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Wish list for Christmas? Oh.. prescription glasses lol.💕
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4Im honestly at my lowest point right now, this is has been the worst year of my life. Going through a divorce since February because my wife cheated on me with my best friend. not seeing my kids nearly as much as I’d like. My attempted suicide in June . Spending the holidays alone because I have no friends and my family is 2000 miles away. I’m not usually one to post this kind of stuff because I’ve never been one to talk about my depression. I don’t want to be one of those people that say “I’m sad, give me attention”. When I tried to kill myself, I didn’t tell anyone. I didn’t make sad posts on social media, I didn’t do anything to make anyone think I was doing something for attention. When I woke up the next morning and I was still alive I did my usual routine, I went to work. I socialized at work, I was completely normal. A few weeks later I was talking to a guy I work with about his mental health and he was telling me about how he had gone through something similar. But instead of saying “yeah I know how you feel, I went through this and this and did this” I gave him my full attention and support. I didn’t want to take away from what he was telling me to make it about me. And that’s just the kind of person I am. I don’t give a single shit what happens to me, but I will always give someone a person to talk to, someone to vent to. Without asking for it in return.
But now I’m asking. Can you guys just check on me every now and then? This is going to be a hard rest of the year and I’m scared I won’t make it that far. The last thing I want to do is to make it seem like I’m fishing for attention. But I could use someone to just talk to when I’m down or someone to just say “hey man, are you okay?”. Just get me to March 2020.
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