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I believe I sadly can't continue playing IDV the way "I'd like to play it".
It's not because of other players, toxicity etc. it's rather because of me and my very own issues. As some of you eventually may know, I suffer from BPD and a strong anxiety disorder + ended up relapsing yesterday evening for some reason, since I've been suffering from a very, very fast heart rate for an entire week even if I didn't have any panic attacks or other experiences that could've trigger my fears and nervousness.
Therefore I strongly believe that it's the game itself that has a "bad" influence on me because I often get very excited whenever I play matched and my heart tends to race like crazy, even if I have no heart problems at all. I haven't touched the game for two days and still im sitting around while feeling like dying, since I can't calm down + not even my tranquilizers are helping me at all while I srsly wish to die at some point because I'm honestly tired of this nonstop fast heart rate, no matter if it's because of IDV or not.
After 12 years of intense therapy, I'm honestly very exhausted while having tried out way too many things. Meditations, breathing exercises, magnesium (which only gave me diarrhea), sports, strong tranquilizers, hypnosis and many more. So far nothing has helped.. It's really chaotic and irritating to me because I'm so sick of living, yet I don't want to die at the same time because I'm well aware that suicide isn't a solution and in the end it also doesn't do any good at all, so it looks like I somehow gotta stay through this daily agony, even if I'm also well aware that there are people who suffer from waaay worse problems that I do. So I don't want to complain too much but currently I've really reached the point where I snapped. One random jackass told me after a lost match that I should go & kill myself, which was too much for me and I ended up doing things to myself that I shouldn't have done + deeply regret now..
So this is just eventually an example and a reminder to all of you to STOP playing this game for a couple of days, weeks or even months if you get easily excited or especially when you're going through a bad time. Trust me, it's not worth it to put yourself under so much pressure and if you end up meeting random c*nts who insult you for no reason, then it can cause even more harm to your wellbeing. I'm not the only example for this. One of my very good friends suffers from high blood pressure and he also tends to get very thrilled during some intense matches, which also causes his heart to race all of a sudden, so he also decided to take a step back from situations that stress him out, in this case IDV.
So everyone, please take care of yourself and take breaks if you feel like you seriously need them. Don't push yourself too far until you cross an eventual line. It's really not worth it to damage yourself and your wellbeing.
I read an amazing Twitter thread the other day about creativity that gave the oft-repeated and not new advice that the more you do a creative activity like writing or drawing the better you get. But the thing that felt different about this iteration of it was that the op compared creativity to a pipe that only has one faucet and that is backed up so in order to really let things flow you have to get all the blocked up stuff out; in other words; you have to let all your bad ideas out first. and then once you do you start developing the ability to see what makes your bad ideas bad and you learn how to make them better and it’s fairly easy to learn what makes them bad simply through the sheer numbers of bad ideas you’re being exposed to. The speed of it, the continual producing, starts to make patterns really clear. And it just really hit me as so true and helpful. Because of course I’ve heard people say that the only way to get better at something is to do it and of course I’ve heard that the only way to produce something good is first to produce something that, at least by comparison, is bad but I’d never really put the two thoughts together?? Not really. It’s as obvious as DAYLIGHT but I’d never actually connected it. And. It just makes so much sense. Continual doing without (over)worry about what is being produced creates a real flow and rush and of so of course the first stuff won’t be as good or have as much weight? Because any kind of flow has to start somewhere, has to pick up speed, has to carve out a path and that beginning work doesn’t and tbh can’t yield something that is that beautiful to look at because bigger stuff is happening in terms of shaping the space/path to work in! And it’s just as much a part of the work as the stuff that comes later that is the finished product!
#I think for some people creativity is really simple because they simply do this from the start #I am thinking of Taylor and tbh I am thinking of Emma #they write because they’ve always written! always wanted to. always had to #and the continual doing was the training! was the start of it all without their noticing! #but for people who haven’t done it their whole lives (me) the starting is more complicated because it’s easy for me to complicate it #because I’m coming to it older and with much more complex feelings #but I mean I guess this is true of me for other kinds of writing #I wrote essays/meta …. all the time. because I wanted to because I had to #and I didn’t think of it as practice but it WAS #with fiction writing I am aware that it’s practice and aware that I’m bad at it #and I want to do it but in a different less totally instinctive way than I wanted to write to express my thoughts on tumblr.com. #so it’s just about me realizing I need to be less self-conscious #and that can be tricky #ANYWAY THIS IS SUPER OBVIOUS BUT LIKE. I LOVED IT AND I KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT #I think that’s what I want to do with Emilia #like: sit down and just write out all the bad ideas as fast as I can and then start putting together the good ones! that’s what I want to do #this summer. even before I get back to my book drafting! #anyway I hope this is helpful to anyone reading this and I hope it makes sense!!!!! sometimes I write these things and I have no idea #If they DO make sense!!!
Today we will make you a quick guide to materials used in the production of clothes, harmful and environmentally friendly, and recommend which clothing stores to choose.
Here are some examples of environmentally unfriendly fabrics:
Nylon & polyester
The synthetics that are made from petrochemicals. During the nylon manufacture there is the process of creating nitrous oxide which is a greenhouse gas that is 310 times more potent than carbon dioxide. On the other hand, polyester uses large amounts of water for cooling. Energy consumption for both of the processes is very high.
This one may look like sustainable, but it is another artificial fibre. It is made from wood pulp. Old forest is usually cleared to create pulpwood plantations. Often the tree planted is eucalyptus. To make viscose, the wood pulp is treated with dangerous chemicals such as caustic soda and sulphuric acid.
Yes, it is a natural fibre, but those kinds of fabric can be problematic as well. Cotton field take a large area to grow and take the space that could be used by local people to grow their own food. During the mechanical cotton harvesting, herbicides are sometimes used to aid the harvesting process, and it has a bad effect on our health and environment.
And now we’d like to share some eco-friendly fabrics:
Linen is made from flax, another traditional fibre crop which needs few chemical fertilisers, and less pesticide than cotton.
Recommended shop: Poppi
Bamboo is the latest plant material to hit the eco-friendly fabrics market. It is described as hypoallergenic, absorbent, fast-drying and naturally anti-bacterial and comes from a very fast-growing plant.
Recommended shop: Bam Bamboo Clothing in UK
Hemp is a thoroughly ecological crop: highly productive, easy to cultivate and pest tolerant, so it needs few or no agrochemical.
while doing uni stuff i went like “yeah, should’ve done that, that solution is truly elegant” and now i feel like i’ve just been possessed by xeno’s spirit what do i do now do i have to exorcise myself or
#dr stone #xeno houston wingfield #i'm just trying to get stuff done as fast as i can but #i can appreciate when someone solves a problems in like ten steps less than i did #and that...that was sure something
#brain empty#just screams #cause i am angry #and tired #and want to cry #rip #my mental health is taking a fast decline #i havent responded to messages in two weeks #i havent done anything in two weeks #oh my godddd someone help #uservignette #idk if i needed my tracking tag on this #but idk how tracking tags work so why not #personal vent
why do i get called fatphobic for not supporting obesity the same way other ppl don’t support underweight..? i’m not calling them ugly for being big i’m just saying they’re fucking unhealthy whereas other ppl do call severely underweight people ugly and that’s somehow more acceptable LOL
Xiaomi claims that their smartphone battery using 200W HyperCharge charging can last for 2 years before feeling capacity degradation.
Xiaomi just announced the presence of the HyperCharge 200W charging technology some time ago. They seem to use the latest generation USB Type-C protocol to deliver this technology.
Some parties are a little skeptical regarding the presence of this technology, for…