i’m thinking about benchtrio and,, my heart.
i’ll just never get over that they’re kids. they’re all around 17 and live on a server that has been chalk-full of brutality and war. none of them have a single adult who is actually a consistent presence or a GOOD presence in their lives.
from an outside perspective, people might think it’s a bit weird that in this story teenagers become presidents and have nations and fight in wars, but i think the fact that its completely normal/accepted is important. the people here do not care about age. i’m guessing it’s just a cultural thing in the world of the dsmp. everyone grows up quick. to take on the mantle of running a nation, to be someone who intercedes in a court, as long as you can (try to) get the job done it doesn’t matter that you just got your braces off or are still having growth spurts.
but even though these kids have seen far too much and been through terrible things, just because they’re expected to be able to deal with it all doesn’t mean they can. it’s why i love love love tommy’s characterization and it thoroughly pisses me off when people say he’s just an annoying child. EXACTLY. i would be annoying too if i watched my mentally ill brother-figure spiral and destroy something that i personally worked hard for and considered home. i would be annoying AS FUCK if a very powerful man used me and twisted my emotions around and had an ongoing personal war with me and my friend and then ultimately KILLED me. tommy is a child and the fact that the only way his childishness can escape him is via his immaturity or brash actions is perfect and makes sense.
same with tubbo and ranboo. oh you think they’re not as childish as tommy? tubbo has the whole ~little family~ thing going on, he’s pretty chill, has a nice little nation, a nuclear weapons system that could destroy the server, and even a rlly cool mansion! oh, one of these doesn’t really fit? yeah that’s right-the fact that tubbo developed NUKES to protect a semblance of his peace, that he’s willing to go that far because everything he’s ever cared about has been threatened or destroyed in the past is because he’s a kid trying desperately to do everything in his power to prevent the things he loves being taken from him because he’s so familiar with that feeling. he’s been taught that talking and figuring things out is useless, so he went to the next best thing: arming himself to hell.
and ranboo. oh, ranboo. his obsession with conflict and sides and people, it’s because he’s a young person who has suffered through war and it’s manifested in him (both regular ranboo and enderwalk!ranboo as we’ve seen) that he has to prevent bad shit from happening. i mean, he’s obsessed. the fact that he’s holding it to himself to stop ALL conflict?? i mean just conflict in general? on a server that has a narcissistic psychopath on the verge of escaping prison, a man who’s been dead for 13 years and enjoys bombs, a PIG who can singlehandedly wipe out a NATION, i mean, his goal is impossible. it’s just going to drive him further away bc he has perfectionist nature and holds himself to very high standards. HE has to be the upholder of peace. HE has to make all the right decisions. HE has to simultaneously protect and prevent at all times. what is this besides a kid terrified of what he’s seen and the idea that it could get worse?
i just want these kids to have a happy ending. i want closure and healing for all of them. but with the way things are going, i doubt that’s going to happen. i guess we’ll just have to wait and see.