May 17, 2021
Weighted myself because Im a dumb idiot and now I want to cry. Im gonna spend the morning walking. I hate myself. At this point I dont think I can be able to reach 59kg for the weekend, but I'll avoid to weight myself.
It really change my mood for the whole day, and I have to focus on the fact that I have to do good.
Burned 100kcal walking, Im now on the cyclette but Im not motivated to exercise today so I'll stop soon. The plan is not high for today so I dont have to do it.
I decided to cut my hair today in the late afternoon, yesterday I used some hairpins for fake the new cut and I really liked it. Im always really scared of this kind of changes, but the summer is coming, my hairloss ia getting worse and I need to convince myself I can be better than this :) I will bleach half of my head in the future, just not now. Im gonna try to add more foods that can help against hairloss because the best vitamines I can buy are really expensive here and I dont want to argue with mom, so I have to find those in the normal way. Its fine tho, I miss some if those because I just preferred others and my mom maybe doesnt buy them.
Ate a little bit of cheese at lunch that was not planned, but I walked after it and I'll probably do more later.
Cutted my hair! Its a sort of a mullet, I will probably make it shorter in the next days, but Im really happy with it. Im gonna reach 697kcal today, but Im gonna burn more after dinner and Im over 500 already so today is a good day.
Ate more, but I still feel hungry af and now Im gonna use the cyclette until I have energy so I think Im fine. I mean I just ate some stuff I didnt weighted before so its not a binge, Im still in deficit. And its better if I dont try to track back the calories. Im ok with myself in this way.
Im also gonna exercise like hell tomorrow, and yeah, no scale :) My grandma will come on sunday and I want to do my best for being in the best shape I can be.
Burned 1000kcal on the cyclette. Im going to sleep :')