I think I rather need a mentor instead of a friend when it comes to kpop, because I am not only horrible with names and faces, but also kinda dumb.
only ꗃ lee heeseung
✷ word count : 817
✷ genre : angst (i'm not sure, once again ㅠㅠ)
✷ warnings : mentions of death
✷ notes : i'm currently not doing great, and writing is one of my escapes during these times. i hope you guys understand that instead of continuing ‘happier’, i will put it on hold and write these typs of short fics (the hold will be only for a while, the longest would be a week or so.)
it had been a long and exhausting day. despite the fact that you had a lot of unfinished classwork, you knew you'd reached your limit and wouldn't be able to push any further because you'd burn out. sighing deeply and stretching your fatigued muscles, you try to let go of the heavy feeling you're experiencing. it worked for a while, but only for a short time. you went into your kitchen to make warm milk to drink before going to bed, having already decided to call it a night. you changed into your silky white sleeping gown, which was considerably more comfortable to sleep in. after that, you crawled into bed and fell asleep.
you awoke the next day without realizing it was already past 11 a.m., and you were running late for your classes. you froze when you felt a hand move around your waist. when you were sleeping, how did someone get access to your room? you double-checked that the doors were secured and you weren't dating anyone, so how could this person come inside your room?
you promised yourself to only love one person, until your last breath. until you manage to live all your spare lives, if ever that the nine lives theory was actually true. you will always choose him, and only him, because for you– no one will replace him and his place in your heart. he is special, and it will remain that way, forever.
the individual who has their arm around you reminded you to shake your thoughts out of your head once more. as their soft breathing makes contact with your bare nape, you're starting to feel uneasy. you were even concerned for your safety. who knows, perhaps they're a serial killer? your kidnapper? a thief? however, after a few minutes of battling your thoughts and gathering the confidence you required, you persuaded yourself to confront the person spooning you.
this scent, and this warmth. you were sure it was his, you had zero doubts because you knew him too well. looking up to the person who's lying beside you in your bed, you were right.
it was lee heeseung.
but how? though you were perplexed, you still checked to see whether you were dreaming or if your mind was playing tricks on you. you were obviously stressed, but you couldn't possibly be hallucinating, right? you intertwined your hands with his while sitting up.
"fuck," you manage to mumble under your breath. it was absolutely true. but how, once more? you still can't believe what you're seeing, so you pinch yourself. you were able to feel the anguish, therefore this brings your thoughts to a close.
now, you were trying to wake him up. you were desperate on wanting to see his eyes open once again. to meet those loving eyes that spoke with yours, without even having the need of a lips to express anything. to feel his arms that gave you comfort and made you feel safe wrap around your frame. to hear his voice, that always gives you butterflies.
"hee, wake up." gently caressed his face, tracing his features before kissing his lips. it made him stir up a bit. he then replied,
"am i too good looking, love? you keep on staring, i might melt." he smiled sweetly as he opened his eyes and looked at yours as he drew you in for a hug.
you were too overwhelmed that tears welled up in your eyes. so it is really real. you didn't care, you didn't want to know how. because right now, the most important thing is that he is back. the person you'll only love, your soulmate– heeseung.
"heeseung," you call out for his attention, in which he replied with a hum.
"i love you." you felt every worry and problem you were now dealing with and experiencing start to melt away as you closed your eyes.
"i love you most." he replied, leaving a peck on the top of your head. although you've said that you didn't care, you still wonder how is he back?
wasn't he dead? didn't he pass away three years ago, from a car crash?
"how?" when you gazed up at your partner, your eyes were filled with wonder and intrigue. heeseung admired your eyes because they revealed who you truly are. it expresses your feelings in a way that he can read it like a book.
"it would be hard to take in but," he paused, sitting up and bringing you with him to sit in the bed.
"you've been through a lot, y/n. it's time for you to rest. be with me, would you like that?" heeseung extended his hands, and you accepted them without hesitation or analyzing what he had said.
you trusted him because you loved him. he was not just your first and greatest love, but also your one and only.
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「 🖤 」 ：you mean the world to me
y/n and your beloved one, heeseung, are spending your day, cuddling in a comfy hammock. the day's fair, there's no clouds in the sky, everything goes just fine, filling your heart with a pure happiness. a mid-day breeze caresses your bodies, it's a heavenly feeling. hee's relaxed, sleepy features make your heart beats faster each time you look at him. his long lashes, charming smile, soft skin... he's definitely your weakness.
your hands carefully stroke his side as you wrap around him, making a kind of a shelter just for him. securing him, protecting as you usually do.
somehow hee's sleepiness doesn't apply to you and you just stay awake, examining heeseung's face again and again. suddenly, a mischievous thought lights up on your mind and you slowly pull away from the guy, to hover over him in no time. he's still sleeping, not knowing what exactly you're going to do.
a happy smile appears on your face as you lean to him to place a soft peck on his forehead, making him slowly open his doe eyes.
“sorry for waking you up. Sometimes I wanna touch you so bad, it's like a craze,” you shrug and smile at him, when he sighs, giving you one of his best grins.
“i love it when you touch me.”
“i love you.”
such a basic set of words makes hee's cheeks turn pink, and he quickly removes his sight from you to the scenery. he pouts a bit, his ears are getting red as well as he frowns, placing his palms on your thighs and stroking them to let you know how shy he got. his fingertips carefully squeeze your flesh and soon he speaks up, licking his lips, “you mean the world to me..”
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## — SYNOPSIS throughout life, there will always be times where you’re faced with unexpected circumstances, whether good or bad, and it just so happened to be y/n who had to deal with it. y/n and sunghoon have dated for years before mutually breaking up, deciding to remain friends for the better—but what would prevail after finding out that sunghoon still has lingering feelings for her?
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warnings: cursing, y/n getting roasted.
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𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 | 𝒔𝒊𝒎 𝒋𝒂𝒆𝒚𝒖𝒏 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓
synopsis: "They're promise rings," He uttered. "I didn't want to go without leaving a part of me with you,".
pairing: sim jaeyun x gn!reader ft. lee heeseung
genre: (high amount of) angst, fluff if you squint your eyes
warnings: death, mentions of fire
word count: 1.5K
a/n: hello !! this is finally here 💀 it’s been sat in my drafts for a few months now and i figured that releasing it now would probably be a good idea, so i really hope that you enjoy reading :D (even though this is very sad and lowkey heartbreaking 😭). likes and reblogs would be highly appreciated <3
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You and Jake were like any other teenagers in love. Adoration practically gushing out of your hearts for each other twenty four seven, the both of you had long ago realised that you were both in fact head over heels for one another when a mutual friend forced the metaphorical ice to break between you two and finally end your platonic friendship. Like a flower blooming, you and Jake slowly twisted and turned around each other with admiration and desire. It was perfect, and you couldn’t ask for any more.
Teenagers in love, such a cliché.
The weeks turned into months, and the months turned into years. To date, you had been together for almost 2 years, and by now you were inseparable. Small but beautiful events such as slyly deciding to sneak out at 3 AM to meet him, to sit under an oak tree as you watched the stars in the ebony sky twinkle like diamonds. You remembered the way Jake had held you as you sat in a comfortable silence; his arms tightly wrapped around you. You remembered the way you had then shifted to meet the boys dazzling gaze, an innocent smile beginning to spread across your lips as you silently admired each other.
It was without a doubt, love.
Your nineteenth birthday was coming up, and without even giving it a second thought, you were dying to spend it with Jake. However, to your luck, his parents apparently had plans elsewhere. It was brought to your attention that Jake was about to leave for Korea for at least three weeks
So it was decided (last minute) that you were to sleep at his house 2 days before his flight.
Greeting you at the door with a big smile plastered across his face, Jake had already kindly ordered you two a meal, the steam visibly making its way through the cracks and bends of the polystyrene boxes. The scent of what seemed to be some sort of noodles coiled it’s way up your nostrils, making you even more eager to cram through the door and jump onto the sofa.
Jake placed out his left hand, a gentle gesture that invitited you into his home.
"You didn't need to order food for me," You joyfully whispered as he set the blue plastic bag onto the floor and took you into his embrace.
"I wanted to," He simply replied. His hand reached down and took your cheek into his grip, lifting your face to his. You felt a warm butterfly kiss being placed on your forehead, and you purely smiled at him.
The two of you cuddled up to one another, wooden chopsticks delicately placed into each of your hands as you stuffed yourselves with a Chinese takeaway.
It had suddenly hit you though.
Jake would be gone for the next few weeks, meaning this would have been the first time you had to go without being with each other for such an extended amount of time. You decided to adjust your position, your face away from the television and towards Jake's.
"I'm going to miss you," You say, while you burrowed your face into his broad chest. It was obvious you didn't want him to leave, but sadly, it couldn't be helped.
"I'll miss you too," He replied, his hand lifted to stroke your smooth hair. You decided not to reply, enjoying your final moments with the boy in pure bliss and silence. You did have a night and half of a day coming to spend with him too, so worrying about his departure should have been the least of your anxiety filled worries.
A few minutes passed with the two of you staying in the same position. Yet Jake just had to break it, suddenly seeming to remember something. Taking you out of his embrace, he sprouted off the sofa and quickly dashed around the corner.
What could it be? Some more food? The leash to walk Layla?
You continued to ponder about his sudden disappearance when before you realised it, he was back. A small white bag in his hand. With a shy smile, Jake reached into the piece of expensive plastic and pulled out a pocket-sized velvet box.
Surely, this boy wasn't about to propose? You loved him more than anything, but you weren't ready for that next chapter in your life. You could feel nerves starting to coil in your stomach. What could this boy possibly be planning?
To your relief, Jake didn't get down on one knee, but beside you on the sofa while he gently took your soft hand into his. Two small and simple golden rings were placed into your sight as Jake revealed what was inside the box.
"They're promise rings," He uttered. "I didn't want to go without leaving a part of me with you,".
You remained to sit there in silence, eyes widening at the small yet undeniably meaningful present the boy purchased for the both of you. He took the golden pieces of metal and slid them both onto your middle fingers.
"Happy birthday," He lovingly muttered. "I love you, y/n,"
Your voice slightly cracked, overjoyed with tears of happiness.
"I love you too, Jake,".
Moments like those made you realise that you would never be able to get over him.
In fact, he never came back from his trip to Korea.
A conversation with his parents filled with ounces of heartbroken tears had informed you of his sudden tragic passing.
It was a fire that had dreadfully ended Jake. Spending his free time at a club in Itaewon, the kitchen had supposedly caught on fire and suddenly spread at the speed of light. Many had luckily survived, only two not making it. One of them just had to be the boy you loved the most.
You almost felt like he had somehow magically known this was going to happen. Leaving you absolutely devastated as you cried your heart out for the past couple of months.
The ring on your finger would shine brightly in your eyes as the sun had managed to peek through your forever shut curtains, reminding you of the last time you had managed to be with Jake.
You needed something to fill the void that he left. Your friends would often come over to comfort you and try to help you move on, but it never seemed to work.
Jake just wasn't there.
As much as you loved your friends and undoubtedly appreciated their hopes in getting you to move out of the current stage in your life, you couldn't ignore the fact that nothing changed.
You still missed Jake like hell.
So you took matters into your own hands.
They do say you fall in love three times in your life.
So you met Heeseung.
Heeseung was different. He was slightly taller than Jake, quieter than Jake, had a different sense of style to Jake. He didn't have a dog you two could walk together. He was into singing, Jake was more of a dancer. He gamed a lot less than Jake. He wasn't too keen on Chinese food either.
You tried and tried to move on. You had Heeseung now. He was intelligent, funny, well-mannered, always respectful towards your parents. Good looking too, and definitely popular amongst his college peers.
But he just wasn't Jake.
The weeks turned into months, and the months turned into years, and deep down, Heeseung knew that you only took him as a replacement. He noticed the way you hesitated to hold his hand, and would often take an hour or two to reply to his messages. He once caught you going through one of your last text conversations with Jake.
'I'll be waiting for you <33'
But Heeseung didn't seem to care. Although he knew you didn't truly love him, he certainly did love you, and he hoped that maybe one day, he could manage to be Heeseung to you, not just a substitute for your broken heart.
So here you are, cuddling up to Heeseung on his sofa with a Chinese takeout meal, specifically some sort of noodles. Even though he wasn't the keenest, eating them was his only option, as you had strangely begged for the hot meal.
He does love you after all.
The final episode of Navillera playing on the television in front of you.
"Can you get us golden promise rings?" You spring out of nowhere. Heeseung turns to look down at you, but your gaze is still numbingly fixed on the television.
"But you already wear that one all the time?" Heeseung replies, his hand sliding on top of yours, thumb slowly rubbing your wrist.
You don't reply to Heeseungs questioning, instead just looking down at what he pointed out, deciding to stay silent.
Heeseung realises instantly. Sighing, he takes your head into his hand, placing it against his heavy chest, kissing your crown.
"Okay, I'll look online tomorrow," He promises.
"I love you, y/n," He adds.
❝𝗪𝗲 𝗸𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝗽𝗵𝗼𝘁𝗼𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗽𝗵
𝗪𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘀𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝘃𝗲𝘀
𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗰𝗹𝗼𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴
𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗿𝗼𝗸𝗲𝗻
𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲'𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝘇𝗲𝗻, 𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹.❞ - photograph, ed sheeran.
they say a picture is worth a thousand words, yet the best way to create a picture is through words. through words, we can weave a thousand tales, create photographs in the mind of the reader - and that is the sole purpose of this collaboration.
welcome to 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒, my first collab call.
∗ this is a collaboration for all fanfiction writers who write for nct dream and enhypen.
∗ there will be 14 slots, one for each member of nct dream and enhypen. slots will be assigned on a first-come-first-serve basis.
∗ to claim a place, just send an ask to me (@jensrose)! also, reblog this post to help reach other writers who may be interested :D
∗ an integral part of your story must be a photograph, a photo album, a picture or a polaroid. this must be a fictional item and is not based on a photo of the member in real life. your story must be based around this picture, or it must be an important part in the fic. for example, you could write a story where the member and the reader/oc took a picture to commemorate their first date together, and then elaborate further on that.
∗ no member x member fics are allowed. all stories must be member x reader or member x oc.
∗ the minimum word count is 500. there is no maximum word count.
∗ no smut is allowed (i’m still a minor). however, i will allow suggestive content for all the adult members. the stories for the minors (i.e jungwon and ni-ki) must be pg only.
∗ the last date for dropping out is december 31, 2021. all the stories must be posted by august 2022.
∗ once you’re done with your fic, tag me in it so i can add it to the compiled masterlist!
∗ communication will take place on tumblr itself. please don’t hesitate to contact me if you have any questions or need help with the story!
∗ lastly, have fun!
a note from ema: i created this collab to celebrate 550 followers :(( thank you all so much for supporting me and encouraging me throughout my journey here. i couldn’t have done it without you <33
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PHILOPHOBIA / ˌfɪl əˈfoʊ bi ə /
a fear of falling in love. It can also be a fear of getting into a relationship or fear that you will not be able to maintain a relationship.
YN is a love cynic and Heeseung is a hopeless romantic who's crazy about his best friend. He knows her past, and he understands, but he can't help the part of him that wants to help heal her heart.
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