January 29, 2020 at 02:06AM
Agender? Nb? Feminine agender?
Something a bit “weird” happened today. Some months ago i started to think i am more comfortable considering myself as agender, but I wasn’t even bothered that much by being considered a “female” , even if sometimes I feel uncomfortable with my female body and i Wish i had a neutral one tbh. I also thought how my life would have been with a penis, if I was born as a male etc, but that’s not the point. However, I tried a wig, for a joke, a short brown one. My hair is long and blue now, and even if my facial traits are not “feminine”, i am always labeled as female, a girl, but as long as they don’t call me woman, it’s still “ok.” somehow. I am also ok with both male and female looking outfits(although i really think that everyone can wear everything they want, really), and i Like to dress “sexy” as well, with “feminine” dresses etc(not now because i gained weight..)
As soon as i tried the wig, i felt… Wow. Super neutral. I felt good. I looked cute in my head for once and i was super neutral looking, and i was about to cry.
I am so confused and as i always avoid to label myself even for the sexual orientation, I don’t want to be called “woman”, and it bothers me. But I don’t know how to present myself, and i cant even use pronouns in my native language, and using they/them feel so weird in English to me because in my head it’s still labelled as something plural … And for my look, well, I can’t change it right now because i am Living with my family so if they see, for example, that i dress in a certain way and i cut my hair(i like long hair tho, but they make me so… girly, although ad i said my face is not)…well they wouldn’t accept it, they would accept nothing about me
I dont even know if what i am saying makes sense.
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