since i finished reading jane eyre yesterday i keep thinking about the version of this story in which 1) bertha isn’t just a plot device 2) jane meets bertha before she knows who that is
so listen, the main idea is that Jane meets Bertha BEFORE she meets Rochester. somewhere in the middle of the night Bertha wanders around the house, and she isn’t as mad as the book would like to paint her. Jane at first believes that this is a ghost roaming around this house, but somehow she and Bertha... start talking. and having conversations, that aren’t exaclty secret, but also nobody realizes it’s happening? and in the few months before Rochester comes home, the two women become close and realize they are very similar people.
oh and also Jane is definitively bi, but because of the times she doesn’t recognise her feelings towards Bertha at first
so when the whole romance with Rochester happens it is then that Jane realizes that oh, those feelings are very, very similar. yet she is a very moral person and also a person that understands her circumstances. there is no way she could have a relationship with a woman in that time of age, and there is not really a chance she could have a relationship with Rochester that is a man of higher social status than her. so she mostly stops meeting with Bertha.
and then the whole mess of relationship with Rochester happens and at the end Jane learns who exactly Bertha is. and since Bertha was very sour about her whole situation and didn’t want to say why is she living at that house it still comes as a shock.
so after the wedding that didn’t happen Jane runs away, right? but not before having an conversation with Bertha for the last time. does Jane ask Bertha to run away with her? i don’t think so. i think this conversation is very sad and very short.
i’m not sure how the story should end with that premise, but i for sure want Jane and Bertha to live happily together using the money Jane inherited. and i think the fire should still happen, but this time Bertha doesn’t kill herself, but probably runs away in hopes of finding Jane. and she finds Jane. and somehows, somewhere, they make home together.