“So can we close the space between us now?
It’s the distance we don’t need (Hey)
Yeah, you’re everything I love about
The things I hate in me (Hey)
So come on, come on, come over now and
Fix me with your grace
‘Cause I’m not too far and you’re my favorite place “
This song fucked me up real good.
I’ve been off Facebook for over two months, and it really has done wonders for my mental health. I logged back on today, I didn’t scroll, I did nothing other than add a new profile photo and make sure everything was a private as possible. I reactivated purely for the want of connecting it to another app to look at my memories. I was trying to tell someone about something the other day, and I was so upset to realise I couldn’t remember all the details of it, but had I still had my old blog I would have been able to tell them all about it - so I decided if I can look at my old photos I can perhaps remember some of these memories and write about them here. That way I can start rebuilding my memories on this blog and have them for the future. I haven’t downloaded the Facebook app, nor do I intend to. I also do not intend to actually use Facebook for anything or use it in any way from now on other than through the memory app. My life has been better without Facebook, and I’d like to keep it that way. I hope I’m not tempted to look at things I’ve been avoiding, and I know that looking over some memories will be painful, but at the same time, those memories are my history, they are things that have made me who I am today, and for the most part, I want those memories.
[Blog title: Ohio Is for Lovers - Hawthorne Heights].
be who you are babes
“I don’t know how to love. No one taught me.” Is still the most heartbreaking line in this show
Coronavirus got me feeling like.
After taking the fall for Rachel, Chloe gets in a fight with David and Joyce and escapes to her place of quiet - the junkyard.
Any feedback, suggestions, ideas for series I can do and etc. are always very much appreciated. =)
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Why do I feel so miserable 😔
My heart literally feels like it’s aching…
How grateful I am,
To have a life outside these four walls that I miss.
To have friends that I love to see.
To have a family that I love to be surrounded by.
To have a career that I’ve dreamed of.
To have a life that I enjoy living.
How grateful I am.
Everyone is so caught up in thinking I’m not fine, that they can’t see that I actually am.
“Hope” is Overrated..
let’s play a fun new game called “how many of these pills do i have to take until i feel something and/or nothing”
I think I’ve gotten better about overwhelming tasks. Specifically things like cleaning, where there is a ton to do, I’ve gotten pretty good at thinking of it one step at a time, and breaking it into manageable pieces so I can see progress and not be completely frozen. I still have a long ways to go as far as actually completing the tasks, but I do make progress, which is a big step for me.
I’m also good at staving off overwhelming emotions when I’m talking, to an extent. I’m very capable of keeping myself from lashing out. I take things slow, and figure out what actually needs to be said and what is unhelpful. Not necessarily “I shouldn’t be feeling this,” but “that particular tone or request will not be productive in this situation.” That, I think, I’ve been developing for my entire life. People comment on it. I’m really good about making sure everyone is aware of the different perspectives, and at managing conflicts that do and don’t involve me directly.
I hate conflict, any yelling or miscommunication or tones or passive-aggressiveness or door slamming or stomping or drunkenness or even disagreement gives me massive anxiety. I’ve pretty much trained myself out of recognizing my anger. I used to say “I don’t get angry,” but it has to be there, so I’m adjusting my language. I was a scared kid, and I’m about to be a scared adult, so I’m trying to find my anger so I can actually manage it instead of (presumably) turning it into some of the physical tension that I attribute to my anxiety.
The point! The point was that I can calm people down and figure out the misunderstandings between people. I’m a good mediator. And I think that’s a good skill, I’m happy to have it, I’m happy to know that I’m able to do that when I’m under a lot of stress in these situations.
I still have a lot of work to do when it comes to actually dealing with the overwhelming emotions. I bury them, or freeze, or redirect my nervous or desperate energy onto something else until the feeling goes away, but I think I’m actually really not good at processing the emotions. I do so many things that I have just accepted, that I’m realizing might be a product of repressing my emotions.
they’re a lot. I was a scared kid. I understand how younger me got to the point where they were so overwhelmed with learning social cues and expectations that they decided “only express happiness and mild sadness” was the best way to avoid conflict. It works okay. But I feel awful all the time, and that’s… not okay. Gotta work on it.
I just felt SO MANY forbidden emotions
I was just wondering about Inside Out.
Ever notice, that in the mom’s head, all the emotions are women, and in the dad’s they’re all men? Well, in Riley’s head there are both male and female emotions. Why? Is she exploring her gender identity, do they evolve into whatever gender she finds herself identifying as? I think the emotions in the skater boy’s head are all boys, so is Riley genderfluid/nonbinary or something of the likes?