#death cw Tumblr posts

  • the-mindset-system
    18.05.2021 - 19 minutes ago

    This has been really bothering me lately. I have expressed this to my host's friends who have systems but it still bothers me. When I was alive I died at a very young age. I was in relationship with Denki Kaminari, from mha. I really didn't show emotions a lot but he was okay with that and very patient with me. He was the only 1-A student that was nice to me when my class started to get to know 1-A. I just feel extremely guilty that I died before we could ever grow old together. I feel guilty that I had to betray his trust to keep him and my friends safe. I feel guilty that not even minute after betraying him, I sacrificed myself to protect him. I feel guilty that my last memory of him was Denki holding my body as I slowly dozed off in death's cold embrace. I cannot express it enough that I'm sorry Denki had to go through that. I don't know if my Denki Kaminira is out there....but if you are please know that I am sorry and you still electrify my heart.

    -Umeko

    #otherkin#fiction kin#kin confessions#mha kin #my hero academy kin #mha oc kin #cw death mention #cw guilt
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  • ravynfyre
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    today was the big appointment for my mule, honeybee. talked to the experts to see if there was any chance of setting a treatment plan for her squamous cell carcinoma.

    there isn't. the vet team gave her less than 25% of a chance that the cancer hadn't spread too far to even be removable, and even if it was, there was already so much tissue involved, they'd basically be taking her entire eye *socket* - yeah, bone, too, not just the soft tissue - and part of her sinuses... but the only way they would be able to tell for sure was an exploratory surgery that they were concerned she wouldn't even survive.

    so i had to decide if i was going to put her through that, and an extensive and painful recovery period - at best... but if we did the surgery, and it was as bad as they expected, then she would be euthed instead of bringing her out of surgery... only to end up in a landfill somewhere, because i could *either* cremate her, *or* do the surgery. each service was the same cost.

    or i could accept the bad news was correct, that the 75% chance it was way too late was correct, and just quietly load her back up and bring her home so that she could at least spend the next couple of days here, where she's been at least a little happy (she refused to leave me when they tried to take her into the medical barn... they had to have me lead her in to her stall, because she didn't want to leave me behind, so... at least i know that i did *something* right this last month and some)

    and then call someone out here to put her down where she can be buried here, next to my takoda, who can help watch over her and show her the ropes across the bridge.

    she was happy to be home when we got back here.

    now i just have to find a vet to come out and help set her free, since mine doesn't have the manpower to make the drive out to do it. all because (2) previous owners couldn't be fucked to see that she got the appropriate treatment when there was still a chance. shit like that is why i prefer animals to humans.

    i was a tiny bit comforted when the vet said that i was making the "right choice" by opting not to put her through the surgery and everything. vets never tell you that you're "making the right choice" to kill an animal unless things really are that bad.

    it still hurts, though. she deserved better.

    #tw animal harm #tw animal death #cw animal harm #cw animal death
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  • dinosaurrainbowstarfish
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    there’s a panphobic article going around about how hyperpersonalized sexual identities are bad and I just. I’ve blocked a bunch of people for reblogging it uncritically and I’m not sure if it’s that I’m following a bunch of panphobes, or if genuinely like 5 blogs I’ve followed for years, including aroace positivity blogs, read a post claiming that pansexuals were oppressing bisexuals by having a label that has overlap with bisexuality, and literally like. either didn’t read it or could not pick up on the massive ideological problems that come with supporting the idea that there are uneccessary labels. I absolutely support the right of anyone to avoid using a hyperspecific label. I will be the first person to defend anyone who is being forced to adopt labels when they’d really rather just be queer, or who is being forced out of a community for not quite fitting the accepted definition.

    (for example, someone who identifies as asexual because they have trauma and don’t want to have sexual relationships because of it. is the definition of asexual separate from the definition of celibate? Yes. Should people conflate asexuality with celibacy? No. Is it the end of the world for people who are celibate but who do still experience sexual attraction to identify as asexual? NO. As long as they’re not telling other asexuals they’re wrong to ID as ace, I don’t have a problem with this hypothetical and neither should anybody else because people have a right to identify themselves as a way to access communities that they feel are helpful to them. What the fuck is the state of discourse that this has to be said. Stop letting essentialism into your hearts--enforcing identity labels on the basis that absolutely everyone who uses them must use them to expose inherent, immutable qualities about themselves is INVASIVE AS HELL and also NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS just let people use words they like to use. for the love of fuck. the language we use to describe ourselves may have personal or community significance but it is not the height of activism to Use The Most Correct Definitions.)

    I also recognize that the bi/pan discourse was and continues to be incredibly damaging. Most of the bisexual AND pansexual people that I know in real life have been affected by this discourse and are now afraid to talk about their identities in real life or online because they’re afraid of being misunderstood or mischaracterized. However. Acting like we got here because the label pansexual existed and some people used it is just ridiculous. THE DISCOURSE IS HOW WE GOT HERE. The insistence that since there are multiple labels, they must be oppositional and have 100% distinct definitions is how we got here. The actual bloggers who actually decided to send death threats, suicide baiting, and to publicly mischaracterize pansexual and bisexual as labels--those are all real problems that need to be addressed.

    Essentialism--the idea that there are innate, immutable qualities about you that you have always had and always will have--is the bane of community building, not hyperspecific microlabels. Oppositional thinking (this might be the wrong term for it)--the idea that there are totally separate distinct ideas and labels, the idea that contradictions cannot exist, the insistence on forcing everyone under a label to identify using the exact same definition rather than recognizing the nebulous, contradictory, messy realities of life and queerness and feminism and community building--that is stopping people from building communities.

    anyway if anybody has recommendations for post-modernist/post-structuralist feminist literature that embraces intersectionality please let me know. There are so many people who have written academically and can explain this better than me but genuinely, genuinely until intersectionality stops being a buzzword and starts making its way into an actual, widespread understanding of the world, these definition wars are going to keep happening and they’re going to keep destroying communities and reducing the number of microlabels won’t do jack shit about it because the labels. are. not. the. problem. the problem is the understanding of the world that allows people to try and stamp out contradictions and attack multilateral viewpoints until each community is One Single Idea. If you’re going to talk about how “we have to be able to criticize labels’ you better make damn sure that your criticism actually involves thinking and being able to back up your positions instead of acting like people have a duty to avoid contradictions and to abandon identities that you, personally, are uncomfortable with. And I am in fact mad that apparently a number of people that I follow seem totally down with the idea that hating microlabels is totally woke and 100% fine as long as it’s couched in academic sounding language and the OP is bi. Stop that.

    #discourse cw #no i am NOT doing the dance of telling you i have the right identities to have this conversation #my identities are irrelevant if you have a critique it should be about what I'm actually saying not WHO I AM AS A PERSON damn #i'm so tired #the anti-intellectualism is going to be the death of all of us #please read queer feminist intersectional critiques of identity politics #they're complicated but they're out there and they are necessary #i'm not usually one to discourse about queer issues but im afraid that we will never get out of this toxic definition war hell #if we don't start talking about the theories and assumptions that guide discourses #anyway if you know of other critiques of that post that are more thinky send them my way
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  • jennyslateswife
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago
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  • borinquenaqueer
    18.05.2021 - 2 hours ago
    #cw f slur #cw rape #cw death threat #hey nonny nonny #askbox
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  • floral-cas
    18.05.2021 - 2 hours ago

    Sorry for no edits today, my uncle unexpectedly passed away this morning and my toddler is sick. I may be on a short hiatus but I miss you all and I’ll be back soon 🌿

    #cw death mention #personal
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  • absinthemadness
    17.05.2021 - 2 hours ago
    #absinthe answers#akuroku #welcome to dark hours with absinthe #darkfic #serial killer au #death cw#dismemberment#murder
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  • apatosaurus
    17.05.2021 - 2 hours ago

    Sunflower seedlings coming up.

    Half of these are Honey Bear sunflowers, which are a small fluffy variety (or, they will be when they grow up). I suspect they are very similar to the Teddy Bear sunflowers I’ve raised before, some of which are coming up in another tray.

    The other half came from seeds that a parishioner gave me last year. They were from a strain of sunflowers that her young adult daughter had been raising; I officiated at the daughter’s memorial service, and the mom wanted this part of her daughter to live on in new places. The nature of my work is that I care for a congregation for a year or two while they are preparing for their next clergy person, and I don’t stay in touch when I leave because I want the congregation to bond with the new person. The mom won’t see these in my garden, but I think she’ll get the feeling the flowers are out there. So, I don’t know how tall they are supposed to be, I just know they mean a lot to the person who gave me the seeds.

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  • potatotrash0
    17.05.2021 - 2 hours ago
    #i hate that he actually looks like one even without my 20 minute edit #why does he stand like that #why#em answers#dapper death#danganronpa#sdr2#hajime hinata#hinata hajime#beta hajime#swearing#swearing cw
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  • thecompanionsimp
    17.05.2021 - 3 hours ago

    “When I was young I so desperately wanted to be remembered, I wanted to stamp my name on some great deed, some paper, some art,”

    I wished for the echo of my actions to peal forward in time, a single, clear note, that shook the hearts of others and made a chorus,

    Now the weight and guilt of every mistake weighs heavy on my back, I drag them all through the desert, wear them like chains on my ankles,

    My misdeeds are leaden, they sink like radium in my bones, the sun heats them and the liquid metal seals to my skin,

    I try and drag myself through the streets of the holiest of cities, fall gasping into the fountain of milk and honey and strip the lead from my body

    I lay there, sweetness on my lips, coolness on my body, like I lay in my garden silhouetted by flowers, indenting where my grave will be,

    Give me the mercy of dying with my name forgotten, the mercy of having my name forgotten before my death,

    Let me be a passing memory of warm summer wind, a moment of kindness where my face is forgotten but my action is not,

    Just let me put down the burden, let it sink into the sand and be forgotten,

    Let my die innocent of the sin of legacy, let me be remembered like sun on ones face.”

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  • jesterjamz
    17.05.2021 - 4 hours ago

    i love dying night one while im trying to record a video /s

    #olly orates #cw death mention #i made it a rule for myself never 2 leave a tos game though so i have to wait for THIS game to be over too auguguhgughg
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  • butterflybi
    17.05.2021 - 4 hours ago

    Bleeding hearts fill me with a lot of nostalgia but in a way that also makes me really sad. My grandfather who passed away when I was 8 had them in his yard and it reminds me of being young and going over to his house for sleepovers and how much fun it was playing outside there

    (Don’t rb this please)

    #I miss him a lot #death cw
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  • zenaquaria
    17.05.2021 - 4 hours ago

    Curse of Strahd - Barovian Limbo

    The first to die in Barovia was the little owl. As valiantly as her friends fought through a swarm of vampire spawn to save her, it was already too late. She whispered, “I go to meet my deity,” as the life left her. Little did she -or anyone- know; when a soul departs to the Barovian afterlife, there is no more than a grim dreary limbo as misty and bleak as the Barovian fog itself.

    She can only hope there is a way back. She is sure her deity’s plan has been disrupted. There has to be a way back.  There HAS to.

    When they say “Nobody leaves Barovia,” they truly mean no one ever leaves.

    Do not repost, edit, alter, trace/copy, use/redistribute my artworks without my permission.

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  • wonder-womans-ex
    17.05.2021 - 5 hours ago
    #saint#luke deveaux#st tweedle #luke x saint #relic keel lumosinlove #cw death#angst#my writing #sorry not sorry #face it tho it would have been cool if they'd died right after their first kiss #what happens if remus and sirius don't get there in time? #aj has a field day that's what happens #idk if this anon wanted st tweedle #but that's what they got #you're welcome hex :)
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  • mad-as-a-box-of-frogs
    17.05.2021 - 5 hours ago
    I always trust you. And I always end up screwed. 

    Kevin Tran in Holy Terror (9x09): SPN POC [61 / ?]

    #series 10#Kevin Tran#spnedit#spngif#spn 9x09 #character death cw #usually I try to keep character death off my gifsets #but Kevin doesn't even show up until halfway through the ep :-///// #thanks for that buckleming #supernatural #my gifs spn///
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  • lupinaesthetic
    17.05.2021 - 5 hours ago

    Hey, y'all. I haven't been around in God knows how long, but given recent events, please know that I'm still here. I still see messages and get notifications. I still consider you all my friends and even family, even if we haven't spoken in years.

    If you need someone, if you need help or support? I'm here. We've been a community for far too long to struggle on our own.

    Love you all to the moon and back. 💖

    #cw: death #im sorry ive been gone ages #don't keep your pain or struggles to yourself #you are loved and cherished #and the world doesn't need to lose any more light than it already has
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  • destiniesfic
    17.05.2021 - 5 hours ago
    #he was ready to burn the world when she lost her powers so #darklina #character death cw #anonymous#ask
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  • jesterjamz
    17.05.2021 - 6 hours ago
    #jester answers some asks B] #transition #james the janitor #also i was absolutely obsessed w/ alliteration in 5th grade & thats when i made all of these ocs so jfkdsjflsfds #cw death mention
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  • cleversturmhond
    17.05.2021 - 6 hours ago

    When I start doubting my angst writing skills, I like to remember the one shot where I wrote Ro’s passing and people dm me asking if that canon to my storyline.

    And telling me how much I hurt them.

    #that will not compare to what I have planned #hypothetically #cw character death
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