me on the arm so I poked him back. This when on until j joined in and they attacked the same time from each side of me. I poked both back obviously but then they started to make fun of me because I poked them back lightly. It was just a nice fun little enter action which is rare between me and j.
I had to share because I was happy for the rest of the day. It’s not all drama like I make it out to be on here. It’s just kinda awkward but it’s been getting better overtime.
I thought I was special. Realizing now that I’m not hurts a lot. I can’t help but imagine all those special things you’ve done to me has been done already to others. While I spent all those days daydreaming about you and all those nights staying up thinking of you. You were doing the same to everyone else. I thought I was special, I know now that I wasn’t nothing more than a toy for you to play with when you’re bored.
- @spilled-thouqhts via Tumblr
Yesterday you told me how it’s sad that we don’t have any classes together. When I saw that I got so happy thinking that I have that impact on you.
Que difícil intentar que no se noten las ganas de morir entre tantas luces de navidad.
So I’m gonna try these on my crush and just wanted to share them with you guys! Best of luck my queers!!!
Me duelen demasiadas cosas cuando estoy sola.
Let’s talk about love. Isn’t love and dating and all of that really really weird?
When I was 13 I fell in love for the first time ever and he…he broke me heart. In fact she shattered my heart into a million pieces.
It took me years to pick up the pieces again. I refused to crush on anyone but Niall Horan and he was my only love interest from then on. My friends, who were just as obsessed with 1D, completely got that and all we ever did was talk about our boys.
It was so much easier to have a crush on him cause he could not really leave could he?
Anyways when I started college in 2017 I met a guy and he started texting me.
I had no interest in him at first but I still went with it because he was the first guy to ever show any interest in me and I thought I should not miss a chance. We eventually started dating and I kinda fell for him. However, I was so afraid that he would hurt me that I protected 50% of my heart. I never allowed myself to completely fall for him and eventually things had to come to an end. He was not the right guy for me even though he thought I was the right girl for him.
We were definitely not a perfect match but this relationship taught me a lot about what I want in a guy and what I need to work on in order to maintain a happy and healthy relationship.
We were together for almost year and that was like a year ago. I refused to date anyone in Germany because I never wanted to stay there but here in the UK I thought I could be much more open.
I started going out with this one guy two weeks after coming here but again…not a match. Never mind.
Then I met him…a handsome, mature, sporty, funny guy who immediately sparked my interest.
I decided to be bold for once and I texted him. It was going great and he seemed to really gain some interest in me but then I ruined it. How? No idea to be fair but he just lost interest.
Maybe it’s because I am boring but things just changed and I feel terrible. It’s not like I really really like him but I am definitely drawn to him. He is this bad guy and I love this vibe. And actually he is a very sweet and shy guy but I mean we all keep our guard up right?
So there is that and then there is another story. So one of my friends thinks that…well that I have it easy with guys which is absolutely not true! But it’s why she does not want to introduce me to her friends bc she thinks they will focus on me then.
By accident I met her guy friend and now he is starting to crush on me. I have, however, absolutely no interest in him as I have this other guy already and he is also not my type. Way too nice haha…he could not handle me.
This makes me think though that girls actually just want guys who do not want them and vice versa. At least it’s true for me.
Why does it have to be so complicated?
Anyways I am really trying here to seem mysterious and what not. I won’t text the guy I am drawn to anymore and we’ll see what happens.
Wish me luck! 🙏🏻
I wish I could stop writing about love but how can I when you gave me a glimpse of it, when you’re the best muse to ignite this fire within me? But now the match has been thrown and it’s not a quiet flame in my heart baby you’ve started a forest fire..
Tell everyone how much you love her
Make her your status on WhatsApp
Make it visible to everyone that she is your girlfriend
Ask her to meet your parents and if she wants you to meet hers.
Be loyal (no flirting!)
Spend time with her
You are my star
You shine the brightest
You seem so near, yet so far
No matter how much I try to reach you
You’ll always be beyond my grasp
You are my dream
Seeing you is a delight
I never want to wake up
But no matter how much I dream of you
I know it will never come true
You’re the only one I want and the only one I can’t have
*listens to “lucky” by jason mraz and cries*
what about all the adventures we were going to have? what about california? what about that road trip we were going to take? what about how you promised to come visit me? it won’t ever happen now, will it? now you have her, you don’t need me.
DON’T MAKE SOMEONE LOVE YOU IF YOU CAN’T LOVE THEM
/// and you’ll never know how much i cried for you ///
“Sing that song that’s been stuck in your head since last Thursday. Take that Italian course you’ve wanted to take since your freshman year. Kiss that boy you’ve had a crush on since middle school. Write that book you’ve had the idea for since you were 17. Move to that city you’ve been dreaming of. Try that new recipe, take that road trip with your best friends. Get drunk, have sex with the boy in your first period class. Paint that picture, join that team. Tell your soulmate you love them and you know what? Order from the expensive part of the menu. Life is too short to not take chances or do risky things. You have to do everything you want with the time that you have. Please live your life while you can. I promise you, only good will come.”