UM WHAT HAPPENED TO PENNY THIS EPISODE
UM WHAT HAPPENED TO PENNY THIS EPISODE
hello all!!! have a fink i drew for some friend’s au!!! also partially inspired by just network stuff in general.
Opening up about all my trauma my entire life has really fucked me up as a person. I thought opening up was supposed to be a positive thing.
me, getting mad because my husbands mom was manipulating him
and he wasn’t even aware
because its soooooooooo subtle
then, 2 weeks later realizing different situations
where my parents manipulated me to
feel one way or another
just so that they can have their way…
me, also realizing that sometimes the people who are being manipulated by their parents can’t tell before its too late
and the damage is done…
and the worst part is
we still blame ourselves
Yes, it is. In F.E.A.R. 2: Project Origin. Back again with “Mission 06 - Ruin”. This was a pretty fun one and had some cool areas.
Um yes I do think that’s an irrational fear. It’s ok to be aware of it but not going places because of it? Any advice?
Climb the rope I hear,
it reaches higher than sight,
a frightening thought
to begin the task, this faith
requires me to conquer fear.
D W Eldred
Have I finally hit the wall, crashing at a hundred miles an hour? Is this how we shatter? Is this what I’ve been waiting for? Is this the truth in what I’ve been expecting? Can humans exists as something else than revolving stars set on stellar collision, devastating? Was there any other way this can go?
“God gave us his Spirit and the Spirit doesn’t make us weak and fearful. Instead, the Spirit gives us power and love and a sound mind.”
2 Timothy 1:7
We are paralyzed in the present because we fear that the future will be
worse. We know what we have today but not what will become of tomorrow.
But what if the future is better then now?
Should we condemn ourselves for being fearless by standing still or should we take the chance and hope for the best?
Because we shouldn’t be thinking about what MAY BE but instead of what CAN BE. And what ever be we end with, we grow into something more.
It’s overcoming the fear of being fearless.
Fear - “I Love Livin In The City”
From the album The Record
(May 16, 1982)
Last song scrobbled from iTunes at Last.fm
File under: First Wave West Coast Hardcore
im scared. im scared to lose weight. god im so fucking scared- i want to lose weight and look better but for some reason i feel as if i’d be someone else. I feel as if my whole persona would change. and im scared because i dont want that to happen- im scared to look back and miss the person i was, i dont want to abandon my current self. I feel as if i’d be killing her and i dont want that, all shes gone through only to leave her all alone and become someone else- someone others would like more but fuck- i want to lose weight.
I don’t wear my fear like I wear my other emotions. I won’t let you know if my heart is in my stomach. I’ll keep a smile on my face and my shoulders square no matter what I’m faced with.
I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve battled worse things in my own head than could ever face me in real life, or if I just refuse to use my last moments acting as if fear will change the outcome.
The only thing I won’t do: feel my feelings. There is no time. There will be no time. I can not let myself feel. It will break me. There is too much emotions built up over the past few years which I refused to feel. How fucked am I?
Soon, I see it, I will loose the one that I love the most: my best friend. I will chase my blurry dreams, move away, run away. She will stay. I will run. For blurry dreams? Yes. Because it just makes sense to me - to run away. I deal with the problems pretty simple - dive into bigger fear to shade previous one. Is it the feeling out of my comfort zone that is exciting so much? The unknown? Or is this all just my incompetence of handling problems that are in front of me? Am I just hoarding the problems, until I can see which one to ignore? Am I only capable of having a peace in my mind when I run? Are the contemporary problems the only ones I know how to handle? Am I just ruining my life because I run? The thing is - I don’t know. And maybe I refuse to know.
Di I crave to feel? Yes. It doesn’t makes sense, does it? I crave. For feelings that are positive. That are making me feel safe. I wish so badly for so long that I don’t know how to do it anymore. Honestly, I just don’t. There has been too much, I just shut down. Sometimes I wonder… Do I feel something or am I just projecting what is expected of me? How can I know? Well, I don’t.
But you should. Are your dreams blurry? Do you know what you want? Do you know how to get it? Do you know where to start? If not, ask away. Maybe this lost one can help you? Maybe I can just listen. It is something at least, right? Do you feel? How does it feel?
[Graphical user interface, application. Caption: But our fear keeps us in line.]
just realised ben and tim merideth have the power to make IMOGEN say poggers
I really haven’t been doing ok. I’ve been crying my eyes out all night, and today.. I’m just so scared and terrified that my life is going to fall apart. I’m afraid of starting over, I’m afraid that no one will love me because I’m trans, I’m weird, I’m a handful because of mental illness, I’m afraid that men are just gonna see me as a sex object like always. I’m just fucking terrified
Fear is supposed to keep us alive
To protect us from danger
But it grabs my throat
And it fills my lungs