#csa Tumblr posts

  • ptsdbajoranwarrior
    09.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Saw someone yesterday who looked like insanely similar to one my abusers:

    - My heart raced

    - My palms got sweaty

    - My breathing became shallow

    I haven't seen him in six years but it doesn't matter. He scares me. Always will. And that's okay.

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  • ptsdbajoranwarrior
    09.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I fully admit to still being scared of my abusers...even as an adult who could easily kick their asses. What they did no child should have to go through.

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  • ptsdbajoranwarrior
    09.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Sometimes you wake up from a trauma nightmare just... angry and willing to fight anyone who comes near you at 8am.

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  • memoreidam
    09.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    ok but like. reidaway unsub duo. spencer confides in elle that he was sexually abused by his father and she calls him to his home with his father tied up and she puts the revolver in his hand. vigilante duo—a rich father gets away with raping his daughter, a teacher cornering girls in the locker room—and spencer disposes of the bodies with his famous precision and elle dispatches them with rage thrumming in her veins. justice isn’t enough sometimes. they know how it ends your life to be held down to the floor and to be forced open. they want retribution. spencer profiling during the day and burying bodies at night. he’s got an old car, no gps. wrap them up like a present and they won’t get contact dna on the felt. elle always shoots. it’s not as personal as she would like to think it is. she’s a vehicle for a young girl’s pain, nothing more. it takes them a year to catch them. when derek cuffs spencer he doesn’t apologize.

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  • fireheartedkaratepup
    09.05.2021 - 2 hours ago

    I knew things with my uncle weren't good, but apparently he was arrested on a count of child indecency with his own daughter.

    I don't know if I could have protected her at all. I wanted to intervene when I saw him yelling at her over homework when she was small, but I knew doing so would make him angrier.

    I didn't have any ability to change her situation. It really seemed like the fallout wouldn't be worth it. I don't know if that's true or not.

    His wife is divorcing him, btw. I found that out before I found this out.

    Glad isn't the right word for this. I wish his kids had a dad who didn't tell at them and move goalposts. I wish I had an uncle I could have a good relationship with. I don't want their family separated.

    It's better to not be around him right now though. I wasn't surprised about the divorce. I kept my distance because that environment became really toxic, and I didn't have any standing to take the kids out of it, even for a little while.

    I tried to mention therapy to her. I tried leaving her and her brother notes when they were younger. I didn't know how to tell them that their dad's behavior wasn't okay without worrying that they'd parrot it and make things worse.

    #csa #idk what happened but i should talk to my cousin #it's hard because she's still in the respect the flag and my pets are supposed to do what i want them to do phase #i hope she grows out of it the way i did #i don't know how to handle this
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  • ao3-sucks
    09.05.2021 - 2 hours ago

    i just blocked this honest to god sherlock stan who was talking about me but i did screenshot this. i’m glad this person lives in a parallel universe where grooming doesn’t exist and being exposed to sexual concepts from a young age isn’t harmful, it seems like it’s a nice place to live.

    also A+ victim blaming for claiming that CSA survivors are kinksters in denial

    - Mod Daft

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  • sicsemperchann
    09.05.2021 - 3 hours ago

    Happy mother's day

    I hate you

    I wish you hadn't had me.

    What was the point of having a daughter if you were gonna neglect her so much she'd become the fucktoy of her siblings, uh?

    I hate you and I wish you hadn't had me

    #mother's day #tw csa implied #tw csa mention
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  • dilfgirl
    09.05.2021 - 3 hours ago

    Reflecting on how like progressive spaces on the internet teach kids that any criticism of "kink" or porn etc is bad and how that was a huge role in how I was abused and aided in grooming me. I hate how as soon as you're critical of something it's seen as bad and i hate how children having opinions on or being aware of bdsm is normal now. Idk but irl a stranger talking explicitly about sex with a child would immediately be seen as not okay but bc its on the internet suddenly its normal.

    #csa tw #pls don't reblog #minors dni
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  • vaporwavelich
    09.05.2021 - 5 hours ago

    John Davis is a literal CSA victim and y'all are acting like this. I cannot. Fucking unbelievable.

    #csa mention #hes not exactly kept that secret either it's a pretty deep part of korn
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  • lonelier-version-of-you
    08.05.2021 - 7 hours ago

    just thinking about how well Jade was written tonight. and how well her storyline has been done in general.

    see, you CAN do a sexual assault-related storyline for a disabled character where they have actual agency! you can address their trauma without it being just endless tragedy porn! who woulda thunk it? not the Holby City writers, apparently.

    I just. gahhh imagine if Henrik’s sl was this good. sigh.

    #casualty fail at a lot of things often but damn if they don't handle disabled characters better than holby could ever even DREAM of #tw;sexual assault mention #henrik csa storyline
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  • kissthe-gogoat
    08.05.2021 - 8 hours ago

    I'm back on my weird family shit lmaoooo

    I'd love to have a family of my own, ya know? Kids, the whole shebang. But I just worry so much about the world. People who don't have the best intentions, things like that. I've been abused, I'm so worried about the same stuff happening to my kids, I know that's very emotional mind, very anxiety induced. And, like, medical shit too, every bad thing runs in the family.

    Idk why I've got this in my mind rn, I've always wanted a family, to care for and nurture life, but I worry so much about everything lmaooooo. Like I worry I'd be overprotective because of my past, and I know no one wants an overprotective parent.

    I can't help but imagine all the absolutely horrible things that happened to me happening to them. Like, these metaphorical kids don't even exist and I'm worked up over this lmaoooo

    I worry I couldn't keep them safe, couldn't protect them.

    #tw trauma#tw csa#tw vent #tw intrusive thoughts
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  • dissociatingdingo
    08.05.2021 - 9 hours ago

    I think I need to vent about this so that I feel less alone with it, even if no one else can relate. I think keeping it to myself is just making the shame I feel more intense. 

    tw: menstruation, trauma, csa, confusion about gender dysphoria

    Some parts of my system are extremely triggered by our period. 

    It’s taken me a long time to understand and accept this. I feel a lot of shame about this because some parts are like, “How can you be triggered by something that is natural? You’re just being weak! You’re just being a baby!” 

    I started working towards accepting that this is a triggering experience for me a few years ago when I read Coping with Trauma-Related Dissociation. At least I think that’s where I read something about some people with DID experiencing flashbacks due to menstrual cramps and pain, but maybe it was in The Haunted Self. It’s taken me a while to accept that what I read was applicable to me. 

    I remember that years ago our male-identified parts described feeling gender dysphoria during our periods and said they couldn’t deal with it. At the time, I think that’s the best language we had to describe our experiences and it seemed like we were experiencing something similar to what trans people were describing when they talked about their distress dealing with periods, but now we don’t think that is true. 

    Now I am aware and accepting of the fact that this pain is similar to pain experienced during our trauma. It’s triggering for trauma parts and that might be the real reason some parts can’t deal with being present. They can’t deal with the dissociative intrusions. They can’t deal with the flashbacks. 

    It feels like there are very few parts who are equipped to be in our body and feel attached and grounded in it when the pain is this severe. It is hard not to be pulled back in time. 

    And I’m aware too that there is trauma connected specifically to the idea of menstruation, to the idea of “becoming a woman”. I know now that the adults in our life said traumatizing, toxic things to us when we had our first experience with menstruation. So this pain and this experience is tied to memories of being told that the world had gotten more dangerous for us, when it already felt like a terrible and dangerous place. 

    [ This post is okay to reblog if you happen to relate and have something to share. 

    Please do not reply/reblog with medical advice. I am not seeking medical advice from tumblr. 

    Do not interact at all if your blog promotes trans-exclusionary or “gender critical” beliefs. Do not use my trauma to promote your agenda. ] 

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