Me when I realize that I gained weight:
Me when I realize that I gained weight:
i‘m going to get my wisdom teeth out today and the first thing i thought was: i cant eat properly so i‘m gonna lose a little weight and what do i say, that makes it so much more attractive
So last month I fell off on my weight loss pretty bad because I got depressed and was comfort eating and ended up gaining 10 pounds which brought me back to 145lbs. So I’ve been really strict with tracking the cals of everything I eat and managed to drop back down to 135 during October but today I caved and ended up eating junk food and I’m about to cry. I’ve been steady eating around 600cals daily since I tried getting back on my weight loss and today I just totally messed everything up😭😭😭 I need somebody to pressure me ASAP😫
Doe Sansone have the calorie calculator where where can try different calories a day and see how long it'd take?
i want to fucking live my life already. i spent all my teenage years obsessing over my weight and my body and i’m not even skinny. i don’t want to keep worrying about my weight and body every day just to binge day after day. but looking at my body fucking kiIIs me & i can’t watch myself gain.
i’m so tired
Yesterday I ate not that much and somehow I still gained 0.3 kg overnight 😶 wtf
Maaaan it’s fucking hard restricting while you still live with your mom 😩 I want to starve but she’s always making breakfasts for me and asking if I ate something for dinner and she will notice if I ate nothing because it’s just two of us
i’m not living up to their standards of me
they think i’m perfect
they this i’m some perfect kid
i’m letting them all down
1 almond milk shake ( 100cals )
1 tub halotop ( 360cals )
1 pack buffalo ranch salad ( 271cals )
1 protein bar and a plain brioche bun ( 346cals )
TOTAL - 1077cals
NOTES - i ate way more than i wanted today, but, for some reason i'm not unhappy about it. i lost a lot of weight this morning (1.5kg) so i feel good :)
i always feel so guilty when my ed comes back because my mother always buys me food and because i wont eat a certain amount of calories a day i cant eat it all before something expires and idk i just feel sad making her waste her money but also i cant tell her not to buy stuff because then she’ll get suspicious
I weighted myself today morning. The scale said 103 lbs (46.7 kg)
IT MEANS I’VE FINALLY PASSED MY FIRST GOAL WEIGHT (104 lbs)
I have to lose 0.6 lbs and then I’m ”officially” in the underweight category (according to bmi).
i honestly can’t wait until i live alone so i can just not buy food, or at the very least buy safe low cal stuff i won’t binge on. one day
TW || suicide, anorexia, etc
I wish my dad would understand that having debilitating mental disorders doesn't mean I'm weak and letting it happen. He can fight through his struggles and I can't fight as easily as he does. I need his help, but if I ever told him about my ongoing anorexia struggle despite being in recovery thanks to him, my BPD symptoms, my DID system, my self harm and suicide attempts, he would just tell me it's a matter of willpower and I have to just not be bothered by it and that doesn't help me. I just have so much going on all the time and I need my dad to help me ground myself before I get lost in all of it and relapse in everything.
I idolize my dad, I wish I was as strong as him.
its been my siblings birthdays three days in a row and today we finally all ate treats for it 😭 vanilla cake and chocolate ice cream were SO GOOD but i feel bad despite barely having any 🧍♂️
I am so afraid of having to weigh myself this week, I know I have been binging and I hate the idea of gaining weight
I am .3 lbs away from my 95 lbs UGW but I still don't look how I want so I had to drop it to 90 lbs. Feels good that I hit it (kinda), but I still look so...puffy. Stayed under 500 calories tho so swaggy ig....
Another bad thing is I don't have a scale and I go to my grans house to weigh myself but I cut her off today so now I can't weight myself until I move out...
yo i didn’t get my period this month which i’m very surprised about cuz i’ve been eating so much, but nope not even like brown discharge