Daydreaming about your lips
Daydreaming about your lips
Random person: “if you think about it too much, it will never come true”
Me, with MaDD:
“She was always daydreaming. She never wanted to live in the real world; she always seemed to be separated from other children her age. They couldn’t understand her or her imagination. She was always thinking outside of the box, breaking rules, and only following what her heart told her was right.”
― Shannon A. Thompson, November Snow
I haven’t been in my paracosm for almost a year because reality kept getting in the way. Last night, I came back. I had forgotten just how beautiful it was and how realistic my paras feel. I didn’t realise how much I had missed them. My pets. My friends. My family. And oh, how cozy my house looked. How quiet. No raging mother who yells at me over trivials. No disturbances. How could I forget that my paracosm is my real home?
by David John Dietrich
Does anyone ever constantly map out and plan their conversations and different scenarios so often that you begin to feel fake and insincere like you are manipulating your friends and family because you planned out what you would say and guessed how they would react? Like to the point of wondering if you are a bad person and when you say or do something nice you feel as if you don’t deserve people saying thank you and other compliments?
Just me? Okay.
it’s almost 4 am, i have two projects due today but i can’t sleep sleep a wink because my blinds are broken and the street light outside my window is hella bright so i’m spending this time daydreaming about writing love letters to my future girlfriend, hbu?
if you daydream way too often, clap your hands
if daydreaming gets in the way of you focusing on (and often, completing) boring tasks, clap your hands
if it took you years to gain control over when you daydream, and even now your control is shaky, if you have arguable control, clap your hands
Obsessing over a specific person and having them find out about your paras horrific backstory over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over an-
does anyone else feel like MaDD has made them have trouble with their sexuality/gender identity? Also, please answer this because I really wanna know: do you guys have parames with different genders, or are they always the same one as you are?
I thought for a whole year, when I was 12, before I knew about MaDD, that I was a trans boy, because my main parame was a boy at that time. Then I had some female parames, and I thought I was genderfluid. It was the hardest, saddest, most confusing year of my life
Also, I had
(have?) some trouble with my sexuality too. Something among the lines of “do I like dudes, or do I only like them because I picture my males paras as bi/gay? Would I ever date a guy, or do I want to be a boy dating another boy?”
I’m almost 17 now and this is still an ongoing struggle
Y’all ever make up dream scenarios when you were a kid that were so much worse so that when you came back to reality it all seemed so much better
Of another time. Another place. (11.30.19)