I think i just need somebody you know. Just someone to talk to, just to love them in the most pure way possible.
0I’ve been off Facebook for over two months, and it really has done wonders for my mental health. I logged back on today, I didn’t scroll, I did nothing other than add a new profile photo and make sure everything was a private as possible. I reactivated purely for the want of connecting it to another app to look at my memories. I was trying to tell someone about something the other day, and I was so upset to realise I couldn’t remember all the details of it, but had I still had my old blog I would have been able to tell them all about it - so I decided if I can look at my old photos I can perhaps remember some of these memories and write about them here. That way I can start rebuilding my memories on this blog and have them for the future. I haven’t downloaded the Facebook app, nor do I intend to. I also do not intend to actually use Facebook for anything or use it in any way from now on other than through the memory app. My life has been better without Facebook, and I’d like to keep it that way. I hope I’m not tempted to look at things I’ve been avoiding, and I know that looking over some memories will be painful, but at the same time, those memories are my history, they are things that have made me who I am today, and for the most part, I want those memories.
[Blog title: Ohio Is for Lovers - Hawthorne Heights].
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@emilysoto-blog Spring from the archive | @allure from 2016 ✨
#photographer #emotion #blackisbeautiful
Cr̵̠͖̂̀̄́́̕e̵̯̞̎̈́̀͑̂̓̽̕͝d̶̖̠̖̳̏̇̏̆͆̂̾̚i̴̛͕͍̤̐͆͆͂̇̈́̍̍͊t̵͎̳̠̏͐͒͆̐s̶̢͎̮̝̭̫̞̏̒͛͗͜ ǎ̸̹͔̅̈́͘b̵̧̙̮̰̜̳̟͈̞̓̀͋̅̓̔ͅo̵̳̞̖̖̩̻̩̎̍̓́v̷̛̼̣͍͈̮̉̾͗̄̋̉̄̀̄e̵̯̞̎̈́̀͑̂̓̽̕͝
2@noa_the_model #selfportrait
📷 @noa_the_photographer #femaleartists #emotion
Cr̵̠͖̂̀̄́́̕e̵̯̞̎̈́̀͑̂̓̽̕͝d̶̖̠̖̳̏̇̏̆͆̂̾̚i̴̛͕͍̤̐͆͆͂̇̈́̍̍͊t̵͎̳̠̏͐͒͆̐s̶̢͎̮̝̭̫̞̏̒͛͗͜ ǎ̸̹͔̅̈́͘b̵̧̙̮̰̜̳̟͈̞̓̀͋̅̓̔ͅo̵̳̞̖̖̩̻̩̎̍̓́v̷̛̼̣͍͈̮̉̾͗̄̋̉̄̀̄e̵̯̞̎̈́̀͑̂̓̽̕͝
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‘Shunned’
30x40cm Windsor & Newton cold pressed paper, 300gsm Watercolor and Caran d'ache watercolor pencils.
3Look here’s the thing though: if someone expresses negative emotions to you, and your response is to say “don’t feel that way!”, you’re not doing it to make them feel better - you’re doing it to make yourself feel better by not having to deal with their difficult emotions.
9The pain could kill me
If I didn’t picture a brighter day
Could’ve been gone with remnants only in the sea
Had I let the haunting memories stay
Swallow my tears and accept being misunderstood
Regardless if I live or die, the world turns
Might as well give you something good
Just hope my love shines and someone learns
That the pain could’ve killed me
That it does
-PA
1This days
#quarantine
#pinkmylife
#masculine
#iprefercoronabeer
Cr̵̠͖̂̀̄́́̕e̵̯̞̎̈́̀͑̂̓̽̕͝d̶̖̠̖̳̏̇̏̆͆̂̾̚i̴̛͕͍̤̐͆͆͂̇̈́̍̍͊t̵͎̳̠̏͐͒͆̐s̶̢͎̮̝̭̫̞̏̒͛͗͜ ǎ̸̹͔̅̈́͘b̵̧̙̮̰̜̳̟͈̞̓̀͋̅̓̔ͅo̵̳̞̖̖̩̻̩̎̍̓́v̷̛̼̣͍͈̮̉̾͗̄̋̉̄̀̄e̵̯̞̎̈́̀͑̂̓̽̕͝
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Been working on a new story, tentatively called ‘Tell Me What to Do.’ So far there’s a five-page outline, some opening riffs, and two chapters. It’ll evolve as it takes shape, but here’s what’s written so far. Is this something you’d keep reading?
If enough people are into this, I’ll share the second chapter soon :)
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OPENING:
This is the last thing I’ll ever write.
I don’t want to alarm you, but by the time you finish reading this, I won’t be here anymore, and there’s a lot to say before then.
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