Food Diary 16th January

Breakfast

Black coffee - 5kcal

Lindor chocolate balls x2 - 153kcal

Total - 158

Lunch

Costa muffin (why did I eat this) - 382kcal

Costa white hot chocolate - 234kcal

Total - 616

Dinner

Skipped! ☺️

Total - 0

Snacks

Rice cake - 40kcal

Fibre One brownie - 90kcal

Black coffee - 5kcal

Total - 135

Subtotal - 909

Exercise - minus 255

• 1 hour of cardio, abs and resistance training

Total - 654

Got some exercise in today, only an hour though which f*cking sucks (usually do 2 and a half) like f*ck I’m such a fat bitch 😒 also had a costa today (which is on safe foods) HOWEVER only drinks from costa, I had a damn muffin too, idek why

everytime someone likes this i’ll do 100 jumping jacks<3 lets go

Fear Foods

• Rice
• Bread
• Certain chocolate
• Donuts
• Pastries
• Pasta
• Mac & cheese
• Digestives
• Muffins
• Meatballs
• Potato skins
• Apple pie
• Cheesy chips
• Chips
• Crisps
• Pizza
• Full fat ice cream
• Unweighed cereal
• Milkshakes
• Takeaways (kfc, McDonald’s, subway etc)
• Peanut butter
• Porridge
• Rustler burgers
• Bacon
• Sausages
• Cheese

I’ll probably add to this 🤍

Safe Foods

The list is shorter but here’s my safe foods for now, questioning a few things on it like breadsticks, oreos and bananas though which may be put in fear foods soon, idk

• Low cal ice cream
• Cup o’ soup
• Coffee
• Green tea
• Bananas
• Pears
• Breadsticks
• Soup
• Ravioli
• Weighed cereal
• Fibre 1 brownies
• Diet Coke/Pepsi Max
• Chewing gum
• Sugar free red bull
• Rice cakes
• Cereal bars
• Yoghurt
• 10cal jelly
• Starbucks/costa
• Oreos
• Low cal ready meals

I found this olive oil spray in the supermarket yesterday (it was even on offer!). It says it’s 2ml per pump, so 16kcal. I will definitely use it to roast vegetables in the oven. I‘m so glad I found this, I have been looking for something like that for ages but it’s not really a common thing here in Germany, so I‘m even happier that it was on offer. Oil has become a big fear food of mine, it has crazy many calories and can be hidden in a meal so easily. So good thing that I‘ve found a way of being able to cook with it where I still got control and don’t have to go without it completely.

Q: What is your fear food?

A: pasta 🍝

Comment yours below if you have one and any alternatives to them 😘

we r having me fear food for dinner so like fuck me in the ass omg i hate it here

I really tried to enjoy the holidays since 202 sucked hairy balls and all, but I’m back up to my start weight and I feel like such a failure. I got down to my first gw and then blew it and I don’t feel like I can ever get that low again. I’m not even at a maintenance weight that I can be happy with. I’m just fat and gross and unhappy

hey, today ive got to eat one of my fear foods which is pie and potatoes, ive ate nothing apart from a little bit of cucumber but i’m so scared, has anybody got any tips to not eat it as i can’t make myself throw up because i have emetophobia 🥲

. Pizza

. Potatoes

. Cheese

. Fish and chips

. Burgers

. Fast food

. Full calorie soda

. Crisps that aren’t baked

. Cake and donuts

. Chicken kievs

. Pies

. Milkshakes

. Tacos, fajitas etc

. Churros

And probably more stuff that I forgot about lol. All of these were my favorite foods pre-ed and now I can’t enjoy this stuff :(

i ate half of dinner and had an anxiety attack, damn so we really relapsing huh

my mum just forced me to eat pasta which she knows is my biggest fear food 😭 and shouted that she doesn’t care wtf

Guys, I’m pretty happy with myself. For me, pizza has been a fear food, since I’d always say I’d only have 3 pieces or a third, and by the end of the night the whole thing would be gone! I always hated myself for it, but then today, I realised… if I didn’t cook the pizza, I wouldn’t eat it… so I cut the frozen pizza into thirds and stored each third in the freezer, so I have no guilt and I won’t break my calorie deficit!!

You don’t have to fear food, it’s there to help your body stay alive.

Creds@

https://instagram.com/recover_with_alice

OGTT today.

Sat there, basically willing myself not to throw up. Made it to 2 hours, took the last blood sample and then to the toilet to basically spew water.

That stuff tastes and feels nasty. Doesn’t matter what stage of ED recovery you’re in (I feel like it will always be some stage of recovery?!) having to fast and then drink sugar is always triggering

On the plus side, phlebotomist was lovely.

Just had a milkshake (fear food) because it was all I could find close by and feel so much better now.

my weight is (hopefully artificially?) up, due to symptom use on Friday night and i’m super nervous because i’m going home (to my parents) for the week where i won’t be able to weigh myself and food’s going to be scary(ier)

I’ve been holiday baking all day and my mom can’t understand why I wipe the butter off my fingers or wash the chocolate off instead of licking it off. I’m so stress because i’m literally surrounded by my fear foods and I can’t even refuse to make them because it’s the holidays.

ate a fear food today! woulda put up a pic but it looks kinda gross so I’m like nvm LMAO it’s this microwaveable gyudon bowl that’s UGH so good and it’s been sitting in my freezer for so long and I barely have food in the apartment so like,,, yah might as well :’

But shit was good LOL

If anyone would like to comment or message me to let me know what a piece of garbage I am for eating pecan pie earlier tonight, feel free.

I can’t stop thinking about it. I just yesterday morning broke my plateau finally and then I turn around and ruin it immediately? I’m so angry and upset and afraid to weigh tomorrow.

Half a grapefruit, half an avocado, a piece of toast and 5 strawberries with some truvia and coke zero

A little under 300 cal

Trying to reincorporate some fear foods! I’m a grown adult and avocado scares me and my aversion to any type of bread knows no bounds