While I was unpacking my weekend bag, I pulled out my latest batch of ed*bles and had a moment where I just sat a looked at the gummies in their floral, Hipster packaging and sort of felt a little dazed at how things are now with the way culture regards such things cos I still clearly remember the days of DARE in school while simultaneously growing up hearing all the scary things abt w**d and such and of course the stigma around ppl who used it
Which was often bizarre to me with the times I spent in hospital with my cancer patient niece who I saw was helped by the 'medical grade' stuff and hearing all the ways it helped sick ppl.... it was difficult to reconcile that as a kid.
And now, things are so different. Its wild to me to be able to walk into shops and see this plant that was once so demonized, now packaged in all manner of cute/fun/amusing packing and seeing how casual it is for ppl to talk abt their usage and whatnot.
Either way, Im glad things are different now and that especially, ppl who need it have access to it in more places. I think I'll be coming up a year in a month or 2 when I started ed*bles and its been interesting to reflect on how much they've been an aid for me to rest, be pain free for a while and aid me in therapy work.
While I definitely love the perk of music/movies being more fun to enjoy while h*gh, more than anything, the relief is the biggest blessing. For a few hours, the chronic pain/fatigue is gone, my ADHD symptoms are are nearly nonexistent and nt emotions arent drowning me. Last night I watched an almost 3 hr movie and it was easy the whole time - I'll never get over that. Perfect focus throughout; no pain from being underestimulated, and I was able to process information to understand what was going on.
and of course, the benefit of doing shadow work and therapy is just.... wow. Its wild to have direct, quick access to the root a problem or memory and not have the struggle of fear/pain/shame/embarrassment in the way that would make the process more drawn out/hard. and thus, its easier to let go of things or start building new neuro pathways to re framing certin experiences that involved trauma and such.
All this thanks to some fruit flavored, sugar coated gummy candy. Mind. Blown.