It’s kind of crazy the amount I have had to train my brain just to like…exist in a fat body. You internalize so much shame when you are fat.
Or my personal favorite…
It takes years to unlearn this kind of thinking and even then, the intrusive thoughts are constant. And there will always be a part of you and a part of the world that insists that you did not live up to your fullest potential because you didn’t mold yourself into an acceptable shape.
Forgive yourself for the shame. Acknowledge it when it comes. And try your best to let it go. I know it’s hard. Because your head tells you that learning to exist in your body means that you are accepting the fact that it might not change, that you might not ever find a way to be thin and thus acceptable. But if I live my whole life shaming myself, hating myself, and trying to be that which I am not, I’ll never be able to live the life I’ve been given in the body that I have. And which of these truly, is a waste of a life?
Then as soon as you hit my waist BAM fat fat fat fat fat
I’m tired of being fat
My size 6 friend said to me “omg I always thought you were a size 8 but you took your spanx off and your tummy is HUGE! You’d be a size 12 or 14 wouldn’t you?”
i forgot all the side effects of fasting. i had the worst headache from caffeine withdrawal so that was fun:) i’ve lost 3.6 lbs in 3 days of fasting and only eating about 600 calories. i’m going to try and cut it down to 400 so i can loose more before christmas. i’m really hoping this lasts this time, i usually binge when i go below 165lbs and gain all the weight back
if anyone has tips on how to not give into cravings please let me know <3
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Why do I finally get hungry so late at night 😓😫
Hey, no luck on edtwt, so,
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Oh yea , mind ya business kev
Took this the other day for a mate on grommr, looks like im starting to get some tits let’s hope my belly grows to hold them up.
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I actually feel so fucking disgusting. So I’ve been staying home these past few months and I wore jeans for the first time in the longest time. Most of my jeans dont fit me anymore and the only pair that does was super tight!!! I dont know my weight and haven’t had a scale since September, last i checked it was 154 but rn it’s probably a bit more :/. I really need to get my shit together especially if Im supposed to see my family for christmas :( ive never weight this much before
this is a picture I took today
I found out I actually have a flat waist, but it’s wider than I’d like. :(
I wonder how much stress plays into this, or anxiety, or you know, holding it in.
Just finished eating a box and a half of Honey Buns. Or I guess, technically one and two-thirds. Just say you ate ten. Why you gotta be so complicated? Well, I’m about to eat the last two from this box, and I feel like saying I ate two boxes might sound better than saying I ate twelve buns. Is it bad that I wish we were back on hormones so this fat would have a better chance of going in the right places? Oh well. Better watch it. We’re fine.
Watching videos about quantum physics, quantum mechanics, cause we’re into that now I guess. It’s just a distraction. I know. It’s also interesting, so who cares? Are we not allowed to do stuff or watch stuff we find fun, just cause we got issues that need to be dealt with? I don’t want to waste my time worrying about stuff, and didn’t someone say like, we don’t need a research team or something wasting time on that? You wonder why you’re dreaming about this stuff? Okay. Our sister was like, research what? What would we do without the internet? We wouldn’t be able to make up our mind about anything.
Stress eating, emotional eating, see, Google knows all. So you know it’s a thing, everything is a thing, so what, what are you going to do about it? Do I have to do anything? We stopped walking. We haven’t danced in a while.
Honestly, sleeping on the floor is more comfortable than the chair. It might be a feeling of being comfortable with the familiar now that I think about it. Though, we do toss and turn a bit, it’s not very comfortable being in one position for a long time, understandably. I don’t know how it was on the bed, maybe we did toss and turn there too, but we didn’t have to wake up for it like we’re doing now.
I think the roommates are avoiding using the basement. They hadn’t been coming down much anyway, that’s why we felt comfortable moving down here, but now I feel like they’re avoiding it all together, save to wash their clothes.
Spider-Man 3? With all the Spider-Mans? Oops, spoilers. Has it been confirmed though? Not yet, but it’s all but.
The restless leg thing, I think if we were to put spikes though our feet, or knives in our thighs, that would take care of it. Just jab em in there. Ace Ventura, Pet Detective? There’s no such thing as free will, sorry. It depends on your definition. Words have meaning. Yes, and? Babies can’t talk, but they’re cute when they smile. She made us cry though, cause she’s cute, and I think we made her cry when we started crying, like oh my gosh, I’m sorry, lol.
I feel bigger
i’m sorry if don’t post my own photos.
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i don’t even wanna weigh myself because i know i’ll just hate myself