TEN YEARS BITCHES!!!!
TEN YEARS BITCHES!!!!
when i first discovered dnp, and more specifically dan, i was pretty lost in life. i was dealing with depression and anxiety and some other issues, and i was afraid to do anything but stay in the box i had created for myself. when i started watching dan, and watching his content from all different times, i was so amazed. dan has gone from the person he was in hello internet to the person he is now, and a few years ago, that was something i could barely believe. i felt stuck; i felt lost; i felt like i held no value. i was extremely suicidal.
in recent years, dan has grown vocal in the issues he cares about, from his experience with mental illness to his experience as a queer person. from my closeted, depressed perspective, he was a revelation. dan’s content didn’t make me stop being suicidal; that was a process that is still ongoing, but it did show me that better times can come, and it was shown through such a raw and truthful perspective that for me and so many other people, it meant an incredible amount.
in a decade, dan has become who he is today, and i feel so incredibly privileged and so incredibly inspired by the fact that we have been witness to that. when dan made hello internet, he couldn’t have known the effect he’d have, and yet from that was built his part of the dnp empire.
It’s almost that time boys
wallpapers with dan howell quotes.
For his ten year YouTube birthday, is Dan going to:
A) make some sappy existential tweet
B) make a self deprecating shitpost
C) stay entirely silent
the progression of thumbnails on danisnotonfire over the last decade
I think that some people in the phandom are like, “OMG!!! RESPECT DAN AND PHIL THEY DONT WANT TO BE PUBLIC STOPPPPP” and then turn around and write smutty phanfics and cry into their pillows because they aren’t making out on camera. And as someone who as been a part of the phandom as a kid (way way way to young to be exposed to some of this shit).. I was a little bit of a demon and I started right in the height of the 2012 breakdown and so I did lots of digging and found the daily booths and the tweets and Phil’s old content before it was deleted and to be clear.. it was so obvious Phil was gay. And honestly (no tea no shade) dan too. But it was us (and specifically these phannies ^^^) that caused them to return to the closet. Because some people are going to go, “omg did you not watch dans vid that’s not it” you obviously didn’t pay enough attention. While dan has struggled with his sexuality and I will not discredit his struggle.. he did say that he wanted his relationship to be PRIVATE and that all the attention and all the people knowing scared him. I think that was a nice dan way of saying, “ y’all creeped me tf out”. For example, as a TikTok god I spend a lot of time there and often get recommended phan TikToks and there is the one (shudder) melanie martinez Cover of toxic and it unearthed some repressed trauma. If anyone remembers: I never saw the video because I was a baby but I do know about it because of it being a joke in the phandom for a long time. And it made me realize HOW FUCKING CREEPY BROS these are real people. And this was before the legalization of gay marriage. And their was hate everywhere. So imagine: you and your (possible don’t hunt me) boyfriend make videos for fun and a hoard of teenagers, in a hate filled society for the LGBTQ, make actual p*** and fan fiction with you being psycho (cherry), disgusting (hat) , and all around weird (skin) and not to mention very sexually explicit. Like the amount of death threats they probably recived in this time from us shipping them alone. That would make anyone skip right back into the closet. And I am just so disappointed in everyone that’s like “we would have been supportive!!” No Susan. They weren’t worried we weren’t gonna be supportive, they were concerned that we were gonna take it EVEN FURTHER (IF YOU EVEN CAN) like that’s gross and terrible and the fact they ever felt this way is awful. So the problem never was us shipping them. It was the absolute creeps that took it way too far. Plus I’m happy they are keeping their relationship on the dL a little.. ( not saying I don’t want some questions answered ) but this ^^^ is crazy utter insanity and I don’t, DO NOT, want them dealing with any of that anymore.
phil: hey so to celebrate 10 years since you started out on yt i’ve got a special video that i want to share with you :)
dan: awe ty ly bb :)
phil: ly 2 :)
phil: *plays hello internet*
dan: ffs phil
“and this is my first proper video, i guess.”
10 years of hello internet - october 16th, 2009
this is my art vs artist! my style is really inconsistent bUt i think that’s pretty cool :)
I can’t believe y’all are still making assumptions about Dan and Phil’s private lives. Yes they’ve come out but this doesn’t give you the right to speculate about their relationship!!! It’s not right.
I also thought Dan made it clear that those behaviors make him (and probably Phil as well) uncomfortable so please stop. Will the phandom ever learn from its mistakes?
Dan in portrait on Dailybooth