quarantine got me like
quarantine got me like
There’s a lot to love about this show, but one of the nicest things it’s done is the slow burn of Alice and Eliot’s bond, which comes to its culmination in 5x12. Back in season 1, before they even meet, they don’t have wonderful opinions of each other. Eliot looks down on Alice, and Alice is far too standoffish and insecure, even when Eliot comes mooching for Alice’s familial connections. Somewhere between that and their fight against the Beast, Alice considers Eliot a friend. A partly one-sided relationship that Eliot helps sabotage by sleeping with Quentin, and regrets after Alice dies.
“Poor little, magic girl.”
After Alice returns in season 2, his regret isn’t enough to rekindle their friendship, a statue has done the trick to appease his guilt. Then, there’s still Quentin who’s between them. Alice has him. Eliot also has him. But Alice and Eliot never have each other.
Not until Quentin dies. After that Alice and Eliot find each other, mourning their shared love, keeping alive the memories of him. It’s off to a rocky start, but Quentin is what connects them, like he did in season 1. Alice also gives Eliot the space to talk about his relationship with Quentin, and together they say their goodbye’s.
“Eliot, I have done a lot of bad things, and I’ve hurt people, okay? And the one thing that I hold on to is that I know, deep down, that I was doing my best. Were you doing the best that you could?”
“Unfortunately at the time, yes.” … “File it under things I wish I could say in this fucking letter that I can’t actually send. But I can’t let go of it either.”
“You want my help?”
“We can do it together, ok?”
Alice and Eliot don’t have a lot in common on a surface level. Where Eliot performs, Alice censors. However, one thing that rings true for both of them is that they don’t open up easily, not even to those close to them. Instead they internalize, repress, or focus their attention on other people/things. With that in mind, when Eliot sees Alice is overcome with emotion in 5x12, because of the trauma that she’s gone through a few episodes before, he gives her permission to be vulnerable, free from judgement, and he also allows himself to lean on her.
“Don’t give up ‘cause you have friends
Don’t give up, you’re not the only one
Don’t give up, no reason to be ashamed
Don’t give up, you still have us
Don’t give up now, we’re proud of who you are
Don’t give up, you know it’s never been easy
Don’t give up 'cause I believe there’s a place
There’s a place where we belong”
It’s a wonderful throwback to season one when the effects of drinking their bottled emotions led to the devastation of their fresh bond, and now, in season 5, the bottles helps tighten it. Full circle, deeply meaningful, their relationship is no longer about just Quentin. It’s about what they mean to each other.
Throughout season 5, they’ve been near each other in the background, holding hands, sharing affection. There’s such a tender softness to them, and although I’m sad the show is ending… I’m happy it’s ending here for them.
Today’s pom pom was done mindlessly. I wasn’t thinking about it while I made it. I’m starting to think that maybe pom poms wasn’t the greatest of idea for this installation. But now that I’ve started, I can’t stop. I want to follow this through.
31st March 2020
Hello! As usual I had some online lectures from my university. Today I had State Theory, Labor and Social Security Law and Criminal Law. I decided to volunteer in AFAD. It is a disaster and emergency organization, that is authorized by the Ministry of State. They provide online and in person training for the volunteers. I am currently at online training part of it and I am not sure about the in person training in this current situation. I have no idea when and where it will happen.
I also decided to start another online Mictomasters programme. This time it is about international law. I will update you as it goes.
I hope all of you are doing great. I know it is hard, times are chaotic right now but we will get through this. It is not the first, nor last disaster humanity faced and will have to face. We just need time and doing our best.
Stay home, stay safe!
Military diet day 3
1 slice of cheddar cheese.
5 saltine crackers.
A small apple.
1 slice of toast.
One egg (hard boiled or cooked)
A cup of tuna.
1 cup of vanilla ice cream.
i used diet bread, diet cheese, and diet crackers. did not eat ice cream cause its scary
approx calories 800
LOST: 2 LBS
So, I thought to myself, what’s something most people bring to the beach? Then it hit me: a towel. What if I put it by the stairs of the pool like a small carpet? I think it makes it look fancy.
My 2nd doodle in my sobriety journal. Trying to distract my mind.
will be posting military diet results tomorrow! so far…. not too good! but maybe ill be surprised tomorrow